sana nandito ka

routinely demo - snippet

Perks Of Being A Piece Of Shit

Wag kang mangamba nandito tayo
saking bahay iwanan ang iproproblema 
Wag kang mangamba nandito tayo
saking bahay kaya chill ka lang

Saglit lang wag ka munang maabala diyan
Halika dito muna tayo sa malaking duyan
Na may unan umupo diyan mawalang kamalayan
Magkasama muna tayo magkatulugan
Sindehan ang tugtugan mag lambingan magsiksikan
Di lang ilaw ang mamamatay pati ang kahiyaan
Maglibangan magsaya makasama na sila
At sa habambuhay titira na tayo saking sala

Unit 521 (demo)

Huwebes (demo)

How It Ends

Hot Pee

4cast an EP:

-Track one: loose screw
A personal narrative song that addresses the dislocation felt on the interpersonal level when existing in our society. It touches on ideas found in Pierre Bourdieu’s “Structures and the Habitus”. Inspired by the metaphysical poetic lyrics of Nas.

-Track two: contradiction
A spoken word deconstruction of ideas found in “Ain't I a Woman” by bell hooks of the black woman's struggle to find alliance in feminist spaces as well as in a male-dominated society and the contradictions of the black identity found in Eddie Glaude's “In a Shade of blue”.  References to Audre Lorde's ideas of the power of the erotic in spiritual liberation.

-Track three: when the world
A further exploration of the ideas found in track two. This spoken word piece is a personal call for anti-nihilism and denouncing self-doubt for oneself.  This piece draws on Cornel West's ideas of the disease of Nihilism within the black community. Takes influence from Tupacs hopeful lyrics in “keep ya head up”.

-Track four: receipts 
A spiritually focused song that takes on ideas of commodification, and the disposal of people not only in relationships but in society. I had Sister Outsider by Audre Lorde's ideas of relationships and queerness in the black community in mind while creating this track. Eryka Badu's focus on the spiritual and love also plays a part in this song. With a sample from Sojourner Truth's Ain't I a Woman" speech.

receipts

Pink Noise:

Tell me how to break the sequence,
Of cultivation for a life lived on the fence,
Where I do break through the ceiling,
Familiar fall reopens sutured confidence,

While you hesitate,
The world around you sinks,
Taking photographs, 
And plaster casts of everything,

Slow bend me through the prism,
Remake me in refracted light,
Show me how to do it,
Show me how to do it right,

Headlights scream into the distance,
Illuminating future scenes,
No definition to the picture,
Wipe my imagination clean,

The walls reverberate,
Corrupting what you think,
And when the ink is dry,
It polarizes everything,

Slow bend me through the prism,
Wake me up, I’m paralyzed,
Show me how to do it,
Show me how to do it right,

Concentrate,
Concentrate,
Concentrate,
Concentrate.

Pink Noise

Another shoegaze project that tries too hard

routinely demo - snippet

Heavenly Nobody