Lyrics:

i could kill a fucking heart expressing how i felt
solitary with these thoughts is an existential hell
i'm only visiting i won't be here for long
preach good decisions while i rip another hit out of this bong
i can see right past ur face into ur mind 
if i send this fucking message i swear it's suicide  
i'll ask you every single option that i have
to make it right
and then in desperation complete the cycle and the questline

so what i'm just a monster with a mop
earning 12.50 an hour 9-5 upon the dot
it's me the janitor you know so very well
i just vented every thought of mine through songs to break my shell
and i
haven't made those in a week
and i'm getting so scared that this could be the end of my
career and it worsens my fear 
so i contemplate
all of the things that i'll never find
days turn to weeks
then to months then to years
could this project ever get done in time
pushed it back twice 
and the rush is a lie
n i'm sitting here stuck on a fucking line
i was a sight seer
i spent the night here
hang on a lease
while i ruin my teeth
and make sense of some things that should never rhyme

and i

and i hide my fucking feelings 
from my friends
and raise my walls
they can see a couple cracks
but they've not seen a thing at all
cement breaks
it's tempting
to breakdown
and lay waste

janitor pt. II

reupload
all credits go to sui and derrick

SUISSIDE x X10DERRICK - STILL LOVE YOU

SUICIDE OF ROMEO(scandibeats)

nothing,nowhere - time out

WELCOME TO MY LONELY WORLD U LIL LONELY GIRL 
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twitter: @myemofruit
instagram: @emofruits
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lonely world outro <//3
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do u see what i dont see 
do u bleed when i dont bleed
i die little more every week
maybe its time that i dont breathe
do u see what i dont see 
do u bleed when i dont bleed
i die little more every week
maybe its time that i dont breathe 

i cant sleep 
yeah i cant sleep 
maybe its these drugs inside of me
im sorry that u see this side of me 
im sorry that u see this side of me
yeah im lost 
yeah i know
good drugs
and bad hoes
im cold 
yeah so cold
im on my own 
yeah im on my own
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-ur friendly neighborhood fruits

LONELYWORLD 

lonely world outro (prod. domyno music)

Prod @tothegood
I'm just a fucked up kid, with some real bad skin
I throw up too much, spill my guts from within
I always feel sick, and my heart wrapped in sin
I don't wanna fit in, I just need some medicine

Sitting in my room I just can't think of you
Why you be so far and why you feeling blue
Feeling like I'm dead I know you feel it too
Wanna leave my body its just what I do

I been spendin all of my time tryna be an angel
But this darkness held within will kill me slow and painful
Cause we live fast and die young yeah but its fucking shameful
Way I talk to myself has been really hateful

Locked inside this old room with a gram
All that's left now I'm dead in the sand
Desert heat, a mirage on command
Leave me left for dead I black out on demand

fkdup (prod. tothegood)

ALL FOR NOTHING

Featuring https://soundcloud.com/cartoonben
Mastered by https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic
Art by https://soundcloud.com/emotionalbuu

[cartoon ben]
Why you playing with my heart like that
Stabbing that knife right through my back 
You talked a lot of shit please take it back
Why you gotta play my heart like that
Cause a scene like that do you want the drama 
Good at arguing, get it from your momma 
Wish I never met you, so things could be easier 
There’s a crater in my heart, you hit me like a meteor

[king theta]
Have another crisis,
You'll be runnin right back to me by the end of the night
It's how you like it,
Try to start a fight cause the drama's keepin you high
X2
She's a little bit crazy
One minute she hates me
In the next one she'll be runnin right back
Excitement, yeah she likes that
Won't fight back cause I'm not frightened
Come lie down, baby that's the right track

Always tryna find a way to push my buttons
Tryna play games but you don't win nothing
How'd you start flame from a simple discussion
Huffing and puffing, pushing and shoving
When you found me you knew that I couldn't draw a boundry
Now see, I know who I am, say it proudly
Doubt me, you know that tonight I'll sleep soundly
I know you wanna be around me
And you know that I want you too
I'm just not willing to waste my time
When tomorrow it'll be just fine
Girl I hope that you keep our truce
I'm just not tryin to ride that wave
You know I'm always gonna keep you safe

Have another crisis,
You'll be runnin right back to me by the end of the night
It's how you like it,
Try to start a fight cause the drama's keepin you high
X2
She's a little bit crazy
One minute she hates me
In the next one she'll be runnin right back
Excitement, yeah she likes that
Won't fight back cause I'm not frightened
Come lie down, baby that's the right track

Crisis ft. cartoon ben

Hazy Days (Prod. by Fallen Leaves)

THE BUNKIE EP is dedicated to the very beginning.. 

  It all started back in 2009 with an acoustic guitar and an extremely high pitched voice. You'd usually catch me covering songs like "There Is" by Boxcar Racer, "Dare 4 Distance" by NeverShoutNever, or "Iris" by The Goo Goo Dolls.. I really started to find my passion for making music and couldn't turn back from there. 
  
  Back in the day, my father had built us kids a cabin in the backyard that we called our "bunkie. It's where i'd seclude myself to practice my singing without anybody knowing. One day, i remember my dad walked in and complimented me on the song i was singing. Even though it was something i was completely self conscious about, he always pushed me to do more with it. 

  From then on, i started to cover my favourite acoustic songs at local coffee shops, and high school talent shows. It was honestly such an amazing feeling connecting with people at these small venues, and i started to make a bit of a name for myself around town. 

  It's been a full decade since then, and i've gone from covering popular acoustic songs, to writing and recording my own. This EP is all about nostalgia and making my music come full circle. There are songs on this EP that are related to the situations, and feelings i never got to express back in 2009. Another fun fact, is that i even went by the name "homesweethome" back when i was starting all of this.
  
  Fast forward 10 years, and here we are. I’m about to drop the most meaningful and authentic project i have ever created. 2009 me would be so happy. 
All the songs on the EP are based off true emotion and actual events.
 The cover of this album means so much to me, and was created by my talented and beautiful girlfriend Lauren! 

  Let me know what your favourite song was, I’d love to hear your thoughts! <3

nothing,nowhere - time out

synergene

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