i dont know where im going <3
COVER ART BY AUTUMN WOO 
lyrics vvv
i bet u like the way that ion rly know where im going
by the way i talk online youd say im really outgoing
yeah i wish that i could say that but im choked up by emotions
by the way that i been living think im going thru the motions
yeah, yeah
coughing down potions
tryna make all my shit have promotions
i always wanted some commotion
but honestly, ion think i know where im going.
imma,
bit lost
big sad
little girl <3
trapped up in a cruel old world
everythings a god damn blur, yeah
imma,
bit lost
big sad
little girl <3
trapped up in a cruel old world
everythings a god damn blur, yeah
its been fun..
no it really fuckin hasnt
its been a fuckin hell bein in this place
and even harder tryna keep up w this face
i bet u like the way that ion rly know where im going
by the way i talk online youd say im really outgoing
yeah i wish that i could say that but im choked up by emotions
by the way that i been living think im going thru the motions
yeah, yeah
coughing down potions
tryna make all my shit have promotions
i always wanted some commotion
but honestly, ion think i know where im going.
imma,
bit lost
big sad
little girl <3
trapped up in a cruel old world
everythings a god damn blur, yeah
imma,
bit lost
big sad
little girl <3
trapped up in a cruel old world
everythings a god damn blur, yeah

bit lost, big sad, little girl (siem spark)

produced by @polar333 x @remghost

lyrics:
i just cut my leg in the shower 
no one here to help me after hours
u got plenty bitches on ur side, mine badder
didn't see ur intentions yeah i couldn't see the patterns
switch up on me every day ur causing a disaster
i thought we were moving forward now it's different it's all backwards
i just been on some shit that u would never know
why u all so scared of me? ur standing on ur toes

it's not my fault i keep on falling apart
and if u tell me it's all better i might give myself a chance to restart
i just keep on spilling black blood
drank too much i'm throwing up my guts
i miss getting fucked up having fun
back when we were kids up on the run
way before i ever thought about facing a gun

i just cut my leg in the shower 
no one here to help me after hours
u got plenty bitches on ur side, mine badder
didn't see ur intentions yeah i couldn't see the patterns
switch up on me every day ur causing a disaster
i thought we were moving forward now it's different it's all backwards
i just been on some shit that u would never know
why u all so scared of me? ur standing on ur toes

disaster (polar x remghost)

prod. oldskie

[Verse 1]
So pretty
Unconventionally pretty, yeah
Had to work twice as hard
To never hurt your feelings
No entry
Trespasser of the century
Trusting me is twice as hard
I can help you if you let me

[Chorus]
Either way, either way, either way, either way
You would've been fine
Write a page, write a page, write a page, write a page
I'ma write a long time
Please survive, live your life
Mine are wet, yours are dry
Can you say, can you say, can you say, can you say
I'm not the right type

[Verse 2]
Oh, really
You don't notice that I'm ugly
They don't know
I'm not afloat
Appreciate the silence
Nothing here on my end
Please feel free to send a signal
Please feel free to miss me a little

[Chorus]
Either way, either way, either way, either way
You would've been fine
Write a page, write a page, write a page, write a page
I'ma write a long time
Please survive, live your life
Mine are wet, yours are dry
Can you say, can you say, can you say, can you say
I'm not the right type

love us again (joji cover)

all the things i could never say


Sorry i can never tell the truth :(
But honestly its somethings thats kinda scary to do
Emotions are never clear to me, its true
So sorry if it seems like i cant stand u

U dont even notice all youve mended
All the problems that i cause in a panic
Swear im sorry for the way that i treat u
But i swear that im tryna be brand new 

Sorry i can never tell the truth :(
But honestly its somethings thats kinda scary to do
Emotions are never clear to me, its true
So sorry if it seems like i cant stand u

I know its hard, playing a part, that u never even wanted
And i know ur far, from where they departed, i know ur not the same person
But could they realize what i did?
When i was by ur side and
Saw what u became when everybody u needed left u

U dont even notice all youve mended
All the problems that i cause in a panic
Swear im sorry for the way that i treat u
But i swear that im tryna be brand new 

Sorry i can never tell the truth :(
But honestly its somethings thats kinda scary to do
Emotions are never clear to me, its true
So sorry if it seems like i cant stand u

All the things i could never say
Like how i hate it when ur away 
Or when i cant hear what u gotta say
Or when i know that ive always been in ur way
But honestly ive figured it out
Im not gonna argue with the words in ur mouth
So please dont u ever doubt
Im always gonna stick around from now on

U dont even notice all youve mended
All the problems that i cause in a panic
Swear im sorry for the way that i treat u
But i swear that im tryna be brand new 

Sorry i can never tell the truth :(
But honestly its somethings thats kinda scary to do
Emotions are never clear to me, its true
So sorry if it seems like i cant stand u
X2

“And if u cant take no more, call on me”

jan 4th

urloveismydrug

i miss u bad ;(

@jauntsen
@claudesdiary
@cherryrizla
@poptartlovesu

jauntsen, claude, cherryrizla & poptart - discord movie night :/ (spleen!)

just a cover. :) 

listen to the original here : @uhohkawasaki

saki! - wait for me (cover)

For The Summer

꠸ꪀᦓ꠸ᦔꫀ ꪻꫝꫀ ꪀ꠸ꪶꫀ ᥅꠸ꪜꫀ᥅ (ρ᥅ꪮᦔ ᠻꪮ᥅ꫀꪜꫀ᥅ ꫝꪮꪑꫀ)

talk to me
i'll get scared that you'll get bored of me
didn't get it right but first try's called a first try for a reason
goodbye's only goodbye if you're leaving
talk to me
got me faded on some memories
but i wake up feeling like my head's in the freezer
white lies in the backseat, you deceiver 

are the chemicals in your head doing all the things that you'd like?
i don't wanna feel the pressure on me for the rest of my life

i might text you just to hear my phone buzz
it's been a while and i've been thinking so much
drawing pictures in designer frames
writing scriptures in the form of a paintbrush
i might text you just to hear my phone buzz 
it's been a while and i've been thinking so much
caught me slipping and i can't complain
gonna miss you like the coffee in my cold cup

talk to me
i heard you mention honesty
well i never meant to learn some things
didn't ask for no apologies
didn't want it but you talk to me
now i'm faded on our history
if i wake up on the wrong side of the bedroom, empty handed
lights out and the warmth's gone from the blankets

are the chemicals in your head doing all the things that you'd like?
i don't wanna feel the pressure on me for the rest of my life

i might text you just to hear my phone buzz
it's been a while and i've been thinking so much
drawing pictures in designer frames
writing scriptures in the form of a paintbrush
i might text you just to hear my phone buzz 
it's been a while and i've been thinking so much
caught me slipping and i can't complain
gonna miss you like the coffee in my cold cup

don't you tell me i'm broken
all this heartache got me feeling outspoken
i won't let you tell me i'm hopeless
i'm not what you really want 
don't you leave without warning
with my hopes up 
and my love well you're stalling
new phone and i see that you're calling
i'm not what you really want

talk to me.

shoutout @buttonmaker 

seems like it was only yesterday
said everything will be okay
but you're a liar and i believed you
and all the stupid shit you'd say
but im better now
dont fuck with my head
i could go without
wanna leave this town
but the voices in my head
tryna bring me down, down, down

cause when i call you
i know you wouldnt call back
i was fucking with you heart
but its all black
but i didnt have to tell you
you knew that 
im outta sight
i cry myself to sleep at night
and it, hurts me just to know youre fine
over in a blink of an eye 
like butterfly kisses

told you that i'd call you
maybe im just on mute
maybe its all bullshit
maybe you dont miss it
what we had
way back then
you had said
once again
ended with a knife in my back 
but you dont even see it like that
million messages are on read
maybe im just better off dead
dead and gone away
ive moved on to better things

cause when i call you
i know you wouldnt call back
i was fucking with you heart
but its all black
but i didnt have to tell you
you knew that 
im outta sight
i cry myself to sleep at night
and it, hurts me just to know youre fine
over in a blink of an eye 
like butterfly kisses

cause when i call you
i know you wouldnt call back
i was fucking with you heart
but its all black
but i didnt have to tell you
you knew that 
im outta sight
i cry myself to sleep at night
and it, hurts me just to know youre fine
over in a blink of an eye 
like butterfly kisses

talk to me.

fndme.