a glimpse of hope

lyrics:

12 hour drive from the train to the bus
Before I get to work u find me rollin up kush
Cause I can’t really listen to my head too much
Damp wood floors start to build up dust
Late night Adelaide rain turned slush
they ask me how come I always come so clutch
Look into my eyes they see Im out for blood
If u bet against me you could hold my nuts
Take in air and I breath out toxins
I could feel the memories that’s lying in the 
drywall that bounce around my head 
from the room im stuck in
Triple x bottles on the shelf hold substance

Today and tonight
Help harvest pain tomorrow
Crimson from my thighs
Lays thick on plants of your home
and As fate is laid in the air around my carcass
I finally understand that I was always the target

And u just had to mark it
Go ahead and finish what u started
The blade u hold is sharded
Thru my heart of hornets
And Only in this moment
She sees me as more than
A body a cog wheel
I guess that’s not important
so Touch my face and frown
As the life bleeds out
I left defenses open
Ur lucky youre so gorgeous
And the cobble here is soaking
Her lips apply a poison to me
But For her id rather not breathe yea
huh im outside Lets take a ride
Baby ill do anything for ya huh
She go on a spree in Sephora huh
We could do whatever it is u wanna huh
Break me baby u could break and ill be here
U know in between the lines I never really cared
Crazy she tell me im crazy for letting fear go
I still got it I aint letting it show

Today and tonight
Help harvest pain tomorrow
Crimson from my thighs
Lays thick on plants of your home
and As fate is laid in the air around my carcass
I finally understand that I was always the target

unimportant (jabarionthebeat x aslo x kimpe)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
still oblivious to what u like
took my head cut away for life
hoping you'll see, maybe notice the time
ur wasting, face it, i wanna make u mine
still oblivious to what u like
took my head cut away for life
hoping you'll see, maybe notice the time
ur wasting, face it, i wanna make u mine

fiending for love, don't know if i'll get it
my heart is growing numb, i can never feel it
and if u are the one, doubt i would know it
cause i'm too dumb to know what ur feelin
REMEMBER WHEN YOU SAID YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE ME
WERE YOU JUST SAYING THAT CAUSE I TOOK IT HONESTLY
NO POINT IN FEELING BAD I'M JUST HAPPY YOU COULD SEE
HOW HARD I'M BOUTTA CRASH AND YOU SAY YOU'RE HERE FOR ME

still healing to be whole
don't know what's inside
guess i could explore
the sun sets west as i pedal on my bike
the rain falls best in a vertical line
still fallin inna hole
let's see what i find
cus i need somethin more
the sun sets west if the horizons behind
the rain falls best in a vertical line

fiending for love
don't know if i'll get
my heart is growing numb
i can never feel it
n if you are the one
doubt i would know it
cause i'm too dumb
to know what ur feelin
remember when u said u would like to see me
were u just saying that cause i took it honestly
no point in feeling bad im just happy u could see
how hard i'm boutta crash

THE THUNDER IS APPROACHING FROM MY HOME TO YOU
CAUSE EVERYTIME I DROVE BACK THE SKY WAS NEVER BLUE
AND THAT HAD TO MEAN SOMETHING BABE
CAUSE IT HAPPENED EVERYTIME I LEFT YOUR PLACE
NOW EVERYTIME IT RAINS I ALWAYS THINK OF YOU
CAUSE WE COULD BE KISSING, DANCING UNDER THE MOON
NOW I WONDER IF YOU THINK THE SAME THINGS
I DOUBT IT, PROBABLY JUST ME
SO KILL ME NOW CAUSE I KNOW I'M LOSING YOU
IT'S SO HARD TO BREATH IF WE'LL NEVER UNDO
I STILL LOVE YOU WITH EVERYTHING
IT'S BEEN A WHILE LAYING EYES ON YOUR FACE
I'M WRITING THESE SONGS N BABY THEY'RE ALL FOR YOU
HOPING THAT YOU SEE AND COME IN TO PURSUE
SO BABY TELL ME WE'RE OK
IS THIS LIFE? CAUSE I'M HOPING IT'S A PHASE

spotify

oblivious

post death

ihateshinigami - Tears Dont Fall (Bullet for My Valentine cover)

PRODUCED BY ME,  lyrics : 
stay alive baby trynna stay alive
I don't wanna tho im calling it a night
how you really  bout to leave over a fight

how you gonna feel when I just die 
ive ben hiding how im feeling now im not
fucking evil I just call this all to stop now
I just miss all of our dinners but that stops now
im gone stare down the barrel of my glock now
fuck ay im stuck ay just want to run ay I cant tho,
im fucked, im so fucked, im so done, all my fans,
claim they love me, do they really fucking love me? give me money, they give me something, is that really fucking something? I want her,
only her, almost bought this bitch a purse, I don spent up every check to make her happy not reverse
she don't care that im alone, I don't got nowhere to turn
I swear I do it to myself and I aint never fucking learn
I got glocks, I got beans, guess that's all the fuck I need,
I cry please I cry please, broke my life with fucking ease
im gon do it to myself I swear to god (repeated )
running from my problems for a bag now
stay alive trynna stay a fucking live now,
I don't wanna tho im calling it a night now
how you really bout to leave over a fight now
how you gonna feel when I just die now, yea ugh,how the fuck you feel when I just die now
ive ben hiding how im feeling now im not
fucking evil I just called it you can stop now
I just miss all of our dinners but that stops now

yea all that stops now, all that stops (repeated )
all that stops, now , now, all that stops, now, now

sad song i made when i was super depressed, its rough but the bass goes crazy i guess

Track 14 from "Digital Flowerings Vol. 5"
https://soundcloud.com/internet-hippy...

Hammy (Artist)
https://twitter.com/wakeuphammyy
https://soundcloud.com/hammy

Spacedtime (Producer)
https://twitter.com/spacedtimebeats
https://soundcloud.com/spacedtime

Internet Hippy (Channel)
https://twitter.com/InternetHippy
https://soundcloud.com/internet-hippy

Hammy - Dreams [Prod. By Spacedtime]

When I think about the past
That shit just stress me
Depress me
Make my wrist messy
Why is it so hard to be happy
I just wanna be with you baby

I just wanna ball with you baby
Glo up in the mall
With me maybe?
And I would spend it all for you
Yeah I know you know it's true

Like my jeans
Yeah they be religion
Pockets full of grams
I keep on sinning
All this pain
It's fucking never ending
I've been going through it
Need a minute
Laying in my bed
I know I'm not shit
Think about my life
I wanna off it
All these fake friends
Acting toxic
Blowing up my phone
Can you stop it?

Just stop it

And I would give my all for you
Just to stop this heart abuse

When I think about the past
That shit just stress me
Depress me
Make my wrist messy
Why is it so hard to be happy
I just wanna be with you baby

Meet me in hell
I'll be waiting
Please be here soon
Cause I'm decaying
Look you in the eyes
I start breaking
Bitch you ain't the same
You keep changing
Why you say you love me?
Know you faking
This the type of shit
That keep me isolating
Myself from everyone
I miss the days when I was young

I keep folding
Under pressure
I keep fighting
Just to feel worse
Not getting better
I hope the drugs work
They never do they just leave me
And my soul hurt

When I think about the past
That shit just stress me
Depress me
Make my wrist messy
Why is it so hard to be happy
I just wanna be with you baby
Baby
Be with you baby
Yeah

messy (prod. spacedtime)

dedicated to alexis

I’m trying to tell
The worst
When it’s set on the side
When the time
Feels so jaded and used 

When I feel it on the stride
It all Intensifies 
I’m tryna behave 
Against you

Who’d have started again 
And how do I say it’s safe 
When how you move on 
Feels like hours to me

Just you
Would stay
The way
You came
And try 
To hold 
Your own


But you won’t give on the time
And try to leave it all behind
You’re tryna call it as you wait
So the days won’t change 

When I say
That I care
I don’t know where you are
I could hope 
For the best
You could ever get

hours(prod. smitty the bg & mixed matches)

Lyrics:

I know you ain't the one
But you could be the two or three
And I don't wanna lie
And say it's only you and me
Cause I'm just not your guy
That you could go and ball for me
And I'm just not your type
You probably shouldn't fall for me

Cause I'll break your heart
I'll tear you apart
I'll cheat from the start
I'll leave when it's dark
I'll lead with a lie
I won't take your side
I'll just waste your time
I wont even try I

Resuscitate me 
Drowned in your patience
Who knew
You knew
That you'd be waiting
I tried for ages
We wouldn't make it
Giving reasons 
You just won't take them

Cause I lie everyday
What makes you think I'll change
If every single thing
I said was the truth then

I know you ain't the one
But you could be the two or three
And I don't wanna lie
And say it's only you and me
Cause I'm just not your guy
That you could go and ball for me
And I'm just not your type
You probably shouldn't fall for me

Cause I'll break your heart
I'll tear you apart
I'll cheat from the start
I'll leave when it's dark
I'll lead with a lie
I won't take your side
I'll just waste your time
I wont even try I

If you give me your heart now
I'll tear it apart now
I'll leave you in the dark now
With no time
To realize that I
If you give me your heart now
I'll tear it apart now
I'll leave you in the dark now
With no time
To realize that I

I know you ain't the one
But you could be the two or three
And I don't wanna lie
And say it's only you and me
Cause I'm just not your guy
That you could go and ball for me
And I'm just not your type
You probably shouldn't fall for me

Cause I'll break your heart
I'll tear you apart
I'll cheat from the start
I'll leave when it's dark
I'll lead with a lie
I won't take your side
I'll just waste your time
I wont even try I

Break Your Heart

Apple Music

Break Your Heart (prod. Young Taylor)

don't sit w me 

#noble6

@quali333
@chach404

meangirls (prod. quali x chach)

<3 eyes
beat by: @caps.ctrl (insta)
artwork by: @megantiax (insta)

lyrics:
i got heart eyes, 
she got cold lies,
she gonna bury me,
drunk at the cherry tree, already told guys
that she wanna die yeah, only in the night time,
told me she'll kill me only when the times right 
x2

but i dont wanna die yet, 
no, i dont wanna die yet,
ive been smokin all morning, i aint feelin high yet
spend 60 pound, pour a 4 in my sprite, but i dont wanna fly yet
too many people in this club, cant see where the line ends

cant see where the line ends,
dont agree with my mindset, 
i might chase this whiskey with a side of bleach, but i dont wanna die yet
just tryna feel some fuckin pain, and i dont wanna cry yet
stab me in the heart for the 15th time then run off hiding

thats you, my boo, why did you do this to me?
i've been screaming in my room, "why'd you do this to me?"
and then you told me that you loved me, that was news to me
but you were lying anyway, straight through your teeth

now im done, heart eyes, and you left me cold
no fun, your eyes, the stories they have told
about me crying in the freezing cold, 
the weekend passes, man im getting old
x2

heart eyes

original song: https://soundcloud.com/ihatebixby/windows

i cant feel anymore </3

i'm scared to look outside w/ bixby

thank you for everything <3
i hope you enjoy this is much as i do

lyrics:

if the sun didn't rise, i'd still be right by your side
and if you're feelin less lonely then baby i'm doin fine
if the moon never glowed, i'd still be right here to hold you
how many times have i told you, i love you, i love you

don't follow me i'm hard to read, i scare most people away from me
i hurt most people so can't you see, there's no way you're meant for me

i'm really glad i had it wrong cause, most people use me for the commas
i'm tired of the drama, i'm not one to talk no shit, i keep it honest

so to keep it 150 i'm feelin drained, 
the only reason that i sing is cause of pain,
deep inflicted traumas that been pent up in my brain, 
how i found some happiness with her i feel okay

will it last, does it matter
if I'm smiling will it keep me from disaster
destructive thoughts have had a history with patterns
all I care about is her, I'm glad I have her

if the sun didn't rise, i'd still be right by your side
and if you're feelin less lonely then baby i'm doin fine
if the moon never glowed, i'd still be right here to hold you
how many times have i told you, i love you, i love you

if the sun didn't rise, i'd still be right by your side
and if you're feelin less lonely then baby i'm doin fine
if the moon never glowed, i'd still be right here to hold you
how many times have i told you, i love you, i love you

downpour

ily (prod. lee)

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-shhh-rockband-lyrics

prod and mix by me

Shhh! (rockband)

i'll never find love

Produced by @citrusgastank

You know the feeling 
When no one can hear you 
say you but riding 
But they deceive you
Say you sorry 
but i saga continues 
See I’m Eating better still empty ever 

King Arthur was born w the sword 
I can’t feel the pain anymore 
Bank account 
Goin up like the bottle 
swallow my sorrows 
Then I hit the floor  

Like im not where I’m from 
Way I’m frozen 
wake at my death pour the don 
Fuck the roses 
Got Heart on my sleeve 
As if you haven’t noticed 
Want smoke w gorillaz
Got you paranoided 

i dont wanna feel anymore 
i have feeling this world is a whore 
mamma told me grab this bitch by the horns 
and take what you want 
then divorce her of course..

alone at last

alone at last (prod. citrusgastank)

cool video
https://youtu.be/2eD8q28Kmrg

i did not write thsi song

https://limeboiler.bandcamp.com/album/covered-up

that song we sang walking back from the park [video in description] [ ALBUM OUT ]

If I Fall (Prod. J4Y)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
can u keep a secret don't tell anyone
these butterflies around me resting on my thumb
i think they're a sign that i've made it from numb
dodging my own hatred but i fail to duck
we've tried but its so hard
i'm just another kid reaching for ur arms
like i said can we try again
i swear to u ill make it up
but this is probably the end

into light
hold my hand
for the fight
wars ahead
file line
hold the stance
here, the monsters like to dance
viruses vs pesticides
i'm hoping ill sleep through the night
hold my hand as we go high
do not look down just close your eyes

so if u keep this secret will u go n tell
cause if that's the case i'll keep it to myself
but u can tell me yours i wont tell anyone
this stays between us and no one else
i miss talking with our eyes it hurt like hell
so are u doing fine cause i'm wishing well
i have ur turtle neck but it lost your smell
i think of you too much ur killing my brain cells
when i was a child i had everyone
now i'm older and i don't feel like growing up
i've changed since i've hidden for a couple months
and they still been the same try it for yourself
the war is on its way, can u hear them run
they're raging but they laugh when the job is done
and the boy who's in his gut sobbing cus he lost
cus everything he did had no purpose and not even a cause

into light
hold my hand
for the fight
wars ahead
file line
hold the stance
here the monsters like to dance
viruses vs pesticides
i'm hoping ill sleep through the night
hold my hand as we go high
do not look down just close your eyes

the war
is done
set fire
to them all
silence
peaceful
finally
you've escaped
ur so lucky
you've run from me

the war

produced by heylog

lyrics:
i don't have anything
to offer while he sell himself
imma tie him down with rope
and somebody duct tape his mouth
god u must be tweaking
you've done nothing to deserve a crown
deep down he struggles envy
he blocks it with the words he shouts

no get back
tunnel vision getting up
i swear i'm close to cardiac
i'm already dead inside
my heart is turning jet black
you don't wanna touch it
it's contagious
permanent
once the point in love if i continue to keep breaking it
no get back
tunnel vision getting up
i swear i'm close to cardiac
i'm already dead inside
my heart is turning jet black
you don't wanna touch it
it's contagious
permanent
once the point in love if i continue to keep breaking it

now i'm growing
let the pistol talk
guarantee it'll make him frozen
i think i'm convincing myself i'm going mental
you may have me if you promise to be gentle
my heart may be dark but i promise you it's fragile
yeah i promise you it's fragile
she was saying she relates
but i don't think you do though
no i don't think you do bro
caught them both off guard
yeah i'm lurking in the shadows
finna put him on a gallow
i just opened up to her
sentimental
basic literature
uneventful
now people think they're gods writing poems
just because u take notes
don't make you a poet
if u ever need help
you know i got your back
cause i been through hell
don't want u to go through that
don't know how u felt
good or were u trashed
continue wasting herself
a girl who is down bad

no get back
tunnel vision getting up
i swear i'm close to cardiac
i'm already dead inside
my heart is turning jet black
you don't wanna touch it
its contagious
permanent
once the point in love if i continue to keep breaking it
no get back
tunnel vision getting up
i swear i'm close to cardiac
i'm already dead inside
my heart is turning jet black
you don't wanna touch it
it's contagious
permanent
once the point in love if i continue to keep breaking it

you were all i got
so sad you had to leave
i still have your stuff
but i keep it out of reach
baby it was tough
i gave u everything
don't know if it was wrong
but i don't regret a thing
i don't wanna know
how you been lately
cause i already know
you gotta new baby
didn't want u to go
sacrifice for your dreams
lost contact on my phone
u wont hear from me

(so sad u had to leave)
(i keep it out of reach)
(gave u everything)
(i don't regret a thing)
(how u been lately)
(gotta new baby)
(sacrifice for your dreams)
(u wont hear from me)

a glimpse of hope

miracle >:0