turned 22 today, here's a song

produced by stonesowavy

mastered by @sastrp

LYRICS:

let me in let me out

tell me what you know
bout your life the shit u hide and tell me what u owe
forget about the time i got it start right from the go
lemme know your fears the trauma buried deep below
tell me bout the time u didn’t have a place a home
tell me bout the desperation of being alone
moving day to day where every day was seeming slow
every time the outcome of events was still unknown 
it’s unknown where we at
no time to react
speculation mixed with fact and the fad of attention in remission
cause it’s not about you and it never was
and it’s not about me that’s what troubles us
expecting compensation for a life that seems mistaken
and receiving nothing but impatience conflict illness degradation
seems unfair all this monotony performed with calculation 
comparing hatred
constantly racing
wonder what’s the purpose of the pain
dream of peace a stable life consistent pay
don’t ask for too much only take the things u need
tell me how you heal and how you bleed

can i tell you what i know
bout my life the shit i hide and what i owe
hope you got the time cause imma start right from the go 
i got a lot of fear and trauma buried deep below
i got a couple diagnoses probably a couple more they haven’t found yet
but the symptoms are apparent and the treatment done is negligent 
i’m stubborn almost arrogant in my ability to counter obstacles it’s evident
that i would benefit from therapy if i just fucking went
but i can’t even dial numbers start the journey of salvation
once my halo dusty now it’s broken down to yo sediment
i said i wanna change the world
she said that i can’t make that promise
i told her that i need approval
she said i might be a narcissist
cause i’m so focused on myself in such a troubling way
i can recognize the rot but i still let it decay
doing the bare minimum so i can get through the day
but i’m still desperate for some clapping hands to say it’s okay 
cause just the thought of doing what is right is not enough if i don’t actually do it
i want diplomas houses i blew it 
why does life feel claustrophobic when i just got on my feet
can i tell you how i heal and how i bleed

let me in let me out

i simply can’t believe in over sharing
given proper context humans tend to love comparing
situations lived and coping methods revel baring
honest nature of existence and precisely planning
what to filter rummage memories depression or your BPD
and anything that’s troubling the most open that you’ll ever be
but only let out what’s acceptable the limit of your history
is undefined when you first meet somebody you can vaguely see
being in your life extended time bond through little things
like breakups high school bullies neurons firing
to find the sweet spot not too overbearing sort of comforting
to know you’re not alone in this eventually the dam will break
testing the relationship by showing what is underneath
standing at a checkpoint in the bond you built so carefully
started off with how your parents were divorcing
to how you know the makeup that can help to cover bruising 
buzzwords key components of a conversation hold em in their mouth and let them out
when necessity to shows up 
know i’m here for you i care but question if they do believe that
in their head are they judgmental bout a controversial past

and maybe i’m just nosy bout your life
not always my business do or die
imma tell you something bout me
this is how i heal and how i bleed

let me in [prod. stonesowavy]

laptop (ft.soru)[prod.intika]

break!

Featuring by: @l_y_p_i
Written by: Kurama SD & l y p i 
Produced by: @jolst
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & l y p i
Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork from: Horimiya 

Lyrics:
[Chorus: Kurama SD]
I don't know 
Where to go
But I'm trying
But I'm trying  
To make my way out
Of this hell 
I know I will fail 
But I know I can prevail 
If I try 
If I try my hardest 
My hardest
If I try

[Post-Chorus: l y p i]
Don't waste my time 
Don't waste my time 
I waited 

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
I lost it all 
And its so easy to see 
Easy to see 
All the problems 
All the problems
Everything is so temporary 
Nothing is always easy
Always easy 
Always easy
I have so much uncertainty 
In my head 
In my head

[Bridge: Kurama SD]
I don't know 
Why I'm still here 
I don't know 
Why you even care

[Verse 2: l y p i]
Why you care
Double it up
I got 2 pills to take and I can't get enough
Got this pain in my brain and I don't want to let it
Take what I am
Cause I know I'm misfit

Fine I said I'm sorry
That shit was just so low
Only in my head though 
Don't think I can do it
I think I'll go through it
I knew that you blew it
I don't want to do it

I don't want to do it but I guess that I will
That's the only story of my life that I know
Waiting for the day just to do all the things I want to do
Oh it's just a shame I know 

And how I've felt so alone 
It has been enough just to tear me apart
Waiting for the day that I got through it all
A have been alone

[Outro: l y p i]
oh oh oh 
x6

Prevail w/ l y p i (Prod. jolst)

hi thnaku for listening :D
prod - @wetmall
mix - me <#33

does it feel right?
you're keeping me alive
at midnight
until the lord arrives
showing virtue
but it's not u
you're different
left an imprint on my life
wipe the tears out from your eye
(eye)

fuck that
i'ma go back
and show everyone
how the fuck i backtrack
in the pitch black
this is payback
i'm the one to attack in my wolf pack
WOOF WOOF WOOF!

i'm a goner 
wish i saw her
in december
in the winter
now it's all gone
i got no one
and it hurts to be worse
after i've won

yeah, oh, bitch u weary? (obituary)
then take a fucking nap
yeah, u think i'm scary?
what the fucks with that

does it feel right?
you're keeping me alive
at midnight
until the lord arrives
showing virtue
but it's not u
you're different
left an imprint on my life
wipe the tears out from your eye
(eye)

i'll be gone by tomorrow // prod. wetmall

Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: domesticsoul
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork from: Your Lie In April (Anime)

[Intro]
Feeling so broke down
I wanna leave my own town 
Cause everybody fucking hates me here
I just wanna disappear 

[Verse]
I just wanna disappear 
Cause everday I feel worthless 
Maybe if I was gone it'd be painless 
Sometimes I wish I remained faceless 
Maybe then I'd be nameless 
I don't wanna be famous 
Everybody cares till it
Comes to this
Comes to this

[Bridge]
Broken too pieces again 
I just wish I could have a friend 
(Friend)
Don't know where I've been lately 
Just miss you everyday lately 

[Verse 2]
Plenty mistakes made 
I don't really know what to say
Just wanna get out my bed today 
Even if I fail just know I'm here for you
I don't really see things clearly 
Nearly jumping off the ledge everyday

[Outro]
Who the fuck am I anymore

Vanish (Prod. domesticsoul)

iris (siem spark)

I See You.

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"
Been up all night
You on my mind
Still see your face widescreen 16:9
Still hear your name echo like you're mine

Thoughts looping can't get you out
Like who am I? pill take my mind
Dark thoughts creep trapped I can't leave
Drowning in my grief
Pills I can't leave

(Dark thoughts) (my mind)

Lost for years, baby I ain't coming back
Baby I ain't coming back (coming back)

Been up all night
You on my mind
Still see your face widescreen 16:9
Still hear your name echo like you're mine

Lost for-ever
Baby will you pick me up? I'm on all kinds of drugs
Breaking down hit the plug, pray for me need a hug
(Thanks quesadillas)

Still see your face widescreen 16:9
Still hear your name echo like you're mine

Lost for-ever
Baby will you pick me up? I'm on all kinds of drugs
Breaking down hit the plug, pray for me need a hug
(Thanks quesadillas)
"
\\//_CREDITS_\\//
prod: Quesadillas
mix: Quesadillas
master: Quesadillas
engineer: Quesadillas
https://genius.com/Quesadillas-lost-for-years-lyrics

Lost For Years

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lost for years (prod. quesadillas)

on all platforms <3

LYRIC/////
I did what i did, nothings gonna change that
Change who i am go way back
Ive been me, changing gradually
Through life were evolving we have to be

Time and place, everything gon change
Think you got the best of me but nothings in my way
except myself, except my mind, except my stupid ways to waste my time
We all change, life moves on, we recover from pain, and move beyond
We all fuck up, we all do wrong, the question is how u gonna stay strong

Its unlikely, i fucked up and you know that
Overthink myself sleep, time move forward cant go back
You try your best to make amends
But i cant fix what doesnt bend 
I used to think you were my friend
Now i see it was it all pretend
I fucked up once you left the end.

everything gon change [prod. mndls1600]

recorded in the wrong bpm smh

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