[nostalgic depression] is remembering a time that was no good for you and missing it simply because you no longer exist as that version of you. 
Lately I've been finding myself missing old parts of me, and this project really let me get that out. I have songs on here I created within the first few months of me ever recording, and songs on here that I made last week. If you feel lost out there, and need a space to confide in I hope this can help, because trust me I know what it feels like to be alone.
-Love, abandonmase


(p.s. if ANYONE knows who made the beat for [there u go] plz tell me so i can give them credit! i made that song last summer and i have no idea who's channel i found it on!)

nostalgic depression

Spaced Needles

Ssreyes 👁️👁️‍🗨️🧿

They asked for proof
I offered none
They measured silence
Filed it under non-compliance

I'm not a camel
I'm not a camel
I'm not a camel
But the desert disagrees

They checked my spine 
for humps of pride
Found vertebrae of doubt instead
They nodded - classic case

I'm not a camel
I'm not a camel
I'm not a camel
Still they bring the rope

Every question comes pre-answered
Every form already signed

I'm not a camel
I'm not a camel
I'm not a camel
But they keep the sand on file

I'm not
I'm not

Not a Camel

Our Bloody Love

prod: https://www.youtube.com/@camsostatic
presave for Spotify: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/reignvanta/the-one
Lyrics: 
I know you like it when I spend a pretty penny on your ass 
All the shit that I got for you I don't even want it back 
All the shit that you got for me I don't want it you can have it 
Say you don't care, You just wanna see my reaction 
Now it smells like you on my mattress
I know you get frustrated with my absence 
Talk about your ex all we talk about is sex 
And your love language confusing now its leaving me upset
Yeah its leaving me upset, When it comes to you I'm in debt 
Don't wanna talk to no one else I just want you to myself love.

You making me want to be better 
Why the fuck do i act scared 
And your mad that I'm recording cause I'm never ever there.
And your mad that I'm recording I'm just tryna get out. 
I'm trying to spend this time with you but its never enough. 
I hardly talk to my mother, We only met like last summer.
We only met like last summer but I love you like no other.
To my little sister I'm sorry that I cant be your big brother. 
Yeah I'm sorry that, Im trying to become a better man. 
All the people that did you wrong I'm just trying to be better than. 
Im done, With those people I run into I'm just trying to find the one.

the one

Original song by Billie Eilish.
#pop #popsong #popsinger #sadmusic #softspoken #softsinging #billieeilish #songcover #mycover #notimetodie #asmr

Billie Eilish - No Time To Die (Cover)

exit life (prod. metlast x jaysset)

why (prod. bxxnose)

medicine (prod. lonclear)

miss the high (prod. blix)

ash in a bottle (prod. 08saul)

there u go

Halfway There

Freak

p. grayskies
written, performed and mastered by me
thank you. 

and ill go where i belong
where the cold air hits my lungs
and i know that you hate my guts
tell me where it all went wrong
love me the way i wanna be loved
just dont break my heart

ash in a bottle (prod. 08saul)

abandonmase

Recent comments

08saul

Related tracks