maryo enters a weird pipe and goes to hell

i.. [djmaea2k02]

cover by me, painting from a J.G. Ballard exhibit i think? 

take note: a shivering woman, lost upon the whittling sand
fake hope, attemping something. I wish you could understand

evil in figure, juxtaposition
concept of evil, my imposition
my scraggly posture, my terrible eyes
my terrible eyes, my trust in you

and if i said my thoughts 
"I desire your safety, woman!"
take a look, at my arms
push, push in safely
you push in safely, im lost like a baby
like an infant, hold me closely
repeat my thoughts:
"I want it, baby"

Flaws are the greatest strength in lust; they aren’t a spectacle, but a subconscious creation that fuels the red in my brain to push and say that I love you. God, my entire body is full of fuzz. My skin folds like paragraphs, like multiple indentations. 
  “Please rub me.” 
  “Okay,” she says with a smile.


take note: a shivering woman, lost upon the whittling sand
fake hope, attemping something. I wish you could understand

evil in figure, juxtaposition
concept of evil, my imposition
my scraggly posture, my terrible eyes
my terrible eyes, i lied to you

evil; handmade

was supposed to be longer just thought i should get this one out

big thank you to the @sounddesignday guys for hyping me up on this one so much also

produced, mixed, mastered by urs truly
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2 far away 4 comfort
we'd only stand a chance if u let me in
we can run as far as u need 2
id jump off the edge of the world if u asked me 2

the other day i heard ur voice at work
ik its u
or maybe im crazy

i love the smell of ur perfume though ive never smelt it
ik its u, its u
or maybe im crazy

ik its u, its u, its u
far away from here
further, further
further & further
its u

mmm-
hmmm?
take
what u need
save what u have left

hey, u!!
every step i take get closer
so i wont wait up

further&further

take a soma
now my bones stuck
im alone bruh
throw my phone yuh  

i dont know what
im supposed to
i dont feel liek
im supposed to

in a coma
im like so what
im like so gone
im like so fucked

think its ova
pinpoint eyes see the world a lil slowa
wanna die put a pill in my soda

bitch im bleeding
take a pill and now im dreaming
molly rock got me rolling on the ceiling
i forgot that people care about my feelings
i dont really wanna stay so im leaving

i dont wanna be alive but im breathing
i dont wanna be awake so im sleeping
you fuck with my feelings
so intense so insane but its fleeting

i dont wanna be like this
i dont wanna feel like this
take a pic cuz i forget
wake up in pain i just get dressed

drag my nails across my flesh
never more and always less
feelings i cannot confess
nodding off i feel so dead

i will never try my best
i will always fuck it up
get a check i fuck it up
fuck a bill im buying drugs

i feel bad i get fucked up
take a oxy i get stuck
take a oxy dont throw up
but it still is not enough



SOMA ft. CDGIRL prod. CDGIRL [OG VERSION]

BABY LUCIFER, YOU RAISED ME UP FROM OF THE PITS OF HELL
CAN'T REMEMBER WHO I WAS BEFORE I MET YOU. CAN YOU TELL?
IT'S A BAD NIGHT TO HAVE A CURSE AND I'M DOWN DEEP UNDER YOUR SPELL.
KEEP HAVING THIS FUNNY DREAM THAT HAS YOU LEAVE BE[cause you know-]

TELL ME WHATCHU THINKIN BABE! ପ(๑´꒳`)੭
I CANT READ YO MIND, LIEK WHAT YOU THINKING BAE??
IS DIS WHATCHU MEAN TO SAY?
U WAN HOOKUP WITH THA DEVIL?
WHATCHU THINKING BAE?!?
UON NEED ME BAE..
CUZ IF I DRINK YA BLOOD THEN WHATCHU THINK THEN BABY?
SHI IM TOO FUCKING CRAZY
U STILL WANNA FUCK? I THINK THAT WE BOTH CRAYZ...

we both crazy as hell!!!!
INA MADHOUSE THEY TELL ME IM NOT THINKING TOO WELL
MY DOG CAME FROM DA GRAVE HE FROM HELL
I THINK U MADE A MISTAKE, GIRL I AINT TREAT U WELL
GIRL BE CALM, GO N WAIT TILL THE BELL
WHEN THE CLOCK STRIKE TWELEVE WE GON RAISE US SOME HELL
im moving that loud thats that smell ... (￣_￣|||)
I SMOKE A LOT BUT I CRY MORE SO U CANT EVEN TELL

HOOKUP WITH THA DEVIL

need it (prod. sydney runner)

fanta in my system

trap queen

Mix for deadAir Transmissions Ep. 6 on https://nts.live
Thank you to NTS, Jesse & Co. for having me :)
Archive: https://www.nts.live/shows/deadair-transmissions/episodes/deadair-transmissions-12th-september-2025
Art by @ cutehospital on Instagram

Tracklist: (* = unreleased)

1. Culour - Mmm Daaa
2. Exodus1900 - Exchange (p. umru)
3. Che - MDMA (elxnce edit)*
4. elxnce & Knoir - ID* x Taio Cruz - Dynamite
5. elxnce & gunk - ID*
6. d0llywood1 - Based (p. Vinso)*
7. nomu & d0llywood1 - without you 
8. Exodus1900 - Granny (p. kuru, 4am)
9. Baths - Eden
10. Try Hard - Nice Try
11. Olswel & elxnce - ID*
12. Passion Pit - Little Secrets
13. Fakemink - Easter Pink
14. Summrs - Iraq (p. Vinso)
15. elxnce & Cece Natalie - Telephone (zayok Mix)* [Out Sept 26th]
16. edyn - macbook (p. sydney, elxnce)
17. djsn3s - DJsPlayingWack
18. gunk - u cant run (p. aghast)
19. xang - london tipton (p. fk, elxnce)
20. Baths - Iniuria Palace
21. Baths - Lovely Bloodflow
22. mental - good luck poems
23. Flume, SOPHIE & Kucka - Voices
24. anarchy - regenerated (p. ivvys)
25. d0llywood1 & Vinso - U can't help me
26. Autumn - Foot on they neck
27. kuru - AT123 (p. elxnce, heroine)
28. G Jones - Dancing On The Edge
29. key vs. locket - a play
30. EDEN - Light Sleeper
31. Tropes - Prying Ears (p. sydney)
32. Andrew Huang - Never (elxnce cover)*

elxnce ➜ NTS Radio — 09.11.25 (for deadAir Transmissions Ep. 6)

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maryo enters a weird pipe and goes to hell

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