this song means so much to me. the sample in the outro is my grandmother talking about loss and depression in the 1970's. i hope you enjoy.

lyrics: 
i feel the pam kick in
my hand itching
trigger finger and i dance wit it
my chances dim, i’m panicking
don’t glance at them
the mirror got me in a fuckin trance again

i prance around improvement 
i can’t move when the lance is in
i kinda got a fuckin ego i’m expanding it
i cant stand and shit i’m damaged goods /
i never manage shit i should 
drag myself into a pit of self loathing 
while knowing i’m not gon get better
my home is shelter, turn a note into a letter
turn the letters to a pile in the bottom of the shelf //
i got a bottle for my wellness but i bottle up emotions 
my expression blank as writers block cause i been scared to show it 
i been foldin so i couldn’t do the laundry
i wont open up but maybe when i draw me //
cause i wanna see my organs on the page
i hate the portion on the plate
abort the mission, the proportions are at stake
my self image been distorted like the bass
my weight contorted to a maze
i cant ignore it when it plays
but i got more of this to make //
shit 
anorexia a bitch
and i don’t mention it cause i been scared of judgement
takin pills to cope i been aware of nothing
wearing something wit long sleeves
so i don’t gotta focus on my torso again /
talkin to myself i do it more so wit death
i got horrible debt, i’m an adorable mess, huh
change my shirt and then i change it again
it’s stranger when i let the danger in
nobody hear the words i say 
at least they think it sounds cool
i fear there’s money on my head like crown jewels
i see horror in my house wit round pupils 
and i’m scared i’m gonna die in a car crash
i’m scared i’m gonna die in a car crash
i'm scared i'm gonna...

crash (candy cigarettes)

ANGRY NOT DEPRESSED (Prod. Julia)

Vitamins

TrapAlternativeRockSkateScreaming
Lyrics--
Invisibility
Do you know what I mean
I'm dying
and my brain is melting
You haven't seen what I've seen
Stop eying on me
Invisibility
You haven't seen what I've seen
Invisibility

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