this version: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RD81z-YJX-g

Mom - Bloodeater (cover)

i wrote most of this a few months ago and i finally figured it out today. 

you are the crow
on the wires overhead
powerful as night
And i feed you crumbs of bread

and we will build a nest
earthenware for all our things
and you will calm me down when your alarm clock rings

I love you in a way ive never felt
and i will lift your wings when youre too tired to fly yourself
And all of the shiniest trinkets in the world 
i will place them on your shelf

funerals for friends
And they do that, yes i checked
and your feathers soft as snow
Though you hate how cold it gets

but i will keep you warm
And we’ll toss and turn in sheets
and our bodies will transform
and our love will always keep

I love you in a way that i have never felt
and i will lift your wings when youre too tired to fly yourself
And all of the shiniest trinkets in the world 
i will place them on our shelf

Our love is enough
Our love

crowsong

lyrics:
god it sucks to want to want but  lord I’ve tried and i just dont
i need something to stay afloat, got cinderblocks for feet  i know 
“just try your best” i do i did, im standing on a falling cliff
“just take your pills” i did, i do, how many more until im thru?

this liferaft I’ve been granted is just cardboard and its slanted
and wherever i was going doesn’t matter anymore
its hard to care bout destinations when you’re drowning on the way
so if i hear another “years from now” i swear ill go insane

i miss my shrink i had in 2020, miss the years i left my room
the years where i could give a fuck about the things i feel or do
i miss when i was singing to nobody in my childhood home
when nothing felt performative, and bettering was full of hope

my god thou hath forsaken me, and birds are picking at my corpse
im strung out for you all to see, but all i get is: love this song
im overwhelmingly aware of everything that i do wrong
but how can i change that, theres nowhere to go if i move on

nowhere to go if i move on

and god how could i ever know  how useless it would feel to hope
the more i am disappointed the more i expect the worst i know
“just call the hotlines” oh i did, they told me to just go to sleep
“just call your shrink” and oh i will, but shes sick like she always is

this “bettering” im searching for is nothing but a canker sore
a wound that i keep touching so it cannot ever heal
its something i’ve been wishing since i was just a little kid
but it just hurt to realise the thing i want was never real

i miss the years i wasn’t sick, when i was ignorant in bliss
when i was small enough to play and never think about a thing
where i was on the swingset so convinced that i really could fly
now if i see a swingset  i can’t help but start to cry

my shrink thou hath forsaken me, a month between each useless talk
i keep on eating worthless meds and keep on getting worse and all
i want is to be better but what does that even mean?
i keep on wishing  i will wake up and this all would be a dream

Canker Sore

new album out now
https://blackdresses.bandcamp.com/album/peaceful-as-hell

CREEP U

originally created for a compilation that never ended up happening. free / pay what you want download here: https://classicj.bandcamp.com/track/lovefool-the-cardigans-cover

lovefool (the cardigans cover)

quick somg from my voice memos about worrying that when trying to date people will not see me as a woman or dislike me bc im not cis

working on lp1, this is not on it

transgenderification beam

little one take laura les cover bc this song gets me in my trans feelings

voice is kinda rough but i like it

how to dress as human (laura les voice memo cover)

Finkles World

lyrics

you said i was making it up
when i told you i was scared of it all
and the spectres of our past conversations
are haunting down the halls

i thought i had it figured out
i really thought i had it planned
i buried that boy in the graveyard then i
washed the blood from my hands

I'm Going To Be A Girl For Halloween

lyrics

deadname
call me by your wrong name
you were standing there
at the open grave
where the casket lay
untouched

call me up when you're feeling sober
strip my body, tell me when it's over

infantilize
tell me all your lies
if i could steal her body from my slumber
i'd be alright

she sits on the curb smoking a cigarette
and cries
just because you read your books
doesn't make you so wise

if i was just a skeleton would you love me more
i'd haunt you, as if you'd ever forget my fragile corpse

don't call me
don't call me pretty
don't call me
don't call me pretty
i got a bad taste for lies x2

if i was just a skeleton would you love me more
i'd haunt you, as if you'd ever forget my fragile corpse
and i never felt the same since they found me on the shore
you can trade your body but they'll always just want more and more and more

Deadname

lyrics

you led me down into your chamber
the candle glowed upon the wall
well you could tell just by the look upon my face
that i don't trust you at all

you tied me up just like a harness
bound to your will
trained like a dog
i've never been that good at doing things for me
brain got all lost inside your fog

the witching hour
it's coming for your soul
the witching hour
you lost your self control

mother warned me to be careful
but i ignored the signs
lets see the haunted mountain
get lost and get real high
felt fucked before i met you
you led me to your light
we could kiss in sacrilege
chase love into the night

the witching hour
is coming for your soul
the witching hour
you lost your self control

they'll never find our remains again
they'll never find our remains again
until october again

Witching Hour

“music”

https://peachringsnc.bandcamp.com/releases

Deadname

ramona b

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