Ive never heard HK like this, i luv you🖤 we all do🐐

good stuff, always playing it when im dead inside

I feel empty, i sit silently in my head feeling nothing all the fucking time.

explains how i feel from the moment she said she wanted to leave

Dude this shit is so fucking deep and hits so hard

r e g r e t

Heart broken train

Cover Art Credit: http://vsco.co/rosieshulman

You completely destroy me
You destroyed me like you never knew you could
I'm not over you and I never will be
The thing about love is that simple things like her lips and her eyes break my heart
They're not mine and I don't know who's they'll be
Her hair is therapy to my cold and brittle heart

I used to find safety in her smile
I used to feel warmth in the look on her face
I've been left an empty shell to whither and fade away
I used to think of all the things that we'd be
Now I only think of all the things that we never really were

I used to call you mine but now you just don't know
What am I left to do but stand here in the cold
All I've got left are some photos of you and your voice stuck in my head
Saying how you'd be there always and forever until the very end

You were everything to me, and you always will be
Deep in my heart that aches for the sound of your voice
But no longer will I have the choice

I'm sorry for anything that I've done
For the person I've become that you learned to love but then turned your back like a setting sun

If I hurt you I pray that you forgive me
I mean all the words that I say please believe me

And see me as the person you always knew I was
I've never been perfect not in a single way
And that day that you saved me is when I fell from grace
I only needed you and I pushed everyone else away

So now I'm left alone
To live this life all on my own
And I hate the fact that someone else is holding you close
And how you broke my heart when I needed you the most
I've always been too scared to be properly diagnosed
Because you were my pill but now you're nothing but a ghost

And I still have your pictures and that letter you wrote
Where you said that you loved me and you'd never let me go
And you saved me from myself and that's something I hope you know
But you cut me down so quick and I've never been so low

And my stomach aches with every breath of air I breathe
Because you were the one that gave me everything I need
But now this pain won't subside I just can't believe you chose to leave
You were my reason for living how could you do such a heinous thing

I was like a boat that got carried out to sea
And I trusted in your waves, that you wouldn't harm me
You protected me from the storm and gave me a chance at life
And I love the way you cared and asked if I was alright

But something died, something changed and I sunk to the ocean floor
You no longer wanted to hold me up and I drowned from within my core

And every essence of my being is still just too afraid to fight
Because I'm terrified to keep on living without you by my side

And all the things that people said I guess this whole time they were right
Love can never last this way when the flame burns too bright

But I hope you're happy

I hope you're doing fine

I love you still today

Just like you were still mine

I still love the way you laughed
And the things you said to me
You'll never leave my heart
Nor my memory

I just wish I could understand
Why you had to leave
I can't do this on my own
I need you here with me

But you've turned into a ghost
And you're nowhere to be seen
And I can't hear your voice
I won't see your message on the screen

We won't have a family
We won't have a house
We won't raise our kids
You won't be my spouse

We won't grow old together
Like we always planned
You disappeared forever
And alone here shall I stand

you completely destroy me

Special thanks to https://www.instagram.com/fallingap.art/ for the artwork on this <3
https://twitter.com/sayygoodbyye
https://soundcloud.com/goodbyye

Lyrics:
Fuck you I'm just so mad
Got me feeling so sad
Think about the times we had
Why'd you have to leave like that
Left me all alone in fact
I been lonely holding back
Tears in my eyes looking past
Wishing that this could've last

Writing this letter so I could say
Dearest friend I hope you'll be okay
Think about you each and every day
I'm still wishing that you could've stayed
Want you to know that I'm broken
Hear the words that were never spoken
I was fine until I was awoken
A heart is so fragile when it's stolen

Fuck you I'm just so mad
Got me feeling so sad
Think about the times we had
Why'd you have to leave like that
Left me all alone in fact
I been lonely holding back
Tears in my eyes looking past
Wishing that this could've last

So I'll write this note and then I'll burn it
Let the smoke carry up the words and turn it
To a message from below so you learn it
Thought I wanted death before but now I yearn it
I know you want to go
Please stay I'll be alone
If you leave from this home
Don't go out in the cold

Don't go out in the snow

Please don't leave me alone

I don't want you to go

Please don't leave me alone

why'd you have to go

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VyMz-LiCySE&feature=youtu.be&ab_channel=yesterday

prod: @whatevenisreal

my shawty think i drink too much
my homies know i think too much
i crack a 40
roll a dutch
pop ambien to sleep
i pour some out for all my team
i wear my heart out on my sleeves
a burden boy until i die
i hope it ends tonight

ohhhhh
you do not know what the fuck that ive been thru
ohhhhh
writin these songs just to vent bout my issues
ohhhhh
you can tell by all the lyrics that i fuckin miss you
fuck all these feelings
id rather not deal
pull up in the whip
put my head to the steel

ohhhhh
im sorry if you found out
ohhhh
i wonder how youre doing
put the past right out my brain
i never will address a thing
slowly decay by 21
my soul will lead me to my grave
my hair is blonde
my heart is black
these bitches never hit me back
my headphones on
as i walk alone
thru places
used to call my home
i just wanna drink my life away
with hopes that i wont wake today
i hate how people give a shit
just let me rest in peace

Follow me <3

burden boy (prod. br//oken)

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Is This What They Call Love? [prod mistyh]

Enjoying the spring weather?
Artist:
twitter - @ impastele
insta - @ quietlysarah
Producer:
@montydatta
twitter - @ montydatta235

Lyrics:

The Sky is Falling [Prod. Monty Datta]

skull design by https://www.instagram.com/thehailing/
prod. @notmorgn

they say you gotta make a change
if you wanna feel better
now i’m pushing weight
bursting out my favorite sweater
fuck the opposition
imma smoke em in a second
yeah I kill time that’s the way
that I spend it
and i don’t wanna die but my brain think different
wanna feel fine but i act so distant
and i don’t wanna doubt but my dreams fictitious
not enough energy to break out the system
wake up with the same mindset
my plate got to much to digest
inspiration too rare to even find it
so i fight my way through the violence
had the dream again
the one you’re screaming in
the one i wake up
still feelings deep within
i’m so sorry
i had to do that
i broke everything
the pieces wouldn’t glue back

my mind insane
i can’t erase
what i have lost
embedded in my brain
stuck up in ways
you told me i’m a waste
and i agree with that
i’m filling up the space

my mind insane
i can’t erase
what i have lost
embedded in my brain
stuck up in ways
you told me i’m a waste
and i agree with that
i’m filling up the space

i’m just here filling up the space
i’m just here filling up the space

my vision 20/20
but my problems aren’t clear to me
im seeking opportunities but 
fuck them up so frequently like
i can’t stop it
i make myself nauseous
i turn a good girl to
a bitch that is toxic
i don’t wanna always do that
just wanna make you happy
if your moods bad
not feeling too good
about the truth myself
but i gotta dust off
what’s on my shelf

my mind insane
i can’t erase
what i have lost
embedded in my brain
stuck up in ways
you told me i’m a waste
and i agree with that
i’m filling up the space

my mind insane
i can’t erase
what i have lost
embedded in my brain
stuck up in ways
you told me i’m a waste
and i agree with that
i’m filling up the space

filling up the space

miss u haven't met u tho

sunrise and my eyes hurt
i'll lie here on fire
won't cry
don't need help now
you're fine
somewhere else now

5am comes quick
how did it get this far
laying here
shedding tears in the dark
i'm divided in my mind now
should i make it right now
should i even try now
or should i let it white out
lay down on my stomach
cus i feel real sick
i've been a real dick
know i gotta change shit
i really hate that it's like this
hate that i'm like this
wish i could subside this
wish you were inside this bed
this bed

pierce the silence
crash through the door
tell me that you'll love me forevermore
stop the violence
end this war
settle down, yeah we'll settle the score

it was just you and me
in love at 17
you took my breath away
now i can barely breathe
i love to go without
and you love going out
but i'm still wondering
saying where are you now
oh baby, baby i love you like crazy
though i can't help you
i hope you can save me
oh baby, baby i need you like crazy
oh won't you save me
the distance, it pains me

see me in my dreams love
so i can sleep some
toss and turn all night cus you're not by my side, yeah
hate that it's like this
hate that i'm like this
wish i could subside this
wish you were inside this

pierce the silence
crash through the door
tell me that you'll love me forevermore
stop the violence
end this war
settle down, yeah we'll settle the score

pierce the silence
crash through the door
tell me that you'll love me forevermore
stop the violence
end this war
settle down, yeah we'll settle the score

wish you were inside this bed
wish you were inside this bed

not all fairytales have happy endings ☂️ .ft demxntia .prod 4evr

prod @oceanonthebeat

i wanted love
you want a fantasy
i wanted trust
you couldn't handle me

you wanna fuck around
i think i get it now

you wanna ride that guy over clout go head
text me i'm the problem with his hands around your neck
text me i'm dramatic while you open up your legs
for a guy who doesn't care about you he just wanted sex

you're in love with the feeling of feeling used
tell me you hate me like bet that's cool

you don't want the drama you would rather have abuse
you're the reason that i hate myself for trippin over you

i fell for a girl to fast and that's facts
i got problems with attachment i'm losing my fucking grasp
its gettin harder to trust people it all feels like an act
i was starving for a light and now i'm blinded what is that?

i can't trust a soul
i can't feel at all
i can't feel your heartbeat
please don't say you love me

i wanted love
you want a fantasy
i wanted trust
you couldn't handle me

you wanna fuck around
i think i get it now

i cried every night now i sob
i got problems with lovin then movin on
i got problems with stayin all by my lonely like
nathan i miss you like come and hold me tight

i can't help that i can't help you
you want him now he might break you
he might relapse he might reuse
he might love you he can't change you

i can't help that i might love you
you're real nice but i can't trust you
you won't date me i can't make you
walls to strong no way i'll break through

i deserve better (prod. ocean)

"I gave you everything you ever wanted but you ended up closing the door" - van

SuiSai: @sushisai
Mix/Master: @demxntia
Prod by: @tothegood
Artwork: @suicideoutside (on twitter)

I am performing in LA, July 24th. You can get tickets here: https://www.songkick.com/concerts/38254179-pink-cig-at-1720?utm_source=8123&utm_medium=partner&utm_content=fb4a0d1b9180ab41a80f71c5bea1fa9b&utm_campaign=entity

"When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai”

Lyrics-

When you say me you love me, it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I’m crying on the concrete. I don’t have strength to get up off the floor 

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again 

Crashing down on my parade
You let me love till you were bored of the game 
Open hearts and shoddy flames
You let me burn in the love that we made 

SuiSai- 
That touch of yours left cinders
Trails of your heart set a flame
Lit like embers
Of our past
Screeching stop sounds like thunder
You were my lightning
Filled my clouds with your patterns
Made the world disappear 
liked it better
Then you left me here
To the forces of the weather
Cause the cold fronts near
But I swear id never let it
Change the way that I feel

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai (Prod. Tothegood)

Mixed By @iof
Cover art By @suicideoutside

Your thoughts in your head
Verse my thoughts in my head
Dont match up at the same time 
i dont know if i control it

Your heart in my hand
Verse my heart in your hand
So out of reach 
Baby i dont if i could ever hold it

Your car when you drive
Verse my car when i drive
So damn different the distance
The person you meet and see and roll with

My head and your head collide 
Same time 
Baby i dont if were meant for this 
But together we’ll bite the bullet

And nothing seems to help out
Everytime i talk about the shit
Run my fingertips around the edge of bottles
Take a sip and dont amount to shit
And nothing seems to help
Im all by myself
Trust is something like a steel knife
Got it pointed at my wind pipe
It dont feel right
But nevermind nevermind nevermind what i said
And nevermind nevermind nevermind who you slept with
Its like everytime everytime everytime im upset ya
Its cause i spend every night with you like everytime overtime anytime overnight with you like everynight
Nevermind nevermind nevermind nevermind

Sendin shots across town
Im tryna fuck you right now
Makin some noise im too loud
They yellin at me to pipe down
Im all in my head its too dim
I cant really see all the things that you said
Thought you had me all figured out
You might wanna go back and jot that down

You might wanna re-write that track right now
You might wanna retry that act right now
You might wanna recount that idea you had that u thought was so hot so profound 
You might wanna go back in the house
You might wanna tell all of ya friends tha you cant go out
Cause you dont have a moment to hesitate
Race against the clock what it take to be a heavyweight

They told me to save it

I got the cash like a banquet
Ya bitch i real got the bank wet
And that lil bitch is buttnaked
Im makin cash on the frequent
Im smokin gas and its fragrant
That lil bitch think she hot, huh
That lil boy think he fly, huh

What I Learned in Washington (+ Malfig)

spotify/apple music

In collaboration with SoundCloud phenomenon LiL Lotus, this track was recorded in the back of a mini-van under the parking garage of Universal Music Group in Los Angeles, lol

Produced by: Pacific
Mixed: Dustin Gill
Mastered: Panorama Mastering

Merch store: drawntothesky.bigcartel.com

My start-to-finish songwriting & production class: studio.com/drawntothesky

She Once Whispered "Love" In My Ear (feat. LiL Lotus)

She Once Whispered "Love" In My Ear (feat. LiL Lotus)[prod. Pacific]

[Lyrics]

You left me to die
Still want to be in love but I don't know why
Hits me like a drug when I look in your eyes
Devil took my luck now I'm all out of time tonight
Falling for all your deceptive ways
Crawling with all of your heavy chains
I thought of you all of those rainy days
You promised me this wasn't just a phase

Baby when I take that giant step to make the list, yeah
You know I might slap a couple thousand on my wrist, yeah
Heal my heart with spending you can only ever wish for
Not one for material, I do it for the diss
Give me four more years on the wave
And you'll be crawling back when I say
Hit a milli in the bank, that's a safe
Didn't need your help, go away

I've had too much patience 
Riding out this pain since
You played me a fool
Wasted years of needing you

I still want to be in love but I don't know why
Hits me like a drug when I look in your eyes
Devil took my luck now I'm all out of time tonight
Falling for all your deceptive ways
Crawling with all of your heavy chains
I thought of you all of those rainy days
I promise you this isn't just a phase

Blood Under Starlight

i hope you feel something
self-produced. hmu for beats/mixing/mastering

you completely destroy me

HKFIFTYONE

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