Something really short 

Wouldn’t you say 
Im losing my mind
Im losing my time ?

wouldn’t yousay (interlude)

Everyday is the same 
Trying to erase all the pain 
With the pills and bottles 
And the blade to my skin 
Replace all the a’s 
With all the lies 
can I ever get better 
I’m poring my heart out 
No one will listen  
My bodys a canvass and this my art 
I’m crying for help 
This is my story for the way that it ends 

I’m drowning my days 
I’m watching the moon 
The way that it glows
The way that I should 

I’m drowning my days 
I’m watching the moon 
The way that it glows
The way that I should 

laying in my bed staring at my ceiling 
stars align I’m not fine 
Another Constellation in a form of desperation 
No more chasing I’m done Wasting time

long days (prod poppa)

That wasn’t love

lyrics
Yeah yeah 
I’m tired of giving my all 
I’ll never be love as much as I love
I will never be enough for someone to care 
For someone stay 
My biggest regret is letting you in 
And I know it’s my fault for forgiving you again again again 
I was breaking my own heart 
I’m slave to my  weakness 
I’m not losing interest 
I still wanna die there’s no escaping this pain and denying the truth 
And I’m holding my breathe 
Afraid to let go 

They say nothing last forever but that feeling last forever
stuck in this weather 
It has to get better 
Yeah 
It has to get better 2x
But the rain keeps falling
I have to forget her 
I have to forget her 
I have to forget her 
Yeah

River (prod vsvprhymz)

Do I run
Do I Runaway 
Away and not look back?
Can we try 
Can we try again ?
Is this love for me?
I’m scared to let go 
To let go of you 
Where are you 
Where are you 
Where are you
I need you 
Where are you 
I need you
Where are you
I need you 
Where are you 
I need you 
Where are you 
I need you 
Where are you 
I need you

where areyou?

levitated while i'm medicated self (hated)
fucking frustrated roll a blunt
shackles on my wrist 
as i bleed 
self inflicted i'm not free (set me free)
how many more battles can i take 
to see the end 
close my eyes take a deep breath try to comprehend 
every second i’m awake 
i’m closer to suicide 
 like some pesticide 

 like some pesticide 
like some pesticide yuh yuh 

lost inside my head 
wishing i was dead 

I’m a dead man walking on a Monday on a Tuesday on a Wednesday then I end it 
Hope you like it 
Switch blade in my pocket 
Keep my heart and  lock it 
I don’t need it where I’m going 

Passed out on the floor woke up on a Thursday 
I’m so fucking thirsty 
Pill bottles on the floor
My head is spinning 

I’m leaning 
I can’t walk
Am I dreaming ?  

Did she really leave me ?

i hate this place (prod suzukki)

7 pills in and my body is still kicking i play i spy all alone i spy the blade at the end of my bed how many more days can i take of this pain from a failed attempt yuh yuh yuh

it’s been a damm year nothing really changed i fell to my knees from the sight of my hell 

even made some friends at the bottom of the well somehow i still feel alone 
still feel alone in a room full of people  
everyone’s happy and i’m stuck in the past 
Regretting every decision i made 
i don’t know how to move on

C$



wake up in bottomless pit
Wake up n I’m feeling so sick
walk down and I can’t even see
loosing everything that I weep 4x 

yuh 

I don’t know what to do
I don’t got any clue
looking to the sky
thru the fucking stars 
in the light
I don’t know what to do

wake up w/ CHINO$TASH (prod opvl hills)

i fucking hate myself x3
when i look in the mirror 
i fucking hate myself 
i’m such a piece of shit 
i haven’t been happy 
ive been losing myself 
digging a deeper hole that i’ve tried so hard to climb out of 
is this my reality 

you love it when i bleed you can see it through the sheets

ihatemyself *demo(prod YUNGMEXIC$NBIH x SUZUKKI)

🌙 i been losing creativity 
don’t know what she sees in me 
tell myself i’m not enough 

a goddess sent from heaven 
triple seven on my wrist 
im such a piss
i reminisce 
it’s such a bliss 

and than  i’m thrown into to abyss 


to my surprise my soul divide 
i’m fucking sleep deprived 
insist to fix this mess of mine to find my mind 
i got no time 

so set my soul ablaze to create this sort of haze 
wrapped my heart in chains
you think i’m making my way to those pearly white gates 
after all these failed attempts ?

Im waste of space 
Hollowed out face 
a fucking disgrace 
I ain’t going to heaven 
I’m going to hell 

I know my worth and it ain’t worth shit 
fuck



SilentHaven 

if i could take a minute through to hell 
i’d rather fall asleep than cry 
cause every time i ran away from my pain , my family said that i should die 
oh my god why do i stay alive ? 
if everybody telling me that i should fucking die 


“ oh “ oh no i won’t , i bled to long now my feelings gone . 
i can’t erase , so i’ll drown my trace 
running from my past hoping i can escape 


i know i’m worth nothing so why do they care ? 
been ready for death not a ounce of despair 
seen them die , tell their stories till i disappear ( please don’t leave me alone )

till my bones decay , barely choose to live have nothing else to say 
i don’t wanna stay 
rarely leave my room , i wanna runaway
( oh my god )

i know i’m worth nothing 
my life is a hell 
spoke of mourning put my head in a cell  
so when you find me with a noose around my neck 
you’ll know that i finally failed 

i’m sorry i caved , i felt like a burden 
you left me uncertain with blood on my curtain 
i found the bullets that you left 
i’ll put them deep into my chest 
please just give me time to rest 
i have no one fucking left , why ? 
( i can’t let go )


3 of 3 grew up since we were kids 
took their life in front of me 
they thought it was nothing , but oh my god have i died so many times

worth /w SilentHaven(prod YUNGMEXIC$NBIH)

life isn’t fair we just live to die 
but what if we regret everything that we did 
like you didn’t live enough didn’t leave an imprint on the ones you love yuh yuh yuh 
drugs in my system passed out till noon  (what’s new) same day same pain
wwhat the fuck what the fuck 
i’m running laps inside my head i’m not wining this race not leaving a single trace 
overflowed with emotions 
is this set in motion they told me i have to bloom into something new yuh 
not stay inside my room 
but i’m just building my own tomb you can smell the fumes on my hands i’m burning this shit down with me in it 
i don’t care anymore

LISTEN W/ CHINO$TASH (prod nekogod)

Woke up to the same old gray Another day I can’t escape Chasing dreams I’ll never find Empty hearts that don’t align
 I’m just a shadow in the dark A broken soul 
a fading spark 
drowning in this empty sea A prisoner of misery
 No light to guide me through the night No hope to make it feel alright I’ve given up on all my dreams 'Cause love and joy aren’t what they seem 
lost in silence 
lost in time A heart that’s numb 
a soul that’s blind
a soul that’s blind

gray (prod dreamsyxx)

nierremdy made the this beautiful ass beat 

🌙 This void in my heart is weighing me the down the emptiness of not having a home a person to run too
something is missing i know it is 
Love me or hate me
 I cannot feel 
A poisonous mind 
From the pills that I take 
You do not want me 
You tried to replace me
 I was alone 
I took comfort in silence
Trapped in the darkness 
My body is numb 
Blood on my wrist (from the initials I gave )
And a curse on my lips
From the kiss that you gave 
I’ll rot in my grave while you dance with your friends
You told me you loved me was that even true 
You told me to change 
And you needed the change 
Scared to let go 
But I need to move on 

I was never enough enough 


NieRRemedy : She cursed me, with her lips. She told me something I’ll never forget. I’m using hollow parts not hollow tips, running around I got fooled like a bitch. May death, Find the niggas who switched up. I am a sinner, son of a demon. Plagues catching me through all of the seasons. Told you, give me your strength. You never did it. Stuck in place. Nothing is moving. Look at her face, she knew what she was doing. I’ll dig in your chest if I have to. You give him sex, He needs it. Home come to wreck. You feed it. Wasn’t a threat I showed you. (Hope your words they haunt you x2)

ambivalence w/ NieRRemedy

my skin starts to rust as i wait in the rain 
i’m stuck inside this loop that i created 
i feel comfort in this pain you created 

i still fucking hate this place 
i’m losing faith in myself 


feeling homesick for a time  
that i tried to erase from my mind 
making a mess over things i can’t change 
im not surprised
 i keep doing this shit 
and expect it to end 
life’s a bitch  
 
so put me out my misery 
living day to day ain’t for me 
fuck

i am decaying 
delaying the truth from myself 
i’ll never be able to grow
if i can’t embrace the past 
this shit won’t last 
you’ll hate yourself more 
as time goes on 
remember what my  friend said 
time heals all wounds 
but my wounds won’t heal 
if i’m picking the scab 
and watching it bleed 

i’m picking the scab 
and watching it bleed 
my wounds won’t heal

Homesick (prod dash)

Summer days are lonely ones
Slitting my wrist until the sun comes up
I really don't give fuck no more
This razor blade is so fucking dull
Overthinking killing my happiness
I'm Tired of living
I'm Tired of loving 
This pain in chest
Is weighing me down
Is it just me is it getting harder to breathe 

harder to breathe

harder to breathe

harder to breathe

harder to breathe

Slitting my wrist in the ocean
My body is motionless 
Sick of this nonsense 
The scars on my body I’m losing this battle 
Losing this battle 
I’m not worth saving 
Sip on this potion to hide my emotion 
I’am not chosen

DEAAAD

catalyst

it's alwavs raining never sunny sit inside with this pain another day takes me back to may when i start to feel like shit is this real what's the deal see you calling what's the point i need to heal 
i need to heal 
all that time wasted going back and forth 
i lost my mind i lost myself
 you burned a hole inside my soul 
i begged for effort
 you never gave and now you’re reaching out like shit ain’t happened?
 like you didn’t leave me drowning in the mess you helped create? 

 I spent so much nights wondering why I wasn’t enough

i fucking hate you 
for the pain you cause 
the lack of love 
the lack of trust 

you tore me down
left my heart to rot  that can’t be love 

that can’t be love 

that can’t be love 

you tore me down 
left my heart to rot 
that can’t be love love

🌙

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