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I cant feel my face
I just snort it away, I snort it away
And I dont hate this place
I just hate myself

And I dont hate you
I just hate myself
Am I another dusty memory on your shelf?
Will youre still brand new to me,
so tell me how it's suppose to fucking be.

So lonely,
now I see,
the colors,
so clearly,
and I wonder,
does she miss me?
Do you miss me?

I could never be picture perfect.
I could never be fucking worth it.

I know youre better off, without me...

Spotify

fucking worthless. [prod RODGER ★☆]

no samples
prod. @93feetofsmoke

I'll be the interlude you never asked for
and make it hard to catch your breath
I'll make u learn to hate your head

I'm that sleepless night u have so often
when the pillows just wont get comfy
and the past creeps up to haunt me 

you're the shadow by my favorite river
playing tricks in my peripheral
at least whats left of it

at least whats left of it

at least whats left of it

the interlude you never asked for

@ihateshinigami

it never rains anymore
i've been laying on the floor
so disgusted with myself
cant fucking take this anymore

i'm the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

hands shaky like my life
its fucking hard just to type
none of my friends are alright
just hiding tears in our eyes

trust me i wish i could stop caring
i swear to god i'm fucking trying
my heads just fucked up from the lying
honest i wish you never met me

my heads just fucked up from the lying
honest i wish you never met me

it never rains anymore
i've been laying on the floor
so disgusted with myself
cant fucking take this anymore

i'm the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

i have this this hole in my chest
it hurts so bad i can't rest
waking up from all this stress
i'm fucking trying my best
to live a life on my own
i always stare at my phone
waiting for you to hit me back
because i always feel alone

im the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

leave me in the past
i bet no one will even notice

shinigami x 93feetofsmoke - it never rains anymore

with @guardinmusic @i_x_t_a_i_l_s @sewerperson
prod and mixed: @jakkyboi and @lilpolearm

whatever it takes (feat. guardin & 9tails)

@youngburial @epsyle @jaymee_heartless

fuck...

UR FULL OF SHIT
MISS ME W THAT KID 
GOT NO TIME FOR SIMPS
MIND BEEN SHIT
SINCE LIKE '96
LATELY PATIENCE THIN
KAY IM FUCKED 
AGREED LIKE LETS MOVE ON
THINK THAT TOPICS SPENT
CLEAN FROM DRUGS
BUT VOICES I NUMBED
WANT TO SEE ME DEAD
SEE ME DEAD
SWEAR SINCE OFF OF IT
FACES ROUND ME FLIP
BODYFLIP MCM A BITCH
I MIGHT SLAP SOME SENSE
FEEL LIKE SHIT
SCROUNGING UP A GRIN
EMPTY VOID OF SIN
I MIGHT JUST GO GHOST ON THE WORLD
DEATH STILL PLAGUES MY HEAD

SICK OF LIFE
SICK OF FAKES
TALK THAT SHIT
TO MY FACE
I THINK I'M LOSING IT
MY BRAIN ON FIRE AGAIN
YEAH FILL ME UP WITH LEAD
I WANT TO SEE ME DEAD

I WANT TO SEE ME DYING
FROM THE THIRD PERSON
WATCH THE  VULTURES EAT ME SLOWLY
FIND SOLACE IN DECAY

life is great this is awesome :) ft. fats'e (prod. epsyle & heartless)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tW_QQpGjTUE

produced by jakkyboi
vocal, engineering : me

i fucked up

LONEWOLF

i fucked up

lonewolf

prod. @notclipped
mixed by @youngburial

imma lie seller price is high figures
got the right hitter 
five figures on my fucking head 
imma do it cheaper
been bitter like whats on my tongue
either pills or liquor
grim reaper round my fucking throat
tryina breathe deeper

i've been drifting in and out 
like busy shitty restaurants 
still drink until the suns up
feel anxious when the light comes
cuz nothing really matters 
at the end of the day
at the end of the day
no one will no our names

on the road again
all alone again
take another piece cuz ive been building tolerance
isnt it obvious?
imma piece of shit
ill just leave you high and dry just like the dealers did

imma lie seller price is high figures
got the right hitter 
five figures on my fucking head 
imma do it cheaper
been bitter like whats on my tongue
either pills or liquor
grim reaper round my fucking throat
tryina breathe deeper

i've been drifting in and out 
like busy shitty restaurants 
still drink until the suns up
feel anxious when the light comes
cuz nothing really matters 
at the end of the day
at the end of the day
no one will know our names

LIE SELLER (prod. Clipped)

Prod. @anxietyattackss

This is do or die just like everything else ya
This an angel falling fast I might need help ya
"These are words you need to hear" I tell myself yeah
Pray that god strikes me down don't wanna live no more

I don’t have no time for closure
You did your rounds I fucked around and now it’s over
You know expecting things to last Is bad composure
I know I’m fucked up in the head thats why i lost her

Please forgive me for my sins, I ain’t mean to hurt my loved ones
and unfortunately I did, Imma regret my mistakes until the od or the lead
This is much past far removed you know I've been way off the edge

this is suicide just not sure where it ends
this is beautiful just let me play pretend
this is cynical i've been a piece of shit
this is factual I'm just relaying scripts

Imma own up own up
imma fuck up fuck up
are u sorry that u met me?
i still wonder, wonder
but you don't gotta wonder
x2

This is do or die just like everything else ya
This an angel falling fast I might need help ya
"These are words you need to hear" I tell myself yeah
Pray that god strikes me down don't wanna live no more

this is suicide just not sure where it ends
this is beautiful just let me play pretend
this is cynical i've been a piece of shit
this is factual I'm just relaying scripts

I'm so stuck in my head
life look like a dead end
broken heart i can't mend
out to break more again

Imma own up own up
imma fuck up fuck up
are u sorry that u met me?
i still wonder, wonder
but you don't gotta wonder

this is do or die just like everything else (prod. Anxiety Attacks x Bruce Leen)

prod. @WRCKTNGL

I don’t know what to do
I’ve learned that love isn’t true
Any day I might not wake up
I might throw up
Think I took too much

Any minute
U might slip up
Lie and say u didn’t
U might switch up
Yea I’m nervous cuz I’ve lived it

Any day I might not wake up
I might throw up
Think I took too much

Do these words hurt to hear
I selfishly keep u near
I drown my thoughts in a fifth
80mph off a bridge now
I spent two weeks sick owwww
Withdrawals break my head down
Fighting my own way out

I don’t know what to do
I’ve learned that love isn’t true
Any day I might not wake up
I might throw up
Think I took too much

Any minute
U might slip up
Lie and say u didn’t
U might switch up
Yea I’m nervous cuz I’ve lived it

Any day I might not wake up
I might throw up
Think I took too much

aye yeah think i took too much
aye yeah think i took too much
aye damn think i took too much
aye god damn think i took too much
x2

I don’t know what to do
I’ve learned that love isn’t true
Any day I might not wake up
I might throw up
Think I took too much

Any minute
U might slip up
Lie and say u didn’t
U might switch up
Yea I’m nervous cuz I’ve lived it

Any day I might not wake up
I might throw up
Think I took too much

aye god damn
i might throw up
think i took too much
aye god damn
i might throw up 
think i took too much

ANYDAY I MIGHT NOT WAKE UP (prod. WRCKTNGL)

prod. @4evrgone

I don't know who i am
i don't trust who you are
lately all i can do is pray to the stars
that this bleak observation of everything i see
might one day turnaround 
i need to get some fucking help

im fucking sick of myself 
fucking sick of how my brain has a mind for itself
consider this an open letter you wont read for yourself
yeah of course im talking bout whos typing these words all down

looking more and more like deadman in this wonderland town
looking more and more like deadman in this wonderland town

leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing
leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing
im fucking sick of myself 

im fucking sick of myself
fucking sick of how my brain has a mind for itself
consider this an open letter you wont read for yourself
yeah of course im talking bout whos typing these words all down

leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing
leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing

sick of myself (prod. 4evr)

i want drugs i need sleep ya
i want drinks i need weed ya
imma fiend find me beans ya
why she acting sweet to me now?

whats been lying thru ur teeth now?
its alright
if you think im talking bout you
maybe guess why
racks and carbon paper in the magazine
ship it back land more packs
tax it to the scene

i wont let you in im cold and empty
dont take it personal its burdened on me
she keeps sending me pics calling me daddy
but i dont fuck with damn near anybody

you aint slick 
im too clean
why she act sweet
2mg in the limegreen
sleep on window seats
tryina see all this green grass
but its gray to me
life just ends it seems
everytime i breathe

you aint slick 
im too clean
why she act sweet
2mg in the limegreen
sleep on window seats
tryina see all this green grass
but its gray to me
life just ends it seems
everytime i breathe

i wont let you in im cold and empty
dont take it personal its burdened on me
she keeps sending me pics calling me daddy
but i dont fuck with damn near anybody

2mg in the limegreen

i dont wanna talk you not day ones
i been all alone for a month long
i turn off my phone you cant hit me up
i do my drugs alone cuz im cashed as fuck
i dont got no friends
i dont got no friends
staring at my screen 
till my 20s end
i got lots of ends
tryina meet all them 
i got lots of sin 
i got lots of gin
blood on my teeth
fighting with grief 
just like everyone
they fucking with me
but im not at ease
around anyone
i hide away, hide away 
until my fucking soul takes
okay, sorry if i OD in the foyer
i been wasting all of this time just thinking
complacent about my life routes im taking
im facing all my demons with the same name
at least they all look at me the same
i dont got no friends
i dont got no friends
staring at my screen 
till my 20s end
i got lots of ends
tryina meet all them 
i got lots of sin 
i got lots of gin
blood on my teeth
fighting with grief 
just like everyone
they fucking with me
but im not at ease
around anyone
i hide away, hide away 
until my fucking soul takes
okay, sorry if i od in the foyer

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