Looking out of the window, morning mist is promising a silent day.

Morning Mist (comp. & perf. michael spielmann)

Societies are opening up, the disease is still here. What can we humans do? Repose, decompose!

Get yourself some memories man, You deserve it!

All music: Natt Brus and the Monomentals
Lyrics: Monkey Blood Lowdown and Admiral Krank
Lead guitar: Admiral Krank
Vocals and vocoder: nic

Greatest Hits

Repose

Elevation

A recording of C÷M performing ‘Forgotten Conversations’ at the Empty Space, Salford (25th September 2021) as part of the show "From Where? To Here".  For video see https://youtu.be/S55q6Gqge1I
Forgotten conversations: Recordings of voices reciting the phonetic alphabet, scrambled and reimagined.  Bubbles of turbulent communication; Incorporating The Curve: musings on past, present and future; It takes all your nerve to flatten the area under the curve.

C: myself
M: Jon Ogara (@allopenelectrics)
(see https://craigwinstanley.online/from-where-to-here/ for further information)
For a review of the show, see https://thegmreviewer.com/2021/09/18/c-div-m-from-where-to-here/

Forgotten Conversations (performed live by C÷M)

Song written by Arthur Russell in 1992.

Released on the Calling Out of Context album from Audika Records in 2004.

I recorded this version in my basement with my guitar, some pedals and a few keyboards in November of 2021.

That's Us/Wild Combination

Substrate

“It is not the the bruises on the body that hurt. It is the wounds of the heart and the scars on the mind.”
― Aisha Mirza (Author)

“When it comes to abuse, you believe there’s no way out. There is always help. There is always a way out.”
― Rev. Donna Mulvey

A sister song to "I had a fight", told from the point of view of the partner of the alcoholic in that song.
Many thanks to Patricia Fortuny for that idea - I love you! I hope I've done justice to the subject matter and to all women who have found themselves in an abusive relationship.

lyrics
He hasn’t hit me yet
But I’m ready for the blow
Though if he does, I’ve nowhere to run, nowhere to go
He hasn’t hit me yet

I knew he was a wild one
Right from the very start
A boozer and a ladies' man
Yet, somehow I lost my heart
I thought he’d settle down
And learn to drink a little less
But I was just trying to fool myself
I see that now, I must confess

At least he hasn’t hit me yet …

There are no hidden bruises on my skin
But then some blows don’t have to physically connect
You see … my bruises lie within

The owner’s outside, he’s waiting for the rent
How can I tell him it’s already been spent?
And when himself comes home, staggering from the booze
I complain about the money; he tells me it’s his to lose
Oh oh oh oh
But he hasn’t hit me yet

He hasn’t hit me yet
And perhaps he never will
But in his drunken rage he seeks to blame
It’s the fear that haunts me still
So much unexpressed!
I’m sick from all the lying and the hiding
People wond’ring if I have been crying
And at night I … cannot rest

There are no hidden bruises on my skin
But then some blows don’t have to physically connect
No, no, no, no! No hidden bruises on my skin
It’s true some blows don’t have to physically connect
You see … my bruises lie within

… my bruises lie within
… the bruises lie within
… they lie within

Gotta get away, gotta get away x3
Gotta get away … there must be a way

credits
from Stranger in your own land, released December 30, 2020
Music and lyrics: Michael Sellers
Vocals: Michael Sellers
Guitars, piano, musical arrangement, & production: Sergio Aguilar
Drums: Rodrigo Uribe
Cover designs: Loretta Sellers Fortuny
Track cover photo: Image by Layers from Pixabay

Stranger in your own land

Bruises Lie Within

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Bruises Lie Within 5 Stars/Commended rating in the UK Songwriting Contest, 2021

A new jazz original entitled I Should Have.  I'm joined by the fine Sam Mendez on both tenor and soprano saxes and talented Jon Lock on bass:

https://soundcloud.com/santi-caballero
https://soundcloud.com/jon-lock-5

https://soundcloud.com/jamie-rhind/sets/swinging-with-santi-caballero

Thanks as always for your generous time listening, for your comments and for your shares.  Reached #8 on the charts in the Hot & New section of Jazz and Blues

That's Us/Wild Combination

JosephWillemMitchell