Lyrics:

I never remember the days
blended together, my pains
Never been mended, The same
Fuckin repetitive phase
wonder how much I can take
Wanna examine my pain
Look at them setting the stage
Cameras and compliments, fake.
All of my friends had been made tough,
Yet I just saw them all crumble and break
In an invisible maze, 
Bullets and mines in our face, fuck
Wanna go home from the war,
but the war is over, I'm still in a cage

Mind lost in the Shell shock,
Red dots, turn to holes, turn to blood gust,
6 days, no sleep, Hostile thoughts.
Mind lost in the Shell shock,
No sleep till the bombs and the guns stop
forgot whats the goal, what's my soul cost?
6 months in the war made my hope rust.
Mind lost in the Shell shock
We just some kids, they set us up 
No future that they promised us
6 years and it stops for the lucky ones

Only doin what my leader wants
Only doin what the devil wants
Only doin what my leader wants
Only doin what the devil wants

Pawn of war, don't worry bout the trauma
Keep the score goin till your shifts over,
Pray to your God life goes back to normal but
When you get home still feel like a soldier.
Nowhere feels like home anymore
When you still feel like you're runnin from everything you saw
Blood, gore, dead friends, faces everywhere you go,
Blood hands, your soul won't forgive when its sold

Mind lost in the Shell shock,
Red dots, turn to holes, turn to blood gust,
6 days, no sleep, Hostile thoughts.
Mind lost in the Shell shock,
No sleep till the bombs and the guns stop
forgot whats the goal, what's my soul cost?
6 months in the war made my hope rust.
Mind lost in the Shell shock
We just some kids, they set us up 
No future that they promised us
6 years and it stops for the lucky ones

Only doin what my leader wants
Only doin what the devil wants
Only doin what my leader wants
Only doin what the devil wants

War came with me to the ward
Hear the screaming down the hall
Bullet holes won't heal
I can still feel em all
Heaven cannot hear me
Hell I'm livin: inescapable
I can't Trust these faces anymore
No rest left from these shakes
Till I hit the floor
No medication can make me normal again
Can't break fight or flight, keep a knife by my bed,
I'll brace for life every night till I'm dead
 
I Only did what my leader wanted 
I Only did what the devil wanted 
I Only did what my leader wanted 
I Only did what the devil wanted 
I Only did what my leader wanted 
I Only did what the devil wanted 
I Only did what my leader wanted 
I Only did what the devil wanted

Shell Shock

I make music on all platforms under the name GoodSleeper

Loyal member of
"WatchThemDemons"
&
"The Blank Space Mafia"

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