Tired of You

Honest

Who We Used To Be

Bloodline

Rhiannon

Peace in Mind

I just wanna love you

The Summer

Bloodline (One-on-One)

LYRICS: 
We're off, soon tomorrow 
To the sky, give me this time 
To be, you and me. 
Growing old, childish things. 

And I never took the time to know your name, 
'cause we're all in society's playing game. 
And can we all just sit and take a break from the world? 
It's calling for us to stay, 
Here, in the lives we made. 

Sun, burning hollow. 
There's a day, where you'll be you and I'll be me. 
'cause who cares for the broke and shallow? 
Not me. 

And I hope to see the day we all make it, 
Where all of your dreams are in reality's making. 
And I wish to see a world gone changing, But I'd 
stay here in my youth, 
Here, in the lives we choose. 

And I didn't find the time to know your name, 
But in faces I'll remember you all the same. 
Hold to the people in this place 
who raised us all, we can't replace it 
Here, in our youth we'll stay.

youth

Enjoy this unfinished painting I was doing that I thought fits as a fun song cover:)

LYRICS: 
Cut ties inside my heart to mend 
Distance was never a man's best friends 
What a strange world to live in 
I can see you in visions 
In my mind, walking like coals on a flame

I've buried your thoughts a thousand times
And no longer find you stuck in between the lines 
What a hurt way to live in 
What a sad way to see it
That you're gone, gone away, as I see it 

I'm dancing here on the edge of something, 
but you wouldn't find me there 
In shadows of who we used to be 
I'm still in love with who we used to be 

So I'll drown out in space 
Still then, there's no replacement at all 
But I'll find him, another day 
And I'll see you, some other day 

I miss it, we were better old 
And down below we found a place to hide from the world 
At the worst times, I had you at the worst times 
Oh I did, and I know I did 

But I'm dancing here on the edge of something 
and I'll always be there 
In shadows of who we used to be 
I'm still in love with who we used to be

who we used to be

LYRICS:

bonnie and clyde down the river line 
said “i’ll always be yours if you’ll be mine”
we’re off to the world, every penny till 
we’re broke 

he said “hey there honey we can fool the world” 
start the getaway car and off we’ll go 
the photograph of my face 
is all they know 

darling, won’t you run with me? 
that man’s a lover’s thief 
you were just sixteen 
you didn’t know what love means 
bonnie, we can leave this town 
Louisiana’s where im bound 
won’t you die with me? 
won’t you die with me? 

bonnie and clyde they were in the run  
a few more banks till fortune 
a life never settled down is what they’re hoping for

he saw the wanted signs just the other day 
and stopped for a minute, and heard her say  
“the bad man’s gonna find us someday”

but darling, won’t you ride with me? 
your man’s a lover’s thief 
you were just sixteen 
you're never free without me 
bonnie, we ditch this bar 
Louisiana’s not too far
won’t you die with me? 
won’t you die with me? 

bonnie and clyde were shot down coasting 
Sailes, Louisiana 
they knew someday they’d go down together 

side by side, the law’s relief
but I loved you when you loved me 
every penny for our pockets till we’re free

Bonnie and Clyde

a brain dump I wrote today : 

LYRICS
It’s hollow as the wind came turning in 
Another night, my lonesome 
Do you wonder where I’ve been? 

It’s hard enough to recognize 
The person you’ve become 
Perhaps you’ve always been like this 
Your mind is always young 

But I’ve been wondering what you think 
Is that too much for me?
if your heart beats new for someone else 
remember what you need 

I find the blue in your eyes shiver cold 
But winter’s almost over, ain’t it dear 
The winter’s almost turning up 

I ain’t one to tell you how to run your life 
but remember who your loving 
and remember how you’ve lied 

I’ll hold the day that I came 
Crawling into your side 
There ain’t much now to talk about 
and what I said, never mind 

I’ve been wondering what you think 
If there’s so much to say at all 
If your heart made room for someone else 
Then who am I to call?

You when I’m alone and I can’t shake 
The way that I fall?
Every time I do 
Every time I do 

And I could hate the way that 
I could never really see it through 
oh, the days that pass on by  
Are all the days that always do 

And I could ask you how you’re doing
But we never follow through 
I could tell you what I’m thinking 
But I know I never do 

And this is me, wishing all I can 
For somebody like you
in time, you’ll find another one 
I know you always do 

Oh, I’m alone and I can’t ever shake 
The way that I fall 
Every time I do
Every time I do

every time I do

Tell me you’ve been sleeping cause 
You know that I ain’t cause I’m too busy worrying this much 
Say that you’ve been doing well 
You know that I try but I can’t since I’ve settled down, a few hours outside
Of the county line 

And maybe you might recall 
you know that I do, but there ain’t much to say at all
Say that you’re doing well
You know that I tried, but it’s midnight and high tide 
Way down 

In my mind, saying things I don’t ever 
Decide, like some burden of you in my 
Eyes, I just couldn’t define

INTERLUDE

And maybe somewhere we’ll dance 
Where the floor don’t sink 
In our problems and pitiness til we scream 
“God I love you” I’m sorry for leaving 
a mess, please forgive me again 

INTERLUDE

Tell me you’ve been missing me 
though I say I don’t, there’s no way I could disagree 
Say that you’re doing well 
You know that I tried, but it’s midnight and high tide 
Way down 

In my mind, saying things I don’t ever 
Decide, like some burden of you in my 
Eyes,  I just couldn’t define 

And maybe somewhere we’ll dance 
Where the floor don’t sink 
With our problems and pitiness until we’d scream 
“God I love you” I’m sorry for leaving 
A mess, please forgive me again

High Tide

LYRICS:
Who let me fall back in your nonsense? 
Passionate, yet violent, how this time with you has felt 
Like sunrise we wake up, by night the day is closing in on us 

And I’m sick of us 

Make up your mind, line your doubts neatly on the table 
Your halfway in then out, play your cards so close, but I’m cheating now 
It’s madness, I’m obsessed, with how this shit goes down for us  
‘Cause my interest is fading now  
What can you do? Nothing 
Nothing

A shame how this hidden affair ends 
A shame that you never pulled through 
Couldn’t man up for something so beautiful 
But farewell 
That’s all on you 

I already told you, a few times in hindsight 
I don’t mess around, but you do, and that’s fine 
You already showed me, more than I needed 
I’m better off leaving 
I’m better off being alone 

I loved you kindly, what the hell is this I got back?  
Passionate and quiet, never overstepped your boundaries 
It’s madness, and I’m upset, with how this went down for us 
‘Cause you’ve lost me, Darling 
What can you do? Nothing
Nothing

What Can You Do?

LYRICS:
I don’t understand you 
I’m sure that I never will 
And that’s fine by me 
It took one year to see it all clearly

I can’t waste my badges 
I’ve earned from the tragic 
Of letdowns and tantrums 
From chaos to calming down 
I couldn’t do it then, darling 
I can’t do it now 

How do I deal with losing you all at once? 
I was stupid then, I didn’t know how 
To love you like I meant, 
when I didn’t love myself 
I didn’t love myself 

I never could invite in 
A good thing for what it was for me 
Though you never made that easier 
I’d never fall asleep in peace 
I don’t think, did I?

You can’t blame only me, 
And the way that this seems is: 
A cascade of tragic 
Of letdowns and tantrums 
From lying to cheating ourselves 
And then falling asleep together 
Again 

And so how do you feel about that? 
You know how I feel about that 
I don’t need your explaining 
That’s more suffocating for me 

I don’t understand you 
And by now, that’s fine with me 
Cause I never will, and honestly 
It’s the clearest I’ve seen in a long time 

I love you for nostalgia 
And I’ve learned from the tragic 
Of letdowns and tantrums 
The chaos is calmer now 
I wouldn’t do it then, darling 
I won’t do it now

Calmer Now

LYRICS:
What you don’t know I’m sure won’t kill you 
And I’m damn well good at hiding 
I get restless with my own intentions 
But that’s something I can handle (to myself)

I’ve counted days since I started hating you
And even though I still do I still want 
The best of you, the worst of you 
Toxicity at its core 

I kinda like how it all starts burning 
‘Cause I know that when it cycles through  
We’ll start again anew 
Like I never resented you 

Please recall me like a memory 
Kid yourself back into loving me 
Put me there in all your fever dreams 
Bring me back on your team 
See me in your future standing 
Like the woman I know you wanted 
From just the first night in winter night time 
Just because 
Some fever dream that was 

What’s it all for if it don’t align? 
I get pessimistic sometimes 
But when my intuition doesn’t listen 
To my own advice 
I can’t tell who’s seems right

I’ve counted nights since missing you 
And even though I still do I just want 
The best of you, the worst of you 
Let’s rewind it like new 

Please recall me like a memory 
Kid yourself back into holding me 
Put me there in all your fever dreams 
Put me back on your team 
See me in your future standing 
Like the woman I bet you wanted 
From just the first night in winter night time 
Just because 
Just because 

What you don’t know I’m sure won’t kill you 
And I’m damn well good at lying 
I get restless with my own intentions 
But that’s something that I’ll handle myself

fever dreams

the edge of my twenties 
words and music by Natalie Del Carmen 

Dollhouses, tiny kitchen 
Fine China, paper dolls 
7 years old on a Monday day off 

Mother and father off to work 
and I wonder  
Will growing up feel this long? 

Friends and laid plans 
Dropped off at the movies 
Picking my best friends 
Wisely I’m choosing 
Wrong crowds, falling outs 
Crying home from school 
And I wonder 
Does growing up feel this blue? 

Sleepovers, adolescence 
Mistakes and accidents 
Long days and band practice
Awkward School dances 

A permit, some practice 
A new drivers license 
And I wondered 
Is this growing up yet?

Friends and first dates 
Make a good time for heartbreak 
At seventeen you’ll think that you know everything 
Happy tears for all you knew 
Graduate in June 
And I wonder 
Did I grow up too soon? 

Dollhouses, tiny kitchen 
Fine China, paper dolls 
7 years old on a Monday day off 

The edge of my twenties 
Looks a lot like I thought it might be 
The start of forever’s a long road ahead, it’s looking 
Getting older by day is quite overwhelming, you see 

But set onward my dear, count people not years  
And watch who you love, and see how you treat 
Everyone that you meet, stand in good company 
Cause you’re everything I thought you’d be

the edge of my twenties

LYRICS:

Any minute now 
you’re walking through my door
You’ll set my technicolor world on fire 
while we dance on the dining room floor 

We’ll reconcile our differences 
And wonder why we ever could have been so separated 
And how life lead us back together 
A sad season for the weather 
But I should have known better 
Than to love you 

You’re pixelated, out of focus
Splitting at the seams 
And I might spend the rest of my life 
Trying to sew you together again 

My pockets full of nothing 
But I’ll scrape together spare change 
And cut out all my complaining
If that might send us flying 
Catch wind on silver linings 
But I should have known better 
Than to love you 

You’re fading out like fire ashes 
Tearing at the seams
And I will spend the rest of my life 
Trying to tether you together again

Heal me, won’t you bandage me 
Love me as you lay with me 
Dance with me, and drive me back home when I’m leaving 

Be with me and bandage me 
Love me as you lay with me 
And fight for me, ‘cause time is slowly fleeting  
Don’t you think? 
Don’t you think? 

Any minute now 
You’re coming through that door 
I’ll tell you just how selfish I have been since walking out 
And we’ll reconcile our differences
And I’ll praise the way we fixed them 
You’ll tell me you still love me and that nothing’s changed 
But who am I kidding anymore?

the rest of my life

I always thought you’d be a let down 
Faking me out and then coming around 
You’re toxic waste I can’t replace 
So now I’m just complaining 

You’re a 8/10 on a good day 
And the worst decision I ever made 
You wait four hundred and ninety one days 
To finally walk away? 

Cause you’re a child, and I’m a woman 
And kid, I don’t speak bullshit 
Tangled up in painful longing 
And we’re circling the drain 
I’m sick of my complaining 
And your indecisive thinking 
Glad I dodged this one while I can 
And I’d choose myself again, 10/10 
I’d choose myself again, 10/10 

I did better for you then I did by me 
Defended you while you diverted me 
Kept distance shoved right in between  
Your lethal thoughts and feelings 

All that I wanted was honesty 
You’re selfish, don’t you pity me  
It took the longest year for you to see 
There’s nothing there with me 

Cause you’re not a man, and I’m a lady 
And kid, You know I’m laughing 
It’s called temporary passion 
And that shit is ending faster 
Than my feelings for you lately 
I don’t know what i was thinking  
Glad I dodged your ass, I’m leaving 
And I’d choose myself again, 10/10 
I’d choose myself again, 10/10 

I always knew you’d be a let down 
I’m blaming myself that I stuck around  
We’re toxic, more than anything 
And I’m tired of complaining 

All that I needed was honesty 
Don’t bother trying to pity me  
It took the longest year for me to see 
Forgiveness starts with me 

Cause love is hard, and love is messy 
And kid, this one it wrecked me 
But resenting you won’t change things 
So I’m acting like a lady 
And I’m sick of this complaining 
And letting love define me 
We’re fine, I wish you good things 
But I’ll choose myself again, 10/10 
I’ll choose myself again, and again 
I’ll choose myself again, 10/10

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