The Other Side of Despair

scales and receivers

RumpShaker(Warj)

Initially uploaded 2021 but I thought a re-release was necessary

Step by Awan

Was deep in depression when I made this and I've avoided releasing it for too long

Dont

this song is written from the perspective of someone who took their own life, acknowledging the impact it will have on the loved ones and anyone within the circle of said individual; it's a suicide letter - an apology for resorting to such extreme measures - full of self-pity and shame, albeit confessing to themselves and the audience they saw no other escape out of their misery and pain, knowing deep inside they would do it all again if given the chance to go back, as time could not fix what they believed it was always ruined to begin with. 

Time Won't Fix

Prod. CannonTooCold
Track 8 from The Other Side of Despair
Lyrics:
CEO, huh
I take this .40 out my waistline, up this shit at your face
I’m with your shorty and she bending over, giving me face
I tell that bitch ass boy to back up cause’ I need all my space
I’m moving backwards off this Backwood like I’m in outer space
I used to dream of getting money like I need me a taste
And now they looking at me funny when I buy the whole place 
I got them looking at their manager like I need a raise
Because I’m pulling up in Escalades fresh out the lot without no plates
Bitch I got a lot to say, I woke up counting guap today
I ain’t taking shit from you, just tell it to the Glock today
Fuck them nosy cops and shit and fuck them boys who faking plays
I ain’t rocking Crocs lil bitch I’m always lacing up my J’s
Aye, huh
Yeah I always lace up my J’s 
I don’t give a fuck, I just stay up for days
I just stay up for days
My fucking minds a maze
But I still find some ways to leave em’ all amazed
Yuh, yuh, yuh
Break into your shit, I’m leaving through the side door (Through the side door)
No I don’t (Don’t) need no mother fucking side hoe (Fuck a side hoe)
I could roll a whole eighth with my eyes closed
You at the club, bitch I’m in another time zone (God damn)
Matching jeans and the belt with the rhinestones
It ain’t never too late to get your grind on
Pulling out a bankroll to get your mind blown
They ain’t wanna see me win, did it on my own
They ain’t wanna see me win, did it on my own
Now I’m smoking homegrown and my mind strong
Aye, CEO shit, 2025 we the wave, huh
Let’s get it, no limit
Lil bitch I’m on your head like a fitted
Committed, I did it
Going back and forth like tennis
These dreams, so vivid
This shit got me livid
Make you strike out, 1,2,3 bitch I’m with it
Make you strike out, 1,2,3 bitch I’m with it

strike out!

Prod. CRCL
Track 1 from The Other Side of Despair
Lyrics:
They droppin' like some flies, look inside my eyes
I ain't tellin' lies, you got on a whole disguise
I'm really on the rise, I'ma lead the enterprise
I don't need to emphasize that I'll bring you to demise

Floatin' like a poltergeist, no more talkin' nice
I got plenty blades, bitch, I got hella knives
Go back where you came, bitch, you will recognize
That I'm not with the playin’ shit, you will not survive

Ridin' through the night, always hold my pistol tight
Got you in my sight, squeeze and let you see the light
Don't you try to fight out of spite, cause I'll smite
Judge asked me would I do it twice, I said I might, damn

The jeans I'm rockin' tight, and my polo shirt is white
Hoppin' on a flight, flyin' higher than a kite
Boy, I only love my wife, yo bitch dirty than my Sprite
Every single word I write brings me closer to lime light

I take control of this shit like a pilot
I take four xans, my eyes roll back to my eyelids
Front flip off the stage, the cover of Die Lit
Once I'm filled with rage, all I see is violet

Blunts, they filled with grade A, get me high quick
I don't, I don't, I don't smoke no motherfuckin' hybrid
Nah, bitch, I don't smoke no hybrid
Floatin' through your roof, even when I'm uninvited

Floatin' like a poltergeist, no more talkin' nice
I got plenty blades, bitch, I got hella knives
Go back where you came, bitch, you will recognize
That I'm not with the playin’ shit, you will not survive

Poltergeist

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Prod. Sphynx
Track 2 from The Other Side of Despair
Lyrics:
Doing what I can while I let my life play out on it’s own
I’m in my zone everyday let go of what I can’t control
It gets old coming home from a long day feeling like I lost my soul
We in hell already but this world is very cold
Sick of working for a company that doesn’t give a fuck bout me at all
I’m showing up to shifts reluctantly I’m thinking of the money
I know one day I’ll go out and spend it all
And no one keeping up with me I’m keeping my head up at least
Cause I know one day I’ll live comfortably and get these problems solved
My whole life is up to me as long as I just let it be 
Expressing through these MP3’s each time I do it I evolve

I’ve seen all the lonely nights I’ve been down the dark roads
Car it doesn’t got headlights, how am I to get home
Sometimes I needed advice, but no one to get it from
Floating like a satellite and I’m gaining wisdom (gaining wisdom)

Doing what I can while I let my life play out on it’s own
I’m in my zone everyday let go of what I can’t control
It gets old coming home from a long day feeling like I lost my soul
We in hell already but this world is very cold
Sick of working for a company that doesn’t give a fuck bout me at all
I’m showing up to shifts reluctantly I’m thinking of the money
I know one day I’ll go out and spend it all
And no one keeping up with me I’m keeping my head up at least
Cause I know one day I’ll live comfortably and get these problems solved
My whole life is up to me as long as I just let it be 
Expressing through these MP3’s each time I do it I evolve

Every time that I wake up (Yup)
I feel fucked up
Go outside, face a blunt (What the fuck?)
Why’s it so damn hard to hide
From all the shit inside my mind
I feel so far left behind
My soul so far from aligned
Cry for old times can’t rewind

Floating

Prod. Sphynx
Track 3 from The Other Side of Despair
Lyrics:
In a pit of fire, have pitiful liars burnt
Nothing up inside the urn but plenty missing fliers served
Never enough how much I earn, you can’t put prices on my worth
This my turf, fuck the earth, floating through the universe

Fuck the IRS, all they bring is stress
Telling me that you are the best?
Shit, you must be smoking meth
Should’ve showed up to your house at 3 and shot 3 in your chest
Nowadays they calling police about some terroristic threats (The fuck?)
I’m eyeing police inside the rearview mirror in the driver seat
I caught a tire leak, ran over 13 nails unironically
I tried to retreat on my feet they opened fire on me I got hit with heat
Now I’m laying on the street

In a pit of fire, have pitiful liars burnt
Nothing up inside the urn but plenty missing fliers served
Never enough how much I earn, you can’t put prices on my worth
This my turf, fuck the earth, floating through the universe

My brains on concrete like some fucking zombie meat
Every memory and what I ain’t complete is haunting me
Want my legacy to live on so no one’s forgotten me 
I hope to serve a purpose in the dirt with maggots crawling me
(With maggots crawling me)
In a century we’ll all be gone (All be gone)
Fuck the history, I’ve just begun (Just begun)
Wipe your prints clean if you touch the gun (Touch the gun)
Pass it to me and I’ll get it done (Get it done)

In a Pit of Fire

Prod. Sphynx
Track 4 from The Other Side of Despair
Lyrics:
Life feels different when ya mind so empty 
That you can’t finish a thought
(Finish a thought)
Running round circles in my head laying in my bed
Should I keep going or not?
(Keep going or not)
Everybody left smoke a cigarette
To dissipate the stress of what I am and what I’m not
(What I am and what I’m not)
Living in eternal debt to regret and every last thing I forgot
(That I forgot)
All I ever wanted was to make a difference
I no longer care about fame or riches
My friends would’ve pushed me off edges of cliffs
And so I distanced myself from all you bitches
Everyone walk around acting pretentious
All of y’all need to lay inside of some ditches
World full of swindlers, liars and snitches
Either way I need some gun fire to end this

I know I can’t kill myself 
Sometimes I feel like I’m already in hell
If I sold my soul would it even sell?
What am I doing here? I could never tell

Visons I been having late at night been scaring me
Christians having conversations talking about sparing me
Ain’t been feeling a thing, the pain stings but barely
Living in a dream, lucid thoughts are a rarity
Scars deep in my soul, no one knows the severity 
Far from having control, goals or some sense of clarity
Mania got ahold on me, laughing hysterically 
Demons with me deep inside the dirt that they bury me

I Feel Like My Body Is Decaying

Prod. Sphynx
Track 5 from The Other Side of Despair
Lyrics:
Way outside my body bitch I’m astral projecting (I’m traveling)
Spirits won’t get off me they want me for possession (They’re after me) 
Never showing fear cause I done learned all my lessons
Everyday that I wake up, the universe get to testing
Don’t give a fuck what they think because I just keep manifesting
Best put your money on me, and don’t think to stop the investing
Slugs in the shotty, M16 got hollow points in the chamber
And on my body, Smith and Wesson I ain’t stressing bout danger
I’m out in Creston watching westerns, pressing all types of strangers
I made confessions for progressive bursts of aggressive anger
No more regressing it’s refreshing reassessing the answer
I kept repressing my depressing symptoms until I can’t
Can’t wait to look back at my tracks and all the work that I’ve given it
Reminisce on every notepad and note app that I’ve written with 
They don’t do shit but talking shit, few years ago I was sick of it
Now I got no fucks to give cause I know that I’m straight killing it

I’m killing it (huh)
I don’t give a fuck cause I’m killing it, huh
Turn you into dust, then I’m spilling it, huh
I don’t give a fuck cause I’m killing it, huh
Bury you at dusk near the hill and shit

Engraving your name on a tombstone
Throw you in acid and turn you into bone
Joking and laughing because I’m way too stoned
Bong and bowl packing, I’m rolling a new cone
No human contact like I got a new phone
Fuck how you talking you best use a new tone
Walk in your house got my mother fucking shoes on
Getting blue strips, money keep getting too long
Pussy boys talking that shit but they never gon run up and see how this shit really is
I might seem evil or something but promise you I’m really looking out for all the kids
My life on private cause I don’t like priers that staying inside of my personal biz
I’d rather have em not know shit about me like somebody who ain’t study for a quiz
Run up on a janky boy fucking off him
Fuck this world it’s The Nail in The Coffin
Big backwood stay having me coughing
Tripping and seeing another dimension I do that shit every so often
Life is exhausting
Open my mind up my brain I’m unlocking
Time for some change rearrange where we’re walking
I said what I said bitch and now I’m done talking

Astral Projecting in The Middle of Nowhere

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