Don't let the drugs control you, control them.




[Verse 1]  
I was a house with broken windows,  
Moonlight leaking through the cracks.  
A whisper curled beneath the floorboards,  
Promised warmth I never had.  
It came dressed like velvet thunder,  
Soft and sweet, a phantom breeze—  
I opened wide the rusted doorway,  
And let it crawl inside of me.

[Pre-Chorus]  
It painted dreams on my ceiling,  
Spoke in tongues I couldn’t name.  
I danced with shadows in the hallway,  
Till I forgot my own face.

[Chorus]  
I let it in and it took over me,  
Like ivy climbing through my bones.  
It sang lullabies in poison key,  
Made my silence feel like home.  
I let it in and it took over me,  
A crown of ash, a throne of need.  
Now I’m the echo of who I used to be—  
I let it in and it took over me.

[Verse 2]  
It wore my skin like borrowed armor,  
Spoke my name in foreign tones.  
Built a chapel in my ribcage,  
Lit a fire behind my throat.  
I prayed to gods of glass and powder,  
Tasted heaven in the fall.  
But every high became a hunger,  
And every touch a deeper crawl.

[Bridge]  
I saw my soul in shattered mirrors,  
Eyes like lanterns lost at sea.  
The tide pulled hard, the stars grew dimmer—  
And still I begged it not to leave.

[Chorus]  
I let it in and it took over me,  
Like ivy climbing through my bones.  
It sang lullabies in poison key,  
Made my silence feel like home.  
I let it in and it took over me,  
A crown of ash, a throne of need.  
Now I’m the echo of who I used to be—  
I let it in and it took over me.

[Outro]  
Now I walk through haunted hallways,  
Where my laughter used to live.  
It’s quiet now, but still it lingers—  
A ghost I chose, a gift I give

I Let It In

Some people think you owe them the world.





La la lalalal
Ha ha hahaha
Ooh... oh, no.

Fuck,you did it again
You set up the scene
You made me lose it
What I've done, I didn't mean

I feel your eyes on me
I feel your presence nearing
I feel this may be it
Now it's only you I'm fearing

KILL all the lights,
drown out the sound
Don't tell me it's safe
Because I only worry now
You, hold me tight
But just so you know
If you don't want me to love you,
Then just end this shit-show!

But if there's hope for us
That misleading direction,
That fatal infection 
I'd want in on that dimension

You destroyed the script with acetone 
Lit the fuse and left me alone.  
But I still see the flicker,  
A spark in the haze—  
Could it be you  
Who reignites the blaze?

(Chorus reprise)  
KILL the fucking lights,  
drown out this awful sound.  
Don't tell me it’s safe  
All I do is worry now.  
You try to hold me tight,  
But you have to fucking know  
If you don’t want me to love you,  
Then just fucking end this shit-show!

Shit-Show

Is it really your life?




I was feeling fine, until I realized 
I am what I despised
Waking up everyday, getting high 
I wanted something different,
but was not willing to try
Like a ghost, I had lost my host 
I had nothing, but wanted the most 
living nowhere that I wanted to boast
My Mind scattered, 
but stretched coast to coast
I am the stain on my soul
I am the pain and the toll
I am the absence of what's right
I am the trouble, I am the plight
I am my struggle and my strife
I am the end of my own life
I wanted to hurt so I kept living
Chasing a high that kept me spinning
But I was tired of all the sinning
all I wanted was to disappear,
like how they did
How they stepped out of frame,
how well they hid.
They wanted my soul
and slowly it slid
into their hands
for the lowest of bids
I am the stain on my soul!
I am the pain and the toll!
I am the absence of what's right!
I am the trouble, I am the plight!
I am my struggle and my strife!
I am the end of my own life!
I am the stain on my soul!
I am the break in my stroke!
I am the essence in where I stay!
I am my struggle, I am the plight!
I am my struggle, I am my strife!
I am the end of my own life!

My Own Life

That Bitch Sexy

YOU'RE A LIAR
YOU'RE A CHEATER
YOU'RE A CREATURE
THIS AIN'T THE EXPERIENCE
I'D GET FROM A TEACHER

YOU'RE A ROT
YOU'RE A LOT
YOU'RE AN AFTER THOUGHT
YOU'RE NOT THE ONE
NO, THE FUCK YOU ARE NOT.

Your beauty, your wisdom
They are what make your prison
Your shell... Your hell...
Its not too much
when your soul
Is still for sale.

YOU'RE THE FACE
OF WHAT I WANT TO FORGET
YOU'RE THE MEMORY
OF JUST ANOTHER PAINFUL REGRET
YOU'RE A PHANTOM LIMB, B
WHY CAN'T YOU LEAVE ME?
CUT YOU OUT AND CUT YOU OFF
I WISH I WAS SMART ENOUGH TO SEE...

Your damn beauty, your silly wisdom
They are what crashed my system
Our shell... My hell...
Its not too much
when your soul
Is still for sale.

Perhaps this was quid pro quo...
I've lost it all so I don't know...
Maybe it was something
Maybe it was nothing
But everyone has agreed
I kept my faith in you
like a mustard seed



Seed

Skeptical

Surrender


[Verse 1]
Its late in the game
And I'm past the point of caring
They want me to give in
But I don't feel like sharing.

[Verse 2]
These pieces of me
I yearn to feel whole
But some pieces are missing
I think those pieces are my soul

[Prechorus]
They played me for one of the fools
But I will bend and break their rules

[Chorus]
I've been tired from the loneliness
I'm tired of looking for happiness
Days and nights spent waiting
For someone else's loving
But will that be enough?
I just want to feel love.

[Verse 3]
They've been running their mouths
Their chirping beaks only lie
But I'm drowning them out
Oh, how they laugh and try.

[Verse 4]
Hearing them talk
And none of them listening
But I dial them back
And its my fears that are glistening

[Prechorus]
They played me for one of the fools
But I will break their fucking rules

[Chorus]
I've been tired from the loneliness
I'm tired of looking for happiness
Days and nights spent waiting
For someone else's loving
But will that be enough?
I just want to feel love

[Bridge]
The passerbys the all stare at me
The don't care, but they can see
How I'm ruined, how I've changed
I am not the same
I am the one to blame

[Chorus]
I've been tired from the loneliness
I'm tired of looking for happiness
Days and nights spent waiting
For someone else's loving
But will that be enough?
I just want to feel love


Surrender

THE QUIET RUIN

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