Mixed live on CDJs and Vinyl

Tracklist:
Dave Brubeck Quartet - Three To Get Ready and Four to Go

Dave Brubeck Quartet - African Times Suite (1st Movement)

black midi - Live on Canal St, NYC

Cities Aviv - INTERLUDE (feat. Jeanpaulmicrowave)

Cities Aviv - STALEMATE (feat. Skrewpac)

Terre Thaemlitz - Trans-Am (Punched to the Floor)

Terre Thaemlitz - Silent Passability (Ride to the Countryside) 

Pretty V - The Nightmare Takes Over

dntel - Why I’m So Unhappy

868 - Slowburn

THUGWIDOW - Lawful Killing

Crystallmess - Do you know what makes this world go round?

Ted Kamal - iwouldcry

Kelela - The High (Lux Familiar Footwork Edit)

DJ Spinn, DJ Manny & DJ Taye - Kush Alarm

GRIG - Trees At Night

Chris Kaiju - SadHeartEyesEmoji

YUMGOD - May Crush Ako S’ayo

K.A.S.H - Saki-Chan Pt 1 

K.A.S.H - Saki-Chan Pt 2

nowheregirl - Unreleased

Ase Manual - Senzu

Voice Actor - Carefully

twikipedia - boy

Ana Roxanne - Untitled

mark william lewis - Josh, this is Lin, I accidentally left my documents in your car yesterday

Leon Vynehall - Julia (Footnote IV)

DJ Sprinkles - Grand Central - Part 2 (72 Hrs. By Rail From Missouri)


Unserious Writing for Myself (In Editing)

An attempt to actualize my feelings of gendered dissonance and mindlessness in transit between New Jersey and New York City, fearwilltakeover was inspired by Terre Thaemlitz's work, specifically ideas pulled from Grand Central, detailing her own 72 hour train ride from his hometown in Missouri to Grand Central, Routes not Roots' interview-style spoken word piece from a Japanese crossdresser's identity, and Couture Cosmetique's ambient distillation of fears of violence while travelling in between safe spaces and the forced compulsion to stay silent as to not invite confrontation. (Thaemlitz identifies using a non-essentialist or anti-essentialist framework, switching between female/male pronouns.) Thaemlitz's work embellished a history of the processing of my own gender while in transit, but instead of one great big move from one place to another, my time was spent in short bursts of travel, 40-50 minutes in between one place and the next. This time spent on the road in between two places of various levels of queer acceptability and history, in my eyes, developed my own battles with self-acceptability and self-definition;(Another Thaemlitz work, Soulnessless, comes to mind when trying to define the sinking feeling I experience when thinking too hard about my own ability to define myself.) Queer theorist Kit Morgan describes a queer-specific type of cognitive dissonance developed by years under a repressive heteronormative school of thought. My experience with dissonance, as much as it came from a heteronormative upbringing, is just as much a fault of the perceived homonormativity found on social media and beyond. Not being able to fit into 
Pretty V's track inspired the name of this mix, and I believe the idea is pretty self-explanatory when you take a look at the lyrics, so I will copy-paste them below:

If there’s a problem 
You don’t save it 
You try change it
You keep it going 
For a moment 
Don’t hold it 
Or it’ll take over 
It’ll take over 
Your soul 
It’ll take over
It’ll take over 
Your heart 
It’ll take over 
Don’t let it take over
It’ll take over 
It’ll take over 
Your heart
It’ll take over 
It’ll take over 
It’ll take over your soul
Let it go 
It’ll take over 
It’ll take over 
Your heart 
It’ll take over 
It’ll take over 
Your soul
(Voldy Moyo, 2022)

if you read this far, just know this shit was super therapeutic for me. thank you for listening, and I hope you enjoy.

nowheregirl

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