This is like the ride monologue for weird people

a chronological playlist of songs released (or re-released) under the ethel cain moniker. order is based on the date each song was released/shared (i.e. not when they were recorded) so some demos appear after their corresponding finished track. i had to guess at some – i did my best!

cover photo is a shot from the june 22, 2024 show at the greek via @/artziety on instagram

(edit aug. 2024 – added tommy/miss anhedonia tracks. most are mislabelled)

(sitting at 178 tracks as of 7/10/25)

chronological ms. cain

remastering of @mothercain instagram story 8/10/22

v1:

says he's calling home
quarters on the phone 
asking if the weather's warm
if you want, i'll go with you
wherever you go, go
asks if i'm a mess
ever since he left
baby, it's louisiana
i'll be sweating through this dress till you get home

louisiana (demo) - ethel cain demo

ethel cain - celestia

Selby Wall - ethel cain

Mother matron of the morning time
Ebb and flow as the sun will rise
Colossal gods run the expanses
Pulling you in with their dark black tide

I am not as small as I believe I am
I am god to your mother
I am mother of man
Command your ancestors
Hold their heads in my hand
I won’t swim in your ocean
Colossus
I can’t

Tell me you love me
And light me on fire
Fuck me to death
On my funeral pyre
I’ll become your rock
I can’t feel your love
Is this the abyss
That your god speaks of

I am not as small as I think I am
I am god to your mother
I am mother of man
Command your ancestors
Through no slight of hand
I won’t swim in your ocean
Colossus
I can’t

You are not as small as you think you are
You throw yourself into my waters
But you won’t go far
I am not the one you wanted
But I’m all you have
I’m your only saving grace
In this colossal black

Lose your conscience
Your purity
Give up your body
Give it to me
Lose your religion
Lose your soul
Give me your life
Give me it whole

I can't swim this anymore
I can give you nothing more

I am not as small as I think I am
I am god to your mother
I am mother of man
Command your ancestors
Hold their heads in my hand
I won’t swim in your ocean
Colossus
I can’t

You are not as small as you think you are
You throw yourself into my waters
But you won’t go far
I am not the one you wanted
But I’m all you have
I’m your only saving grace
In this colossal black

colossus - ethel cain

got this from 

https://youtu.be/1dcM3DyJBA4?si=1edDaFfs1mP3GIF4 

#ethelcain

powerline valley - Ethel Cain demo high quality

happy’s always been the dream, but we need to start wakin up

that white horse is long gone
say your prayers, we’re moving on
but we’re moving on
we just keep moving on

ethel cain - independence day (prod. little triste)

Ethel Cain - Scarlett Letter

Ethel Cain - Dog Days (Alt ver.)

Days fly by spent wasting time in my mother's garden green
My sister's speaking old poetry they memorized never knowing what it means
I could stay outside forever counting stars on summer fields fore' I bike to Dowlin' street
Its simple when it's over and i'm happy
Painting murals on the sign but it's downtown in the scorching sun
I tried all summer but I hated the way it looks so I never got it done
I walked the train tracks with a boy that I loved but turns out I was tired of being alone
So when we reached the end and I said goodbye and I was by myself when I got home

Ethel Cain ~ Perry

ethel cain - casey

Growing Pains - Ethel Cain

Played during an Instagram live stream on November 8, 2021. I tried to polish it a bit to make it somewhat listenable and failed spectacularly. Anyway, here it is.

All music owned by Hayden Anhedönia.

Ethel Cain - There's Something Wrong With Me / But He Doesn't Know It Yet (Full - LQ)

Ethel Cain - Skinheads (Demo)

lyrics:

You spent your whole life trying to be tough
Cause your parents married pain to love
But you go all white at the sight of blood
And Jesus knows that you've seen enough
Something happened back when you were young
It kills you but you won't tell me what it was
Sleeping on the floor in your grandma's room
Too tired to cry, too weak to even move
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself
25 and you're still crying in your sleep
Scared the world is out to get you
And you've tried every bottle but you're in too deep
Cause you don't know any better, how could you?
And the fear is there when we're in your bed
And I start to cry and you think it's something you did
But baby I'm alright
I'm alright
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself
Last night I dreamed that you had gone away
Woke up in tears and stayed in bed all day
And I'm terrified that I'll lose everyone I have
That I'll watch them leave and wait but they won't come back
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself

bruises ♡ ethel cain

don’t call it by it’s name

Ethel Cain - The God

is it not fun?

(pfp is a shot by laura makabresku)

ethel cain - independence day (prod. little triste)

trudy ♡

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