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33 years of hating myself but im only 15

#2 - what a pathetic story

I bet you want my drugs, my teeth, my lips buried in your skin
You look like someone I met from my past but I just can't put my tongue on it
Our friends don't know we're sick in the head
So much shit I've done that I regret
If I could I would change it all but I digress
Cause right now we're off the shrooms
And that be feeling the best

I'm going back to L.A. this summer
I'm stuck chasing a feeling that makes me feel younger
As I grow older I get a little dumber
My heart can't love right, it gets a little numb-er
Can I see you in L.A. this summer?
It sounds like a good plan, I'll regret it after
I wanted a good time, we got a disaster
The joke is on me, I'll be the stock for your laughter

Am I just an option? I learned my lesson long ago
I'm just being cautious, I've lost so much love to these hoes
I start feeling better till she starts ringing on my phone
I can't help but answer cause I hate living so alone

should've bit my tongue w/ overtonight

album posted to overtonights throwaway spotify account

that boy is dead


my life is such a nightmare, i can’t even fucking breathe
you said that you’d be right there, now you’re haunting all my dreams
scratches on my back from all the demons that i feed

blood stains on my bedsheets, tears mixed with the ink
love notes turn to death threats, sent out in a blink
you smile like you mean it, but your eyes just scream “leave”
baby you’re a bad trip, and i’m too high to see

you broke me in a voicemail, laughing while i cried
i still keep the message, it helps me feel alive
burned your face into my skull, like i needed a reminder
you fucked my head up worse than all my pills and all my lighters


my life is such a nightmare, i can’t even fucking breathe
you said that you’d be right there, now you’re haunting all my dreams
scratches on my back from all the demons that i feed
i don’t wanna die tonight, but i don’t wanna be me

my life is such a nightmare

staring at the ceiling, feels safer than your eyes
you always found a reason to dress up all your lies
i’m choking on apologies you never wanna hear
you left me with the silence, now it’s all i fear


every time i tried to fix it, i just made it worse
maybe i was always broken, always fucking cursed

it’s probably my fault anyways
you got sick of all my deadweight
if i disappear, would you even care?
or would you just smile while i’m not there?

i’m tired of pretending i’m worth anything at all
you watched me crumble slowly, never tried to call
maybe i deserved it, maybe i’m to blame
i’m nothing but a burden you were too polite to name

my life is such a nightmare

lain. @blindbylain