suicidal affirmations

She Hates Me

credit to https://twitter.com/sh1nd3 for the cover art

fucked up
my life
and theres no going back

burning
all my time
and i feel so trapped

everyone hates me
feel like im going crazy
i feel stupid i fucked up theres not much else that i can do

i just dont want to feel this way
its getting worse everyday
these feelings i just cant contain 
i think that i am going insane

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

fucked up
my chances
and now theres no one left for me 

i just want
to end it
then i can finally be free

my friends and family think there is no saving me
nowhere left for me to go be better off six feet below

i just want to redeem myself
but cant admit that i need help
from everything that ive been through
i just dont know what to do

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

dejected

Woke up and i feel like shit
Theres nothing that is worth it
Woke up and wanted to die
Theres nothing i wanna try

I dont wanna do anything
I dont wanna do anything
I dont wanna do anything
I fucking hate everything

No friends yeah im all alone
Blackpilled all the way to the bone
Depressed i should kill myself
I need to escape from this hell

Nothing ever helps
I should kill myself
My mind just melts
Away

Hold a gun to your head
Cry and say your prayers
Say good to everybody even though nobody cares

Woke up and i feel like shit
Theres nothing that is worth it
Woke up and wanted to die
Theres nothing that i wanna try
 
Fucking hate my life
I really wanna die
Every single night’s
The same

Hold a gun to your head
Cry and say your prayers
Say good to everybody even though nobody cares

I don't wanna do anything

They are real cant you feel
All the evil in the air
I got pictures i got proof
Why does no one even care
Run the earth in disguise
Why cant you see through their lies

Space demons in nato led us astray
Lied to and subverted, now were enslaved
It might not have been nato, i forgot the name
Space demons in something made us all gay

Were so dumb, theres no choice
I guess well just be destroyed
In this game that they play
I feel like i am a toy
Fuck things up just for fun
Were just puppets til theyre done

Space demons in nato led us astray
Lied to and subverted, now were enslaved
It might not have been nato, i forgot the name
Space demons in something made us all gay

Blame it all on them
Theyre rent free in my head
They want us to be dead
And i dont care
Cause we deserve it all
Our conscience is so small
Theyre rightfully appalled by the human race


Space demons, i can see them
Space demons, i can see them
Space demons, i can see them
Space demons, i can see them

Space Demons in NATO

cry cuz you're so worthless
die without a purpose 
why do we do all this
well, I can't tell

Cuz I'm so bummed out
My life's not fun now
I'll just shut down
Cuz I'm so bummed out
I'm so bummed out 

Lie down forever
Try but doesn't get better 
why am I so bitter 
Well I can't tell

Bummed Out

Pop-Phlodge x Chadpilled

Lyrics:
It's been a bummer for a while
I hardly ever smile
why does living feel so vile
cold heart like a reptile
and I got this dry ass phone
no text, no one, no hoes
wish I'd crash out on the road
and rot and die alone

oh god why
must I wake
feel pissed off
everyday
peoples nose I wanna break
wish they'd all just go away

you keep blowing up my phone
with pics of you giving dome
so I'll take the benz out to the road
crash into the lake
and drown there cold
as the water feels my lungs
I'll feel the bliss of a 1000 suns
just how the schizos speak in tongues
cause ill know my shitty life is done

oh god why
must I wake
feel pissed off
everyday
peoples nose I wanna break
wish they'd all just go away

I'm killing myself tonight I'll be dead by morning
and all of this fucking time I was shouting out warnings
I was crying for help from you guys and you fucking ignored me
so I'm killing myself tonight that's the end of the story

oh god why
must I wake
feel pissed off
everyday
peoples nose I wanna break
wish they'd all just go away

Oh God Why (Feat. Cameron Phlodge & Chadpilled)

letting despair fill my body
Everybody hates me 
Because im so ugly 

Dont look at me 
Im fucking ugly 
So embarrassing 
Don't want you to see

Failing to spread on my shit genes
Nobody will know me
Because I'm so ugly

Ugly

why did he leave us… 

lyrics:

Sent a Garfield pic to you
You're so fucking cool
You never opened it
And it just makes me sick

I know I'm the one you need
I'll make you complete
You're the one I want
Just go to the [?]

It's all fucked
Never know why
But Dasha's cute
I wanna have her in my life

And it's all fucked
'Cause Dasha's a bitch
I sent you stuff but you
Won't fucking open it... it... it

I saw that you're into [?]
I think that's pretty neat
Yeah, I like it too
Not as much as you

And I know that you like chess
I bet that you're the best
And I'm real good as well
Without you, life is hell

It's all fucked
I never know why
But Dasha's cute
I wanna have her in my life

And it's all fucked
'Cause Dasha's a bitch
I sent you stuff but you
Won't fucking open it... it... it

Sometimes I just feel alone
Like no one out there understands me
I think that you'd be the one
To make me feel like I'm [?]

Stuck on you
Stuck on you
Stuck on you
Stuck on you

It's all fucked
I never know why
But Dasha's cute
I wanna have her in my life

And it's all fucked
'Cause Dasha's a bitch
I sent you stuff but you
Won't fucking open it... it

Dasha - Fried by Fluoride

Where I got it from https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ujZJzua1eFc

Scars

Credit to @𓃬 for saving this song.

This was not on Penguinband's Soundcloud at the time he deleted it.

This Is It - Penguinband

it wont leave my head

You can call me incel you can call me a freak
i dont fuckin care it means nothing to me
you can call me a nazi you can call me a virgin
but i dont fucking care bc you are fucking worthless

youre a fucking normie
youre so god damn boring
youre a whiny bitch who loves censorship
youre a stupid fuckin normie and u shouldve been aborted
you dont desrve to live you fucking stupid normie bitch

you obsess over dumb shit and you post a lot memes
 you dont know how to be sincere
u speak in irony
would u cut the bullshit i am sick of hearing u
would u stfu normie or ill fucking slaughter u

youre a fucking normie
youre so god damn boring
youre a whiny bitch who loves censorship
youre a stupid fuckin normie and u shouldve been aborted
you dont desrve to live you fucking stupid normie bitch

Die Normie Scum

im never speaking again
too much dumb shit that ive said
so much dumb shit in my head
i would be better off dead
i would be better off gone
i am a fucking retard
i fuck everything up
i make my life so hard

spaz attack, i didnt mean to say that
spaz attack, so many things i cant take back

im never making new friends
my life has come to an end
people think i am a sped
why am i so retarded
just put me in the grave
i dont know how to behave
i cant communicate
i am a fucking dumbass

spaz attack, i didnt mean to say that
spaz attack, so many things i cant take back

spaz attack spaz attack
didnt mean to fucking say that
spaz attack spaz attack
too many things that i cant take back

Spaz Attack

Im so afraid to speak, im scared of everything
everyones watching me, they know that im a freak
im staring at the floor, what am i living for?
i want to be normal, why cant i be normal?

too neurotic, stand and stare im catatonic
too neurotic, always feeling so self conscious

im staying home again, i dont have any friends
afraid of what they'll think, i shrivel up and shrink
they know im low iq, they know i failed at school
i am a fucking joke, why am i such a joke?

too neurotic, stand and stare im catatonic
too neurotic, always feeling so self conscious

Too Neurotic

Practicing self destruction
I can barely function
I fucked my whole life up
I think that my times up
Theres no coming back now
Everyone is sad now, sad now

Times up i know that my life sucks
Nothing worth saving I am barely living
Waging and praying just to end it
You wish i was dead now dead now

Ill be dead by 30
Im crashing and burning
Wasting my time because it is all worthless, worthless
Ill be fucking dead by 30, 30

Useless this why I choose this
Maybe im just stupid dumb and clueless
Houston can you read me can you even hear me
Do you even need me Need me

Chemicals in my brain
I am not the same
I watched too much youtube
I ate too much junkfood
Had too many vaccines
Now something is wrong me, wrong with me

Ill be dead by 30
Im crashing and burning
Wasting my time because it is all worthless, worthless
Ill be fucking dead by 30, 30

Dead by 30
Dead by 30
Dead by 30
Im crashing and burning
Dead by 30
Dead by 30
Dead by 30
Lifes fucking worthless

I don't wanna do anything

Fried By Fluoride

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