Producer Credits : Andy Sorenson & whxami

save yourself

Lungs

Uppbeat make u happy

Wh1te W0lf x s0cliché - Winter Is Coming

s0cliche x Ethan Ross - "Miles Away" (prod. Drunk Girl)

Rollercoaster

Don't Throw a Fit - The Lost Tapes

Loyal to the Long Nights

Check out my homie https://soundcloud.com/slothboipapi



it’s the sedatives just an alternative, 
just a market price inside my soul when did it become so competitive
now I’m hesitant,  
to let the ones I know I should love in but being backstabbed is so repetitive


know I’ve been here all before, drugged up passed out on the floor
I’ve seen those messages from him taunting you that you should leave
you know you should, cus I’m no good, I’m no good
I understand that I’m fucked up

dealing with questions from a psychiatrist doesn’t understand what I’ve been through
dealing with questions from my own family, build me up like a statue
it’s so hard to look at your eyes, filled with judgment
the pills just got too much for me I couldn’t cope

sinking down into the abyss where I never rose again
see my bones splattered on the walls deep down in my own hell
like a bliss-filled with alcohol and suicide
fucked in my own way, fucked together fucked apart

still, don’t remember how it got that bad back then thought I was better by myself
got the slothboi guarding my back climbing up and reaching the end
my mother just wants to see me smile, 
ill stare back with a blank face cus its the

holding no sentiment
I see you crying on the ground yeah mind is filling up with adrenaline
you’re argumentative
blaming me because you stuck down in a hole and you cant dig your way out

$LOTHBOI

Repetitive
These thoughts in my head they’ve been shaking me
Till the end ive been thinking of the negative
The thoughts in my head, yeah, yeah

Adrenaline
The panic from the thoughts and the memories
They’ve been overwhelming me and all my better days 
I’m hesitant to question my own fucking happiness 

The memories be trapping me
I’m stuck and it’s 
Repetitive
I need medicine
Im an alcoholic piece of shit a negative

I got some problems with
My fucking memories
The trauma from my fucking past can get the best of me
I’m staggering

Now Rivilin
Let’s climb up on their corpses
Let’s get rid of them

I be tired of the liars I been sitting with
Shit I’m fucking sick of it
I’m a piece of shit but I bet I’m still the better man
They faking it

Control Ft $LOTHBOI

Prod. blade901

Cover art by Airil Hakimi (@ ari.hkm  on instagram)

LYRICS
i'm sorry my love
i'm trying but i'm really boutta put one in the chamber
don't save me
i'm so done
with trying my best not to seem like such a fucking failure
don't save me

is it too much for me to say
that i want to go away
but i get faded
in replacement
and you hate how i behave
you avoid when i'm estranged
cause i think dangerous
and i don't blame you
i feel dangerous enough
to spill my brains and guts
make red of all these empty pages
for no wages

x2
the highs that i always chase
the meals i can barely taste
can't get out of my own brain
i think i'm ready to break

i'm sorry my love
i'm trying but i'm really boutta put one in the chamber
don't save me
i'm so done
with trying my best not to seem like such a fucking failure
don't save me

one in the chamber (prod. blade901)

Prod. MH on the Track

LYRICS
I’m not right in my head
this new fashion
new rules that are set
I need action
call me up any day
if you’re asking a little satisfaction

I’m not right in my head
feelin' hot with cold sweats
I been dizzy thinkin' bout the same old fuckin' nonsense
I gotta life that I live
I’m leavin' jersey hop in
shits crazy for you and me lately
once again

if you wanna dance
I won’t let nobody stop you
girl this ain’t six feet
but now I got you where I want you
really think you need some one like me you can talk to
let me set you free
show you what somebody ought to

Kisses with your mask on
is not enough
we don’t come around these parts to sober up
Look me in the eye and tell me that you won’t
you’re playin games and we been goin toe to toe
I been livin on the edge now
I’m boutta jump, run it up
Vision red
And I always test my luck
a partner in crime?
I never lose
you think what I’m thinking?
I’m with you, aim for the bushes

if you wanna dance
I won’t let nobody stop you
girl this ain’t six feet
but now I got you where I want you
really think you need some one like me you can talk to
let me set you free
show you what somebody ought to

kisses with your mask on
I’m not right in my head
this new fashion
new rules that are set
I need action
call me up any day
if you’re asking a little satisfaction

she want to, but she paranoid

I’m not right in my head
feelin' hot with cold sweats
I been dizzy thinkin' bout the same old fuckin' nonsense
I gotta life that I live
I’m leavin' jersey hop in
shit's getting crazy for you and me lately,
once again...

if you wanna dance
I won’t let nobody stop you
girl this ain’t six feet
but now I got you where I want you
really think you need some one like me you can talk to
let me set you free
show you what somebody ought to

kisses with your mask on
I’m not right in my head
this new fashion
new rules that are set
I need action
call me up any day
if you’re asking a little satisfaction

Uppbeat make u happy

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