Eigenlijk

Trots

The bottled spirit of a harvest-time jam session in a hay barn

'Til The Cock Crows

Lyda Var Gud

double time

I Need You Honey

Life Changes

Life Changes : BG MCDAID

La calle del agua

Time

The Girl I Fell Into

I made this song for my childhood friend whom I treat as my sister. I wrote this in the POV of his husband for although I would never describe how much he loves her.

I recorded this in a place where I am supposed to be quiet. I will record again once I got my own place.

MAYUMI
Lyrics By: Princess Anjelyn Isla

[Verse 1]
Itim at puti sa aking buhay
Ikaw ang nagbigay ng kulay
Mahinhin sa iyong mga salita
Ikaw ang aking pag-asa

[Verse 2]
Sa bawat ngiti mo may ligaya
Sa bawat kanta mo may mahika
Ganda mo'y di kayang ipinta
Sa puso ko ikaw ang tanging sinta

[Chorus]
Mahinhin at mayumi
Sa'yo ako'y nahuli
Haplos ng iyong pag-ibig
Kaligayahan ko'y walang patid

[Verse 3]
Sa gabi't araw iniisip kita
Pilit kang abutin sa mga bituin
Ikaw ang aking pangarap
Ang tanging hiling ko'y ikaw

[Chorus]
Mahinhin at mayumi
Sa'yo ako'y nahuli
Haplos ng iyong pag-ibig
Kaligayahan ko'y walang patid

[Bridge]
Oh kay ganda ng ating mundo
Lahat naging makulay dahil sa'yo
Ang puso ko'y laging masaya
Ikaw ang aking tadhana

[Chorus]
Mahinhin at mayumi
Sa'yo ako'y nahuli
Haplos ng iyong pag-ibig
Kaligayahan ko'y walang patid

[Chorus]
Mahinhin at mayumi
Sa'yo ako'y nahuli
Haplos ng iyong pag-ibig
Kaligayahan ko'y walang patid

[Outro]
Itim at puti'y naging maliwanag
Sa 'yo ang lahat ay payapa

Mayumi - Princess Anjelyn (Original)

the german word for despair is ‚verzweiflung‘ which has the word ‘zweifel’ (=doubt) at its core. this means that despair literally translates as ‘lost/entangled/caught up in doubts.’

etymologically, this can be explained by the loss of hope for improvement, i.e., doubt that something bad could turn out well in the foreseeable future.

one could philosophize at length about doubts. I guess this has already been done in heaps. especially since, beyond the torment of perceived hopelessness, doubts also have absolutely positive aspects. they are an essential part of intelligence and wisdom. just as their absence clearly indicates stupidity and arrogance (#dunning-kruger). so being smart always means agonizing over the question of whether you are actually smart.

apropos agonizing, a relatively tolerable form of despair undoubtedly goes hand in hand with the conflict between the desire for individual freedom and interpersonal bonds. can I translate that as the “have-your-cake-and-eat-it-too-dilemma”?

fortunately, I/we personally never had a problem with this, because I/we never experienced or felt our relationship as conflict of freedom and commitment. however, looking at the course of relationships in our son's generation, I get the feeling that there is a lot of turmoil at work. relationship stress and divorces all over the place. that fits with my album topic! 

here’s a song I wrote about 20 years ago with just the first line of the chorus and later released as a semi-instrumental on sc ages ago. now lyrics have been added (translation hopefully not too wordily phrased) – and with them vocals based on my guitar templates, where suno once again acted extremely annoying. the machine repeatedly tends to slip into hackneyed vocal patterns and that means having to start completely from scratch…

©music and lyrics by Hans-Michael Albers, instrumental cover & vocal performance by suno 5

I reach for your arms, but I dream of the sky
I ache for your touch, yet I can’t comply
You whisper ‘home,’ and I drift away
Each time I linger, I lose my way

My heart’s confined while my thoughts run free 
Two fractured souls coexist in me
One craves the flame, one longs for the breeze 
I’m love’s own patient, undone by its disease

As much I love you, I feel the blues
The more I hold you, the more I lose

It’s a holy war, a graceful crime
To beg for forever yet plead for time 
You’re my redemption, my sweet undoing 
Every path I take leads back to you

There’s no victory in a game like this
Where freedom and love can’t coexist 
To live is to lose, to stay is to die 
So, I fade to ash beneath your sky

As much I love you, I feel the blues
The more I hold you, the more I lose
As deep I feel you, I lose my ground
As near I find you, you can’t be found

As long I chase you, the more I fade
As much I trust you, the more I’m afraid
As much I need you, I pay the dues
As much I love you, I feel the blues

As much I love you