till my bones decay, barely chose to live, got nothing else to say 🖤

levitated while i'm medicated self (hated)
fucking frustrated roll a blunt
shackles on my wrist 
as i bleed 
self inflicted i'm not free (set me free)
how many more battles can i take 
to see the end 
close my eyes take a deep breath try to comprehend 
every second i’m awake 
i’m closer to suicide 
 like some pesticide 

 like some pesticide 
like some pesticide yuh yuh 

lost inside my head 
wishing i was dead 

I’m a dead man walking on a Monday on a Tuesday on a Wednesday then I end it 
Hope you like it 
Switch blade in my pocket 
Keep my heart and  lock it 
I don’t need it where I’m going 

Passed out on the floor woke up on a Thursday 
I’m so fucking thirsty 
Pill bottles on the floor
My head is spinning 

I’m leaning 
I can’t walk
Am I dreaming ?  

Did she really leave me ?

i hate this place (prod suzukki)

7 pills in and my body is still kicking i play i spy all alone i spy the blade at the end of my bed how many more days can i take of this pain from a failed attempt yuh yuh yuh

it’s been a damm year nothing really changed i fell to my knees from the sight of my hell 

even made some friends at the bottom of the well somehow i still feel alone 
still feel alone in a room full of people  
everyone’s happy and i’m stuck in the past 
Regretting every decision i made 
i don’t know how to move on

C$



wake up in bottomless pit
Wake up n I’m feeling so sick
walk down and I can’t even see
loosing everything that I weep 4x 

yuh 

I don’t know what to do
I don’t got any clue
looking to the sky
thru the fucking stars 
in the light
I don’t know what to do

wake up w/ CHINO$TASH (prod opvl hills)

old song reuploaded bc i like it. 
(Prod. ???)

God You’re So Pretty

(PROD. ORCHEED) 
LYRICS:pray to your god when you feel disturbed. Grin on your face when you do the dirty. 
Cover your actions they more than cloudy, cover your actions they. 
I can’t explain to you, I can’t explain to them, I can’t explain to her. 
I felt the pain endure, I felt the pain endure, I felt the pain endure.

I don’t feel the best but I’m here now. 
Hollow no emotion how I’m feeling. 
Pray someone here don’t resent me. 
I will fade until I’m nothing but a memory.

pray to your god when you feel disturbed. Grin on your face when you do the dirty. 
Cover your actions they more than cloudy, cover your actions they. 
I can’t explain to you, I can’t explain to them, I can’t explain to her. 
I felt the pain endure, I felt the pain endure, I felt the pain endure.

Save me once more.

NEVER SAD JUST NEVER HAPPY.

iris.

I’m back.

Thank You Sora, For Inspiring me to create this gem

LYRICS
It seems like
Everytime
I close my eyes
Beautified
And I tried
To run away
To numb the pain, To numb the pain
Oh It feels like I
don’t belong, Don’t belong
Oh It feels Like I
Don’t belong, Don’t belong
Don’t Belong Here with you

Interlude…

Who Do I trust when
It’s all uncertain that i’ll be here
and I know I’m just a burden to you
You

And Oh it feels like I 
Don’t belong, Don’t belong

Burden.

prod.miercoles

lyrics:

The silent screams
They’re yelling at me
They tell me to leave
Please
Dont talk to me mean

Im glad I made it home
It felt like Im stuck here waiting for something on my own
Now Its been a couple hours and im stuck here a-lone
Lone
Im all alone
Im all alone
Im all on my
Own
Own
Im all alone
Im all alone
Im here all a-

old picture - my safe isolation

it’ll kill you if you let it

Prod. Death.wav
very oldschool style beat and song

- Lyrics -

Don’t think about what I’ve done
Just think about what you do
Everyone that you’ve screwed
And everyone that has the proof
Tell everyone the fucking truth
Tell them how I’m done with you
Tell them it’s the end
No more no more no more

Verse 1 under the first sun, the cursed one
The hearse runs bring me to my grave, I birthed them
Reimburse them, that’s reparations for how you procured them
The black skin from melanin we got from your sun
God’s radiance shines like a photoshop gradient
The radius of influence is bigger than multiple stadiums
And still you break my heart, like I was shot within the dark
Yeah I harp on some the little things because it all just played it’s part
But you first captured me, like Cupid does with a dart
The silent assassin, that no one has heard
It’s absurd, the love of my life you come in third
Overheard whatever you say, roar loud like the thunderbird
But every word that I ever said about her
Was always of her beauty intensity, she’d hear it afterword
After words were said, we would love which led us to fuck
I can’t say I did enough, but I tried, is that worth sumn?

Don’t think about what I’ve done
Just think about what you do
Everyone that you’ve screwed
And everyone that has the proof
Tell everyone the fucking truth
Tell them how I’m done with you
Tell them it’s the end
No more no more no more

My painful love has been rectified
Sanctify, as I try, I watch, I feel sacrificed
It kills like cyanide, you’re deified to me
It seems you don’t share the dream to be
Within my arms under our sweet release to keep our peace forever longing for us to be
I plea for thee release, I hope thy agree
I plea for thee release, I hope thy agree
I hope to spread your legs like the Red Sea
That’s my sort of pedigree, check out my new degree
You’re an inductee to my hall of fame, an honoree
Honestly, you are everything, my soul to me
You are perfectly as sold to me
I would hope that you grow old with me
Beauty as I behold in thee
Like I was god I just molded thee
What you disclose with he
Nothing that you’ve shown to me
I don’t mean to impose, my nose is too long, as it always grows, but I must see if you are opposed to marry me

Don’t run away from love
You gave me sugar plum
Forever I’m with them
You hurt me and my soul

Within the dream, or within the seams
It’s too extreme, it seems you don’t have no respect for me
You laugh at my pain, what is there to gain from the slaughter?
I always thought your skin gleamed, you were forever my esteemed
But there’s no respect to be seen for me
I deem thee a charlatan, a harlot, and a slut
I don’t think I can love again, you broke me, I’m in rust
It’s a visual facade, a fad, you distract me with your butt
I feel stupid as stupid can be, I’m a dog but I’m a mutt
In this world given life, I was released then I was cut
Love is just a game, but with nothing to gain
I never will believe again, I can’t go out without this 40 I been spraying
These thoughts, always racking in my brain
Did she really love me, or was that just one of her few sayings
I’m praying to Allah to save me, I’m down bad, with hatred
My heart has been broken, I’m hoping it’s not cut open
I’m hopeless, wandering this abyss that I’m choking

Don’t think about what I’ve done
Just think about what you do
Everyone that you’ve screwed
And everyone that has the proof
Tell everyone the fucking truth
Tell them how I’m done with you
Tell them it’s the end
No more no more no more

I rap this for practice, this not no rap diss
It’s pain, it’s art, its all this
It’s all one
It’s all done
Because you left and I haven’t seen you since
I’m the lonely prince
No way to convince, you, that you should stay because you are my glue
Come back to me, or don’t
I do care, there’s pudding in the proof
It’s the truth, even though it never seems like
It never seems right
It’s just the thing right
Love is my blight

no more no more no more

🌙 i been losing creativity 
don’t know what she sees in me 
tell myself i’m not enough 

a goddess sent from heaven 
triple seven on my wrist 
im such a piss
i reminisce 
it’s such a bliss 

and than  i’m thrown into to abyss 


to my surprise my soul divide 
i’m fucking sleep deprived 
insist to fix this mess of mine to find my mind 
i got no time 

so set my soul ablaze to create this sort of haze 
wrapped my heart in chains
you think i’m making my way to those pearly white gates 
after all these failed attempts ?

Im waste of space 
Hollowed out face 
a fucking disgrace 
I ain’t going to heaven 
I’m going to hell 

I know my worth and it ain’t worth shit 
fuck



SilentHaven 

if i could take a minute through to hell 
i’d rather fall asleep than cry 
cause every time i ran away from my pain , my family said that i should die 
oh my god why do i stay alive ? 
if everybody telling me that i should fucking die 


“ oh “ oh no i won’t , i bled to long now my feelings gone . 
i can’t erase , so i’ll drown my trace 
running from my past hoping i can escape 


i know i’m worth nothing so why do they care ? 
been ready for death not a ounce of despair 
seen them die , tell their stories till i disappear ( please don’t leave me alone )

till my bones decay , barely choose to live have nothing else to say 
i don’t wanna stay 
rarely leave my room , i wanna runaway
( oh my god )

i know i’m worth nothing 
my life is a hell 
spoke of mourning put my head in a cell  
so when you find me with a noose around my neck 
you’ll know that i finally failed 

i’m sorry i caved , i felt like a burden 
you left me uncertain with blood on my curtain 
i found the bullets that you left 
i’ll put them deep into my chest 
please just give me time to rest 
i have no one fucking left , why ? 
( i can’t let go )


3 of 3 grew up since we were kids 
took their life in front of me 
they thought it was nothing , but oh my god have i died so many times

worth /w SilentHaven(prod YUNGMEXIC$NBIH)

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