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Cover Art Credit: http://vsco.co/rosieshulman

You completely destroy me
You destroyed me like you never knew you could
I'm not over you and I never will be
The thing about love is that simple things like her lips and her eyes break my heart
They're not mine and I don't know who's they'll be
Her hair is therapy to my cold and brittle heart

I used to find safety in her smile
I used to feel warmth in the look on her face
I've been left an empty shell to whither and fade away
I used to think of all the things that we'd be
Now I only think of all the things that we never really were

I used to call you mine but now you just don't know
What am I left to do but stand here in the cold
All I've got left are some photos of you and your voice stuck in my head
Saying how you'd be there always and forever until the very end

You were everything to me, and you always will be
Deep in my heart that aches for the sound of your voice
But no longer will I have the choice

I'm sorry for anything that I've done
For the person I've become that you learned to love but then turned your back like a setting sun

If I hurt you I pray that you forgive me
I mean all the words that I say please believe me

And see me as the person you always knew I was
I've never been perfect not in a single way
And that day that you saved me is when I fell from grace
I only needed you and I pushed everyone else away

So now I'm left alone
To live this life all on my own
And I hate the fact that someone else is holding you close
And how you broke my heart when I needed you the most
I've always been too scared to be properly diagnosed
Because you were my pill but now you're nothing but a ghost

And I still have your pictures and that letter you wrote
Where you said that you loved me and you'd never let me go
And you saved me from myself and that's something I hope you know
But you cut me down so quick and I've never been so low

And my stomach aches with every breath of air I breathe
Because you were the one that gave me everything I need
But now this pain won't subside I just can't believe you chose to leave
You were my reason for living how could you do such a heinous thing

I was like a boat that got carried out to sea
And I trusted in your waves, that you wouldn't harm me
You protected me from the storm and gave me a chance at life
And I love the way you cared and asked if I was alright

But something died, something changed and I sunk to the ocean floor
You no longer wanted to hold me up and I drowned from within my core

And every essence of my being is still just too afraid to fight
Because I'm terrified to keep on living without you by my side

And all the things that people said I guess this whole time they were right
Love can never last this way when the flame burns too bright

But I hope you're happy

I hope you're doing fine

I love you still today

Just like you were still mine

I still love the way you laughed
And the things you said to me
You'll never leave my heart
Nor my memory

I just wish I could understand
Why you had to leave
I can't do this on my own
I need you here with me

But you've turned into a ghost
And you're nowhere to be seen
And I can't hear your voice
I won't see your message on the screen

We won't have a family
We won't have a house
We won't raise our kids
You won't be my spouse

We won't grow old together
Like we always planned
You disappeared forever
And alone here shall I stand

you completely destroy me

Thank you all so much for supporting me! i couldn't be more thankful and happy with everything i have been given! I want to thank David Kiernan for the artwork and @leansipper !! Shout out to @cozyboycries for mixing song #7!! Love you all so much <3
<3 Acid Castle <3
Everyone who is on the EP----
@1800entity
@guardinmusic
@prodbyvessels
@artax666
@leansipper
@lilheartbreaker
@prod-trash
@lilhappylilsad
@tothegood

dead love w/ lil happy lil sad (Prod. tothegood)

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VyMz-LiCySE&feature=youtu.be&ab_channel=yesterday

prod: @whatevenisreal

my shawty think i drink too much
my homies know i think too much
i crack a 40
roll a dutch
pop ambien to sleep
i pour some out for all my team
i wear my heart out on my sleeves
a burden boy until i die
i hope it ends tonight

ohhhhh
you do not know what the fuck that ive been thru
ohhhhh
writin these songs just to vent bout my issues
ohhhhh
you can tell by all the lyrics that i fuckin miss you
fuck all these feelings
id rather not deal
pull up in the whip
put my head to the steel

ohhhhh
im sorry if you found out
ohhhh
i wonder how youre doing
put the past right out my brain
i never will address a thing
slowly decay by 21
my soul will lead me to my grave
my hair is blonde
my heart is black
these bitches never hit me back
my headphones on
as i walk alone
thru places
used to call my home
i just wanna drink my life away
with hopes that i wont wake today
i hate how people give a shit
just let me rest in peace

Follow me <3

burden boy (prod. br//oken)

@luvrrboi
ty mysticfox4 for the beautiful color work on my drawing<3

Lyrics:
singing SleepyHead but I’m still woke
head down on the kick like a pillow
face down on a brick, ayo
Yung Luv aka Lumo
catch me gliding on the breeze like a frisbee
she’s shaking at her knees when she with me
cuz I’m cool
but ill give her my jacket too

but if i give that girl my jacket
will i get back?
if i give that girl my heart
will she make my heart attack?

If i give her all my love
will i get any back?
Yung Luv’s not just my name
that’s how i want to act
I wanna misbehave
i wanna just relax
I wanna waste my days
on love that won’t last   

at least love that i don’t expect to
cuz ive expected in the past and its been regretful
you know who you are, i still don’t forgive you 
i  can’t forget you

partly cuz you took my jacket and I know that you meant to
now i watch my closet close every time a new girl steps into my bedroom

It’s hard to share anything with anyone,
but I do
cuz I’m cool
and I’ll give her my jacket too

but if i give that girl my jacket
will i get back?
if i give that girl my heart
will she make my heart attack?

If i give her all my love
will i get any back?
Yung Luv’s not just my name
that’s how i want to act
I wanna misbehave
i wanna just relax
I wanna waste my days
on love that won’t last

Heart Attack/Give Me Back My Jacket

HEARTATTACK/GIVEMEBACKMYJACKET

prod. @weepingbell
follow the homies
@wallflwrrr
@3fulcrum

better off in the ground (w/ wallflwr & fulcrum)

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Spotify • https://open.spotify.com/track/1gKuDaXI4tMM0ARlCR1y7y?si=G8govNrsRyydmOulr2gL1A

Apple • https://music.apple.com/us/album/shallow-grave-feat-rinnegone-guccihighwaters/1439826577?i=1439826667

Shallow Grave (Feat. Rinnegone & guccihighwaters) [Prod. 4evr]

Written & Performed by: @itsyungvan & @i_x_t_a_i_l_s
Mix: @itsyungvan & @i_x_t_a_i_l_s
Master: @scottysplash
Production: @lilbuckethead
Cover art: @iamdavidkiernan (on twitter)
Shout out @qawikamri & @producedbyaidan for helping me extend the beat and go show love to everyone who helped make this song possible (if ya got some to share) <3


Lyrics-

Yung van:

Said she wanna die with me but that's just a lie 
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I want her back in my life
I said I'm fine
But that's a lie 
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I want her back in my life

Bring me up
Shut me out
You wanna scream baby
I've learned to shout
You wanna ghost
I'll be your Phantom
Like a shadow
I'll follow till the end of 
Bring me up
Shut me out
You wanna scream baby
I've learned to shout
You wanna ghost
I'll be your Phantom
Like a shadow
I'll follow till the end of 
Time
But I don't really care 
Said you had my back then you left me in the air
Flying all alone made me feel like I was scared
I'm drowning in your problems
Baby I can't solve them 

Running away
Running away
Running away
Running away

Said she wanna die with me but that's just a lie 
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I want her back in my life
I said I'm fine
But that's a lie
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I need her back in my life

9TAILS:

says she wanna die with me
but thats just a lie
depression is like a virus
i see that shit in her eyes
shes up alone every night
weed is packed in the pipe
window open at night
smoke blowing by the streetlights

take me over like a virus
anti virus with the heisman
saw the bate no biting
calculate my timing

im out the door before you tell me to go
i had you blocked before i seen what you wrote
i got people to meet i got places to go
and she play the detective like murder she wrote

i dont have time for the games like its pay to play
feel like kobe how i fade away
keep you a bit behind thats screen delay
i know all your tricks no david blaine

u cant make me stress ya
u cant make me stress no
ask me whats been on your mind or else youll never know
we all will eventually die speak up before we go
put your plan back into motion hit me with the blow

tryna bring the heat like a tanning bed
get in line like its wonderland
break it off like a pencil lead

Yung Van:

Said she wanna die with me but that's just a lie 
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I want her back in my life
I said I'm fine
But that's a lie
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I need her back in my life

Virus w/ 9TAILS (Prod. Aquinas)

Baby if you think about it
Life is just a cycle
My emotions spin around like vinyl's
Pressure in my brain
It's hard to smile
Swap me minds
And you won't last a mile
I think to much
It's over complicated
I hate myself and I wish I could change it
My life feels like a game
With snakes and mazes
I hope she thinks of me with my replacement

Life is just a cycle
I think I'm going psycho 

Life is just a cycle
I think I'm going psycho
I don't know how to hide it
My memories divided
If only I could get out my head
And see inside it

A whole new perspective
My soul was neglected
Bomb on my heart
Like was it her objective
Torn into pieces
My strengths turn to weakness
I don't say much
Cause these thoughts leave me speechless

If you think about it
Life is just a cycle
My emotions spin around like vinyls
Pressure in my brain
It's hard to smile
Swap me minds
And you won't last a mile

And you won't last a mile
Your dead if you're in my head
I'll make you suicidal
You couldn't love me
No matter if you tried to
If someone told you different
Then just know your being lied to

Fuck life fuck you
Driving fast hit the gas
Imma dust you
Shedding tears
As I'm switching to my fifth gear
I don't give a fuck about my ex I tell her stay clear

Tell her stay clear
Running for my life
Cause I know that the pain's near
I would rather die
Then ever fucking stay here
I can't take it
Everybody be the same here

If you think about it
Life is just a cycle
My emotions spin around like vinyl's
Pressure in my brain
It's hard to smile
Swap me minds
And you won't last a mile

spotify

life is just a cycle (prod. foreigngotem)

FoLlOW SoRroW HeRe: @sorrow_bringer

Follow two 22 here https://soundcloud.com/twotwntytwo

Art by twitter.com/endmypainnow

I been feeling like Chester 

And it’s making my Chest hurt

Came in the game with something to say 

Put some money away and let the rest burn 

Cause money won’t heal your soul, hell no, it just shows the fake friends you gotta let go 

Hope I never see you at one of my shows 

Trying to adjust to a life on hold 

(Two 22)
Everyday wake up the same
Sadness stuck inside my brain
driving fast and switching lane
nothing left to numb the pain

Wanted you forevermore
Now you’re gone and I’m so sore
Crushed me like tyrannosaur
Traveled, axon, gone in store

I lost my faith under surface
I’m gone, and baby I have no purpose
So numb, girl, I just cannot feel shit
Depression, through my skin, I can transmit

Where is the light when the night comes?
Crying inside of a chasm
falling away im in a dark glum
Feeling smaller than an atom

(Lil Xtra) 

But I’ve been having my best year 

Things are going just fine I hear 

So why is that that every time I open my eyes I’m barely holding back these tears?



Cause  this life ain’t copacetic 

Don’t need you to tell me I’m pathetic 

Stress been steady cranked to 11 and I’m way past trying to get into heaven so



..I been thinking bout Chester..

And how our success is measured 

Given so much on earth to treasure what’s really enough to keep your world together?



Cause there’s a lot of that In myself I see 

Sadness clinched inside my teeth 

I could have all I want and need 

AND IT COULD STILL COME BACK FOR ME



INHERENT SADNESS MY DISEASE 

IT NEVER PASSES CAN YOU PLEASE 

SEND SOME WEED OR SEND SOME HELP

CAUSE I CANT SAVE ME FROM  MYSELF 



I MIGHT SELF DESTRUCT TODAY

BUT IF I DIE THAN IT’S OKAY 

AT LEAST I GOT THIS CHANCE TO SAY 

 IT’S MY FAULT ANYWAY

L(Chester) I (Bennington) T (Was) A (Murdered) - Feat. Two 22 - Prod. Sorrow Bringer

Spotify

Is This What They Call Love? [prod mistyh]

Enjoying the spring weather?
Artist:
twitter - @ impastele
insta - @ quietlysarah
Producer:
@montydatta
twitter - @ montydatta235

Lyrics:

The Sky is Falling [Prod. Monty Datta]

i spent my money on drugs so i couldn't afford the beat w/o tags :( im srry

prod. by sxpply beats 💛

Night Time

miss u haven't met u tho

sunrise and my eyes hurt
i'll lie here on fire
won't cry
don't need help now
you're fine
somewhere else now

5am comes quick
how did it get this far
laying here
shedding tears in the dark
i'm divided in my mind now
should i make it right now
should i even try now
or should i let it white out
lay down on my stomach
cus i feel real sick
i've been a real dick
know i gotta change shit
i really hate that it's like this
hate that i'm like this
wish i could subside this
wish you were inside this bed
this bed

pierce the silence
crash through the door
tell me that you'll love me forevermore
stop the violence
end this war
settle down, yeah we'll settle the score

it was just you and me
in love at 17
you took my breath away
now i can barely breathe
i love to go without
and you love going out
but i'm still wondering
saying where are you now
oh baby, baby i love you like crazy
though i can't help you
i hope you can save me
oh baby, baby i need you like crazy
oh won't you save me
the distance, it pains me

see me in my dreams love
so i can sleep some
toss and turn all night cus you're not by my side, yeah
hate that it's like this
hate that i'm like this
wish i could subside this
wish you were inside this

pierce the silence
crash through the door
tell me that you'll love me forevermore
stop the violence
end this war
settle down, yeah we'll settle the score

pierce the silence
crash through the door
tell me that you'll love me forevermore
stop the violence
end this war
settle down, yeah we'll settle the score

wish you were inside this bed
wish you were inside this bed

ALL ME

@qawikamri
@halberd-3000

LYRICS:-
i just wish that you were here
cos im so lost without you
i wish i was better for you
cos this time i really need you

im trapped inside my mind again
i push everyone away again
this happens time and time again
you're tired to see this fall again

im sorry i let you down
i know that you hate me now

i just wish that you were here
cos im so lost without you
i wish i was better for you
cos this time i really need you

I'm So Lost Without You (prod. Halberd)

https://open.spotify.com/artist/6NFHn7VH6jgV2nVWqW2bsa?si=4GL1fS_8Q7iRYjWf_FlXBw

VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vhLTU5pN5dE

Cover photo/violin/piano - https://soundcloud.com/ihearangelscry

Guitar, vocals, production -https://soundcloud.com/poppytears

LYRICS:

Track one: Take me to the lake

Take me to the lake girl wash it away 
Take me to the lake girl drown it today x 2

But the lake was ice I’m burning fire inside
Go and break my knife and drive it into my side 

Just feel my flesh pierce open
We stayed like way after closing 
And on her skin it drips slowly 
My body thin heart frozen 

So would you take me to the lake girl wash it away 
Would you take me to the lake girl drown it today 
But the lake was ice I’m burning fire inside 
 Would you break my knife and drive it into my side 

Just feel the flesh pierce open 
We stayed like way after closing 
And on her skin it drips slowly 
My body thin heart frozen 

Track two: Sensations of a darker day

Go a walk in the rain 
I know you can taste the pain 

I carved the path I chose to take 
Broke the back and the fucking spade
Got blood on my hands and it radiates 
Sensations of a darker day 

Go a walk in the rain 
I know you can taste the pain 

I carved the path I chose to take 
Broke the back and the fucking spade
Got blood on my hands and it radiates 
Sensations of a darker day 

Track three: Wash me down the sink

The sun goes and the cold creeps in 
Leave it in the ground or wash it down the sink 
I slipped up like a pedal to the shin 
I indulge myself for the sensation x 2

Track four: Place of mind

I found a place of mind 
A place of healing 
A place of mine 

Time slips through my hands far too easily 
I’m under the gun yet again here I am my dear 
If I, if I just fall asleep I can rid of all my fears 

Wasting my time  
Am I wasting yours? 

Na I be won’t complacent 
I could erase them 
Picked from a crowd of a million faces 
Can’t let you down no empty spaces

Come in acoustic, they ask where the bass is
This is my music I choose the arrangement 
Self-therapeutic I drowned in the aliment 
I was broken I grew sick, I was chosen I knew this 

I was broken I grew sick yeah 
But I was chosen I knew this yeah 

Track five: They wana know:

They wana know what I’m doing it for 
They wana know why I’m wanting more 
The pain doesn’t go Ima need it all 
Just put it on the list with the rest of my flaws 

You wana know well I do it for me 
Pick up my guitar and put my mind at ease 
Find where I’m at then I fall into key 
She stares at my tats then falls to her knees x 2

Track six: I play guitar and smoke too much 

I play guitar and smoke too much 
Cut to the heart and turn me to dust 

Fuck a label I take my own direction 
Over processed songs I detest them 
Instruments n’ the talent where the best live 
You can find the tension where the chest is 

So hold me down and let me go 
Hear the sound and overdose 
Try your best and hold it close 
To calm your mind and help you cope 

I play guitar and smoke too much 
Cut to the heart and turn me to dust x 2

They might think I’m chasing a dragon 
I’m chasing a place of satisfaction
I can create only you can imagine 
You steal the beat copy flows call it passion 

So hold me down and let me go 
Hear the sound and overdose 
Try your best and hold it close 
To calm your mind and help you cope

(Remanding lyrics cannot be included due to 4000 character limit)

Track seven: New girl

Track eight: Not for long

Track nine: Stuck in your blonde hair

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stay away w/fats'e (prod. reaper)

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//誰も長く滞在しない//

i keep looking for love in all the wrong places. maybe one day things will be different.

lyrics
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and i know that you want me to leave
but it's cool cause we're through and i'm high in the trees
i escape with a vape cause the smoke stains my teeth
yes i know that i probably talk in my sleep
probably talk in my sleep when we kiss i awake
but i'm dreaming again it was all fuckin' fake
and i'm thinkin' too much of the way that you taste
cause the flavor of you isn't one to replace
and i think imma waste

more time scrollin' down my timeline
wish that i could hop up in my whip and go to five guys
somethings gotta give when i'm sky high
i'm not something super in the uber playin' i spy
disappear from everybody for a while
cause the air is getting thick within the radius of miles
suicide is on my mind & i can't bare to even smile
i can only get a taste cause happiness is versatile

and i know that you want me to leave
but it's cool cause we're through and i'm high in the trees
i escape with a vape cause the smoke stains my teeth
yes i know that i probably talk in my sleep
probably talk in my sleep when we kiss i awake
but i'm dreaming again it was all fuckin' fake
and i'm thinkin' too much of the way that you taste
cause the flavor of you isn't one to replace
and i think that i

probably could've tried harder
i tend to fall in love too quick with everybody's daughter
take my heart and they begin to slaughter
i'm a fuckin' wreck and my neck is lookin' like every other
boy that they've been bruisin' for a bit
i've been smooth cruisin' catalytic tendencies are in
love is just a four letter word that don't mean shit
cause i open up a bit too much & they just wanna dip

they just always fall back
i don't think i'll ever get a call back
why the fuck i go through all that
just for what we had to fuckin' fall flat

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