for the man who told me to run

his letters

I think I saw you yesterday
My fault you know you all look the same
I think I'm going just bit insane
No, you don't want to see my brain

My wants amount to nothing
But I'm holding out for something
I'll never know if I can stop my mind from running
But these thoughts they keep on coming
And I'm losin all my functions
And I won't see the end

(left)
Won't be the end
Won't roll the end
I have things to see
So pardon me
Your wants and needs
Are fallin' things
We're meant to be
The mighty waves
And Gods will see
The queen and king
In everlasting peace
You're right
You're right
You're right
You're right
You're right
You're right
You're right
You're right

(right)
I'm on my knees
And all this shit will never cease
Amaze me now
My God, my face is hazy now
I want distance
So take my whip and lift my dish
And borrow my heart
And be with my kids
Your goddamn love is crucifixed
My mom can't see
Mama what's this?
I want to be a different kids
I want to stop my pessimistic ways

"At What Cost?"

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At What Cost?

Pessimist

from the Japanese version of songs on CD Adrianne lenker

red leaves, falling - Adrianne Lenker

"Shadows Stay"

Verse 1
The house won’t move, but the air feels thin,
Every step I take, I trip where you’ve been.
Your chair’s still warm in the quiet place.,
I keep the lights low, in this blue space. 

Verse 2
Your watch still ticks on the bedroom shelf,
I wind it up, but it won’t help.
The calendar froze on a winter day,
The ink of your handwriting won’t fade away.

Chorus
You’re gone, but the shadows stay,
They whisper in a crooked way.
I keep on talking, but no one replies,
Just the sound of my breath, and the sound of goodbyes.

Verse 3
Some nights I dream you’re walking near,
Your coat on the rail, your voice in my ear.
I wake to nothing, just the ceiling’s stare,
And the heavy reminder that you’re not there.

Chorus
You’re gone, but the shadows stay,
They whisper in a crooked way.
I keep on talking, but no one replies,
Just the sound of my breath, and the sound of goodbyes.

Verse 1
The house won’t move, but the air feels thin,
Every step I take, I trip where you’ve been.
Your chair’s still warm in the quiet place.,
I keep the lights low, in this blue space.

Chorus
You’re gone, but the shadows stay,
They whisper in a crooked way.
I keep on talking, but no one replies,
Just the sound of my breath, and the sound of goodbyes.

Final Chorus
You’re gone, but the shadows stay,
They haunt me in a tender way.
I reach for your hand, but it slips through the night,
And I’m left with the dark, and the absence of light.


for the man who told me to run

saoirse moncrieff