recorded on a 4 track cassette recorder. this is a cover

it's over and done with

Lyrics:

She
She's all I want
She's all I need
Clandestine Touch
A blurry face
In the distant fog
Deep in the mist
Fading yet breathing
Flawless figure

She is the one
She temps me too far
She takes me right out my head
Life that art couldn't imitate

She is in my sleep
She is in my day
She is in my head
She is it out of touch
She is growing old
She

She calls to me
Whenever I'm in need
She'll always be with me
Wherever she may be

She makes the heart stop
Yet painless she is not
I'll never escape
Until my wake
Till then she will stay
She

remixed/remastered for the comp

Lyrics:

This feeling that brings you fear
Cold and estranged
Calling but you don't hear
There is no change
The life you've always run from
This life that brings no life
Which you hold so high

As it engulfs me
Tears fill my eyes
This sadness feels free
Content, it greets me

As darkness calls on you
Embrace is felt
Soon there is nothing
And all seems clear

As it engulfs me
Tears fill my eyes
This sadness feels free
Content, it greets me

Misery Assent (Remixed)

Lyrics:

drift away to where I feel safe
to a familar place, far from everything

wasting my days
i can't explain
why i behave
irrationally 

feeling scared of whats closing near
don't wanna be behind or run out of time

adolescence fades
i never got to say
how much it meant to me
it's never coming back
it's never coming back

Familiar Place

not my song

well i never was able to say
just how i was feeling
can't let you see me in this state
and this path im leaving

do you really want to know?
do you really?

i feel lost
feel boring
i've been caught sleeping all morning

pull down the shades
i'd rather stay inside all day
my own thoughts are in my way
i'd rather sleep than have to say

i feel lost
feel boring
i've been caught sleeping all morning
i feel scared
of knowing
i'm just a single leaf out in the wind blowing

do you really want to know?
do you really?

leaf (cover)

weezer cover

i know i should get next to you
you got a look that made me think you're cool
but it's just sexual attraction
not something real so I'd rather keep whacking

why bother?
its gonna hurt me
it's gonna kill when you desert me
this happened to me twice before
it won't happen to me anymore

i've known a lot of girls before
what's the harm in knowing one more?
maybe we could even get together
maybe you could break my heart next summer

why bother?
it's gonna hurt me
it's gonna kill when you desert me
this happened to me twice before
it won't happen to me anymore

it's a crying shame i'm all alone
not with you or her or anyone
won't you knock me out my head
crack it open let me out again

why bother?
it's gonna hurt me
it's gonna kill when you desert me
this happened to me twice before
it won't happen to me anymore

why bother? (cover)

we're on the outskirts of the possible, following trickles to who knows where

_star gazing -

video coming soon

lyrics:

a constant dragging me

repeating
repeating

this constant stays
this life ive made

if i stood still 
i couldn't tell the time thats passed
a calming place, so vast

drowning in deja vu, i felt it too
i can change everything with you
this constant i choose

constant

lyrics:

gaze into the void
see you're life laid out

the last time they'll say your name
is when you die forever

you cant take the stand 
thats needed for this to end

the last time you're remembered
is when your gone forever

last time

lyrics:

in my dreams
try to see
what makes me 
scream

i try, never lied, all this time ive never cried
deep inside i know my pride 
will hold me down until i die
side to side, like my mind
lived my whole life living blind

see me sinking
always thinking
trapped endlessly
never set free
never set free

i try, never lied, all this time ive never cried
deep inside i know my pride 
will hold me down until i die
side to side, like my mind
lived my whole life living blind

say you're fine
i know you're fine
say you're right
i know you're right

dreams

lyrics:

peel my skin 
mould my bones
stretch my veins until i match whats in your dreams

disfigure me
do as you please
shape me to anything that makes you look at me
and if im not enough for you
may i be cursed alone until you choose

without you im meaningless
i dread the minutes to come
the memory of you is a shadow of what i knew
you're a silhouette in my head
your face ill never recall

disfigure me
do as you please
shape me to anything that makes you look at me
and if im not enough for you
may i be cursed alone until you choose

disfigure me
do as you please
shape me to anything that makes you look at me
and if im not enough for you
may i be cursed alone until you choose

disfigure me

lyrics:

sometimes talking can be exhausting
if i dont talk to you, know that i want to
i see it in your eyes, your life is full of lies
keep your interpretations far from my sight

sometimes i cant relate
sometimes i wont stay
you wont notice that im gone when i dont belong
i want to reach out
never wanna shout
ill stay content with you
this joy is overdue

sometimes conversing can take rehearsing
i dont know what to say to make you wanna stay
i see you everyday 
its hard to break away
if i chose to talk to you 
what would it lead to?

sometimes

lyrics:

do wolves go to hell 
for the murder of their prey?
does remorse swell inside their brains?
do they recall the memory, when the leaves sway?
i need to know

do wolves meet their killed 
when the soils grinds them down?
do their souls reconcile in the afterglow?
are they forgiven?
i need to know

wolves (new age abuse)

for the techclub comp

lyrics:

all alone
in my home
feeling less than zero 
(x3)

i confess
what a mess
i have become
in my lonesome
(x2)


old song i redid

less than zero (techclub)

lyrics:

been waiting for you
it's been too long since you'd pursure
i wouldn't know
because you took it far too slow

now i see
i can't open up to you or me
it's been too long
now you're moving on

don't wish to see what's in your head
some things are better left unsaid

now i see
i can't open up to you or me
it's been too long
now you're moving on

now i see

lyrics:

ive been putting a lot of thought
into what i say and what i do

i cant seem to escape
my previous shapes

this time around
im hoping ill change
shed my skin
for a better place

we all evolve at a pace
let go, embrace
it takes far more
to be a disgrace

this time around
im hoping ill change
shed my skin
for a better place

woven in 
self hatred
your lifes too long
to only write a single song

ecdysis

lyrics:

change comes from within
absolve yourself from sin

someday ill leave this world
somehow, someday ill leave this filth behind

somewhere in my head
i know theres something different

someday ill leave this world
somehow, someday ill leave this filth behind
when i find peace of mind
counting seconds to pass the time

someday, somehow

lyrics:

sometimes i look inside my mind
and i dont like what is inside
i wish i thought unlike myself
viewed the world through someone else

precision saw serades beneath 
open the scalp to see in me
gaze on my brain and wipe it clean
braingazer is what i need
because i will never be free
braingazer is all i need

as i fade into nowhere
somewhere i know that i will care
ill wait to be born again
what i see will never end
so bury me in concrete
where i wont recognize the scenes 

the alcohol is all i smell 
glistening jars thats filled with gel
i dont want to remember this
drown me in blissful ignorance
braingazers can wipe me clean
dowse and rinse me in saline
keep my skin from turning green
braingazing is all i need

metamorphosis is complete
my hollow composed deceit
where i wont recognize the scenes
that play endlessly inside of me
braingazings all i need

braingazer

bad habits always return

amnestic treatment

not my song

lyrics:

see your face in the halls
she drives me off the fucking walls
i wish you'd disappear 
but i cant stand where you're not here

i guess what im trying to say
is that you haunt me everyday
its not as crazy as it seems
because you talk to me in my dreams

so close so far
saw your face between the stars
im telling you it isnt me
or are you just too crazy
am i blind? do you care
so much you'd even love me
now you act like you dont even know me

big eyes, red cheeks
she makes me fucking weep
i miss being a man
but i dont know if i can
go around, act the same
and ignore her 
all the days i spent with her
makes time feel just like a fucking blur

hung up (deepblu cover)

lyrics:

it's too much to live in rain constantly
i've outgrown what made me, me
it's too much, i've outgrown

i'll wait for spring
i'll wait for birds to sing
i want something more
i want something warm
i want some spring

i've spent too long shivering
most of my time im considering
changing my ways
for better days
i can't spend my life in pity

im waiting for spring
im waiting for anything
that takes me away
to a better place

i feel it on my skin
nobodies here
listening
took so many years

spring

lyrics:

rising time
drowns this night
and fills this sky to justify 
the why's of this life
with rays of light

sun rise
as years fade by
and legacies of all die
but you still rise all the time
only this could make me cry

rise

lyrics:

it's not so hard to let go
it's not hard for you
like you'd know what to do

fall asleep
if it means
that this will end
with no amends

do you see what i wish i was
because i try so hard
for what i want

fall asleep
if it means
that this will end
with no amends

could you explain
why everything
and when you come around
don't act so proud

unfinished

acoustic dream 17

lyrics:

you caught my eye
engrained in me
your tranquility
i need my fix of you
you're something else
not like what i've seen
you're something special
and i need you more than me

i hesitate, held my breath
now your presence fled
disintegrated out my head
we'll never cross again
but i'll know
i'll know
i'll know

you seem to disappear
when i wanna care
what is that to you
you won't like what it is (to me)

i'll know

you're like a heat haze

lyrics:

a lot of time i've spent within my mind
when time's endless 
its hard to be present

hypnotized
staring at the sky
crystallized
i get frozen in time

i sway
blown with the wind
im swaying
stuck in place

the beauty of everything
weighs down on my chest
and it'll cave in, taking my breath

i sway

lyrics:

piercing
screeching
soundly
seeking

the way these waves decay
splasing on rocks of our soundscape

frequencies
treble shriek

the way these waves decay
splasing on rocks of our soundscape

they always pull me close
its these sounds that give me hope

the way these waves decay
splasing on rocks of our soundscape

soundseeker

lyrics:

im so patient 
to forget everything i meant
and i regret all the messages i sent
because now i know just how little they all meant
to you

i used to care
and track how often you would stare
let go of the past
you were my first and i'll make sure you were my last
i'll stay in my bed and forget everything you said

heavy

lyrics:

you'll open up to me
you always do
you're all i care to see
all i want to be

transparent eyes in winter time
surrounded by your translucent cries

the tears surround me
and fill up to my knees
i somehow relate to your deep sense of need

its not so hard to see
when you always grieve
not everyone perceives
how you look to me

i'd hate to look away
and leave your mirage astray

the tears surround me 
and fill up to my knees
i somehow relate to your deep sense of need

sometimes its just you and me
drawn to you constantly

firmament

birth

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