All songs written, performed, and recorded by Mark M. DeRobertis

Rockin' the Cosmos

I recognize the planet...and everybody on it
And I know what they’re thinking...they think the end’s upon it

Well is it...is it gonna happen
Ev’rybody runs for cover...as the thunder starts a clappin’

But this is not the reason...the reason for my visit
It’s not to cause destruction...I came because I miss it

So many years have passed...more than I cared to last
So many worlds have died...no matter how I tried

To save ‘em...but I couldn’t do it
All I did it didn’t matter...but of course they never knew it

I hope that now is diff’rent...because I know the planet
They know it’s gonna hit ‘em...the populace who man it

But is it really true...that’s what I’m here to do
No one alive can say...they’ll live another day

Is there a way...other way out
Choose if I may...something about

Other dimensions here...alternate worlds so near
So much I Iearned ‘til now...can I remember how

Many new worlds...slipping through time
Shiny as pearls...still in their prime

Why do I perceive there’s something diff’rent in this population

How...can they know...that it is me...coming home...to where I came from
Now...if I go...will they all see...I’m alone...but not the same one

It is not my wish to cause a global wide eradication

But there is something about this world before me
I have no reason to doubt they will abhor me

When I look into the mind of ev’ry person
I don’t see anything kind, it’s all aversion

Just what might have caused my people to regress
Was it war and hatred, I can only guess

This is not the world I left so long ago
Things weren’t perfect but they never were this low

When I look into the hearts of all the people
What was good suddenly starts becoming evil

The air, the sea, and the land, full of pollution
Nor will they soon understand my retribution

Is there something that I missed along the way
These are not the people I knew yesterday

Just how long have I been traveling in space
Are these people still part of the human race

So it’s the end...I can see...yes, it’s over...this is the end
So it’s the end...I can see...yes, it’s over...this is the end

10 - So Many Years

Another time I might have let it all be
I would have thought that nature was right
But things are diff’rent now, especially me
Since I became a part of this light

I’m trapped I have no command
This thing I don’t understand
I’m just a prisoner here
I can’t keep track of the years

I’m learning more about the universe law
It’s not a bit like I had been taught
The evolution of the life that I saw
Is something no one had ever thought

I’m not involved with this thing
It’s not what I want to bring
To my home planet of earth
The world and place of my birth

Destruction happens every place that I’ve been
I try my best to make it all stop
I thought I could from the position I’m in
But when I let go it doesn’t drop

You’ll learn about it and then you’ll blame it on me
You would not doubt it and no one could truly see

I can’t save the worlds out here
Light speed wave, a force to fear
Throughout time and throughout space
Like shoestrings I’m about to lace
If I could I’d end it now
I surely would if someone simply tells me how

But who can know
And just in case
Where do I go
Is there a savior out here in space

I still remember when I signed up for space
It was the best thing I ever did
I got a thrill like when you’re winning a race
It made me feel like I was a kid

But...I should have known
A time would come...foretelling doom
What...was never shown
Was I’m the one...and just how soon

I...still can’t believe
It now appears...to be my fate
My...eternal grief
Is now my fear...that it’s too late

Do you believe I wanted to let it be so
Don’t you believe I’d rather have let it all go

Just...how can I keep
This lethal force...away from earth
Must...it simply creep
A random course...for what it’s worth

So many people back on earth counting on me
When I arrive there will they know how it will be

Will...they feel the pain
Will it be slow...or is it fast
Still...will it remain
Or will it go...into the past

I’m not the bad guy...I’m not the bad guy
I’m not the bad guy just ‘cuz you think I am

I’m not the bad guy...I’m not the bad guy
I’m not the bad guy just ‘cuz you think I am

I’m not the bad guy...I’m not the bad guy
I’m not the bad guy just ‘cuz you think I am

Galaxies are endless and the universe they populate is vast...in all eternity
All that I can hope for is the planet that I’m from will be the last
Of all the worlds I see again

09 - I'm Not the Bad Guy

Sent on a mission afar
No telling what I would find
Moons with a binary star
Sights that you wouldn't believe
Could blow your mind

Ice comets, helium rain
Subzero alien skies
Gas giants made of methane
Stars born and then disappear
Before your eyes

Senses now are nothing like I ever knew before
Something like a radar screen but obviously more
Taking in so much I never knew could be so vast
Diff’rent ways to see the space I’m traveling so fast

I’m like a bat who’s in a deep, dark cave
With sirens wailing out loud
You’d think by now I’d be a lot more brave
But I don’t think that I’m feeling so proud

I thought that ev’ryone would choose to live
Forever if they all could
I’ve heard them speak about what they would give
But now I know it’s not something I would

Wonders...sightful, blazing wonders
Thunders...loud and booming thunders
Feeling a new sensation reeling

No words are good enough to really tell
The story that I’ve been through
A writer probably could do it well
A poet might describe ev’rything too

These memories of what I had one day
Are full of dreams in my life
It keeps me going as I’m on my way
While cutting through the void sharp as a knife

Seeing...with no reaction visions I cannot describe
Being...a new distraction I feel the energy ride
Through me...and all around me as I’m absorbing it all
To me...as though a sponge was soaking a huge waterfall

Something’s in the making like a brand new institution
It’s there for the taking if you’re seeking absolution

Never ending never will end that I know
Never ending time and again
Never ending never up high or down low
Never ending never know when

Who will know me, who is to know
That I’m here, who will know me
Nowhere to go

Never ending never again will I know
Never ending nothing at all
Never ending no one’s aware, or if so
Never ending, rising or fall

Distant future, only for me
All alone, nothing human
Nothing to show

Never ending, living a dream that’s not mine
Never ending always the same
Never ending sifting the sands throughout time
Never ending no one to blame

No one hears me, no one to see
Or call out, no one’s for me
Nowhere to go

Never ending, living on endless as time
Never ending not what you think

But all I know is now I am here
And ev’ry time I think about who I am
Part of a life that seems ever near
Will I begin to understand what I am

08 - Never Ending

I’m still just a man...I do all I can
Don’t wish you were me...even though it’s true I live eternally
It’s more like a curse...I know nothing’s worse
I’m cold and I’m hot...and I find I’m doing things I’d rather not

No man or god could know what I found here
No words describe the force that I see
Just like an eye inside a tornado
That’s what it’s like surrounding me

Yet I feel it inside...like something you would disdain
An unstoppable tide...or a torrent of rain

No watch or clock record the time spent here
No days or months reveal a new moon
More like a slide into a dimension
It’s like I’m in a bad cartoon

Yet the moments go fast...like all the grains in the sand
As they pour through the glass...making me a new man

So now I’ve learned the lessons taught me by time
And I contain this wisdom deep inside of my mind
Until the day is here to share the knowledge I learn
I know I’ve done my part I know I’ve taken my turn

But then the truth will leak more like a sieve
Not as the ones who speak have you believe

As I look throughout the view
I see the lives of worlds I never even knew
Some will hate with raves and rants
And then there’s those who live like colonies of ants

Deep inside my soul a part of me hides
Am I a conscious mind who’s just along for the ride

Up and down, then in and out
Of space and time I don’t know what it’s all about
If I had a choice to make
I’d choose a path to go where nothing was at stake

Living souls they’re stuck like bees in a hive
And not a single life form has a chance to survive

Somehow I must discern a saving grace
Reach out and then preserve the human race

Is there a chance to learn another way
Leave here and then return another day

I’m still just a man...I do what I can
Don’t wish you were me... even though it’s true I live eternally
It’s more like a curse...I know nothing’s worse
Than what I am now...something more than just a man I don’t know how

07 - Like a Curse

Space...it’s all around...still...I see the ground
There...a sky so blue...now...I see you too
Since...that...day...united me with you

How...can you understand what I am
Now...that I’m something beyond a man
I...can be anywhere you can be
Why...is it happening just to me

Here....in my mind...so much more...I can find
All the...things that make life abound
Circling all around...all this is happening
Will I live long enough...taking in all this stuff...ever so maddening
I can’t be sure...what I am...so obscure
Have I...lost my identity...to a new entity...is it a fallacy
In all the universe...could it be I’m the first...throughout the galaxy

I never knew...what I could do...until that day
When you became a part of me
Then...I saw just what I used to be
I was just a man in space among the stars
Until I came face to face with what you are

But is it true that it’s me
Is all this what I could be

I’m a spaceman from the earth...just a spaceman from the earth
I’m a spaceman from the earth...just a spaceman from the earth
I’m a spaceman from the earth...just a spaceman from the earth

Power surging right through my mind
I can’t seem to keep it in my control
Shooting out in front and behind
I think it’s become a part of my soul
Now it seems that I’m part of what
Will soon be the end of all that I knew
Can I find a way I can shut
It down or will I destroy Terra too
Growing so immensely...shattering intensely
Nothing stands before it...how can I implore it

Don’t...destroy the world I know...let life around you flow
You have a lot to give...just let my homeworld live

But is it true that it’s me
Is all this what I could be

Powerful energy...living eternally
Nothing surviving it...no one depriving it
Why is it I am here...nothing for me to fear
Only a sympathy...setting right into me

But is it true that it’s me
Is all this what I could be

How...can you understand what I am
Now...that I’m something beyond a man
I...can be anywhere you can be
Why...is it happening just to me

Here...in my mind...so much more...I can find
All the things that make life abound
Circling all around...all this is happening
Will I live long enough...taking in all this stuff...ever so maddening
I can’t be sure...what I am...so obscure
Is it me

06 - Spaceman

There’s a light...finding me...I can see...can it be
Got to fight...make it right...get it out...want to shout

I can feel...tingles on my skin...now I know...what is here
Very slight...presence that I’m in...will it show...or appear

In my brain...I can see...ev’rywhere...here and there
No more pain...not at all...something else...I can call
Out to you...out to them...if I knew...what to say
I can hear...what you think...I can live ev’ry day

I am one...merging with a life...until now...all alone
All it is...put into my mind...and I feel how I’ve grown

A force...it lived...since the dawn of the universe
A great...conflict...deep inside but it sure is worse
Great lives snuffed out...old worlds in doubt
Sometimes ended...or befriended
I just happened to be around in time
And taken for something else sublime
Now being the new recipient
Of power with no equivalent

Where should I go...I can choose all of history
What I do know...I see through all the mystery
All time for me...what a story
And you know it...I will show it
I decided to end the cosmic game
Confided their loss was just a shame
Now bonded to what I thought could be
Evolving into a new living form

Not confined...in a case...I can leave...from the top
Now aligned...here in space...do I breathe...will I stop

This is it...only I...have the sight...of a star
Would I sit...could I fly...should I fight...who we are

In the night...I will understand...what it is...who I am
Purple light...shining from my hand...I will do all that I can

05 - Merging

I’m alive, but for now that’s the most I could say
I survive, don’t know how, cuz I can’t just get away
I am caught in a drift that I found myself in
It was hot, it was swift, it was called a solar wind

Is this the end...engines are dead...all I can send...sweat that I bled
Who will it be...out there in space...who will find me...what will I face
One day...one year...it may...be near

I know there’s someone out there...I can feel it
I just can’t say I know where...to reveal it
They’ll save me from a cold death...and surprise me
They’ll find me on my last breath...and revive me

Soon...my screen...picked up...a sign
It....revealed....a life...not mine
Were...there men...out there...like me
Space...so vast...who could...it be

In the mist, through the dust I could make out something
With a hiss, and a thrust, streaking and then hovering
It was huge like the back of a tall skyscraper
A deluge or attack from a starship carrier

Where were they from...what were they called…what moved them on...I was appalled
Now more than one...soon I lost count...never I saw...this large amount
Of steel...so hot...so real...or not

Enormous vessels so vast...they were giant
A new superior caste...and defiant
Passed by my little ship here...and it scared me
I gave them nothing to fear...so they spared me

Then...a streak...of light...appeared
And...the string...of ships...was sheared
Not...a one...survived...that day
What...it was...I still...can’t say

In a flash, all the worlds that I found way out here
With a clash and a swirl they can all just disappear
In the breadth of the space that was mine to play in
Was the death of a race that I thought were supermen

04 - Death of the Supermen

Ev’rytime I look the void in the eye
I’m reminded that I’m only a spy
Here...out in space
Sent from earth to try and find a new home
What I found is that I’m really alone
Here...in this place
Millions more they’re all depending on me
Waiting anxiously to know what I see
Here...out in space
Cosmic wonders chill a man to the soul
You discover it’s beyond your control
Here...in this place

I’ve seen...the solar winter
A sun...and blue moon splinter
I’ve seen...exploding atoms
Begun...for endless fathoms

Universal truth revealed to my mind
No one back on earth will know what I find
Here...out in space
Never knowing if I’m turning around
Will I ever set my feet on the ground
Here...in this place

I’m so cold...freezing inside...from the pain
But I’ll hold...if I applied...what I gain
All the years...duty came first...for the skies
No more tears...swelling to burst...from my eyes

Now look at me...I’m growing old
Don’t you think that I have a lot I haven’t told
And I never will
Who wants to know...what’s more to say
All about the cost back on earth we had to pay
And we owe it still

There’s a god...somewhere out here...this I found
Is it odd...so much to fear...all around
But to me...flying so high...I don’t care
I can see...more if I try...do I dare

Thousands more would trade their places with me
What they’re saying is they rather would be
Here...out in space
None of them would ever know how it feels
Never sure if these mirages are real
Here...in this place
Back on earth I have a wife and two sons
What I’d give to know this mission was done
Here...out in space
It’s enough to drive a person insane
No one really needs to suffer this pain
Here...in this place

Did I lose my personality...did I choose this nonplurality
Did I lose my own mortality...did I choose this dark reality

Now I know my fate is tied to the cosmic light
Where stars can wait ‘til heavens arrive so bright
And suns can shine with atoms alive with rays
Which pierce the line dividing the night from days

I have seen more than you’ll ever see
It would mean more if I could be free

I’ve seen...the cosmic ocean
The moon...and stars in motion
I’ve seen...black radiation
A tune...of blind sedation

Did I lose my personality...did I choose this nonplurality
Did I lose my own mortality...did I choose this dark reality

Now I know my fate is tied to the cosmic light
Where stars can wait ‘til heavens arrive so bright
And suns can shine with atoms alive with rays
Which pierce the line dividing the night from days
Like you and me who wanted to share a life
But who could be the perfect, devoted wife
That you had been when I learned I had to go
To space again, now wishing that I said no

Though I’ve seen more than you’ll ever see
It would mean more if I could just be free

03 - In This Place

She was dancing along the edge of the wing
Necromancing a song she started to sing
She was pretty and that’s not all that she was
Something diff’rent I saw through all of the buzz
She was breathing but I could tell it’s not air
Eyes were seething a light as bright as a flare
She was trying to look right into my face
Right from heaven or somewhere out there in space
Was she human, I don’t think she could have been
Star light fumin’ about the space she was in
Her skin was two shades of green
You’ll never know what I mean

Green lady, that’s what you are, green lady
Green lady, live with the stars, green lady
Who are you, I want to know, who are you
Where are you, where did you go, where are you
Green lady, that’s what you are, green lady
Green lady, live with the stars, green lady
Who are you, I want to know, who are you
Where are you, where did you go, where are you
Green lady, that’s what you are, green lady
Green lady, live with the stars, green lady
Who are you, I want to know, who are you
Where are you, where did you go, where are you

Her skin was two shades of green
You’ll never know what I mean
Now she has gone away
Now green has turned to gray
Was she real or was she fake
Dreaming or was I awake

Lost in space I sure hoped that she would come back
Just in case I prepared to get my jet pack
Her skin was two shades of green
You’ll never know what I mean
Now she has gone away
Now green has turned to gray
Was she real or was she fake
Dreaming or was I awake

02 - Green Lady

Big sound rippin’ into my ears
The blast was all they said it would be
My eyes shut but I opened them
Bright stars were all I needed to see

Then the spaceship made its way around
In its orbit just like that
I could see the galaxy sensurround
Who on earth knew where I was at

The years traveled along with me
As time became a negative zone
The speed it was infinity
I found that I was now all alone

Caught up in a warping hole of time
No one knew that it was there
But I kept on holding onto my mind
In a spot I didn’t know where

In space...behind the blue zone
A place...to find a new home

No one on the radio listening
What I say will never be heard
All this starlight shining and glistening
It’s no use to utter a word

You know...that it was not an easy thing...you know
To go...with no one else that I could bring...to go

Then a comet, it went flying like a rocket blazing away
Mighty missile shooting after unknown target going astray

You know...that it was not an easy thing...you know
To go...with no one else that I could bring...to go

I saw bright new quasars, I saw supernovas
Rays from the gray stars would snake like a boa
Birth of a system, would shine from a distance
In all its wisdom, declare its existence

And all the time, all of this happening like it’s performing for me
You wouldn’t know anything only if somehow you managed to see

Storms made of lightning appeared out of nowhere
Though it was fright’ning, I still had to go there

A spectacle nothing like anything anyone had ever seen
You couldn’t imagine the vision not even those had in a dream

Lights shine so brightly in red, white, and violet
Brilliant and sightly, but always so quiet

But soon enough even though all of this made an impact on my mind
I wanted to be at home living and loving with all my own kind

If I could glance to a map I would make it
When there’s a chance to go home I will take it