Audio Files of Fifth Edition of the Basic Text, Narcotics Anonymous in English

N.A. Basic Text Book 1 [Disc 1]

The Basic Text Of Narcotics Anonymous 5th Edition

I am in Recovery.
I will be going to & self admitting myself (by choice) to Rehab for the first time, and I am scared to death.
Never in my life have or did I ever say “I wanna be an addict when I grow up” Never.
And although yes, I physically picked up the drug, I’m not making any excuses, I was under a severe nervous breakdown and completely out of my head and didn’t know whether I was coming or going or the time or day or let alone sometimes what YEAR it was.
NO conscience CLUE, until long story short, the third time I tried to put the drug down (because all three times the “fog” started to lift form my brain and head and THEN I REALIZED wtf I was ACTUALLY doing).
It was like I was on an auto pilot or something, I was entirly dissociated, No Clue….
But, fast forward through I don’t even know how many relapses later due to I get SUPPER SICK, like dope sick, because I AM DOPE SICK(turns out- the drug I am addicted to is LACED with Fentanyl(GREEEAT!), so I’m TECHNICALLY addicted to TWO drugs, or at least my body is, physically. So basically I get SO SICK I just cannot handle it it’s THAT bad, THUS,  Why I keep relapsing. It’s just too hard to get through what I call is the “Withdrawal Wall”. Anywho, Oct 1- is THE DAY. So here’s to recover and I hope I HOPE I HOPE I DO NOT F*UP AGAIN!! I have been busting my A$S TO prepare and do EVERYTHING I need to before rehab so that my “ducks are in a row” and I can 100% focus on my healing and recovery. I even blocked and deleted my “Dude”…My quiet date will be Aug 22, then I see Mellissa Ethridge in concert on Oct 1- (WHATTAH SEND OFF HUH?? lol)- the Oct 2- Rehab Day 1. Phewwww … #Anxiety #Scared #TryinMyBest #ThisBetterWorkImDONEWithThisShit

The Basic Text Of Narcotics Anonymous 5th Edition

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