nose bleeds heart aches

Produced by Rosesleeves

Lyrics-
You called me last night I didn’t answer as usual
I’ve been up I’ve been down it’s just like usual
For a few days I’m feeling a good seven out of ten
Cause I ignored school now my grades falling down the alphabet
Tryna be consistant with everything at once
But when I do something good I mess something else up
Only got a year left waiting for everything to change
But a year feels like forever when everything feels the same

It’s always so dark (everything feels the same)
I messed it all up (it feels the same)
It’s always so dark I messed it all up I messed it all up (everything feels the same)
It’s always so dark (It’s always so dark)
I messed it all up (I messed it all up)
It’s always so dark I messed it all up I messed it all up 

Pack up my things and put my effort where it’s better placed
I’m never content I always wish I had a better face
Wish I had some better friends
One day imma move away and I won’t be the quiet one
Why am I so paranoid
Feel like they watching me
But at the same time
I want the world to see
I’m so much more than this
I’m using what I have
I’m doing what I can but I can build much better things

And it’s always so dark, it’s always so dark, it’s always so dark
I messed it all up, I messed it all up, I messed it all up, I messed it all up
It’s always so dark, it’s always so dark, it’s always so dark, it’s always so dark
Yeah I messed it all up, I messed it all up, I messed it all up, I messed it all up

You called me last night I didn’t answer as usual
I’ve been up I’ve been down it’s just like usual
For a few days I’m feeling a good seven out of ten
Cause I ignored school now my grades falling down the alphabet
Tryna be consistant with everything at once
But when I do something good I mess something else up
Only got a year left waiting for everything to change
But a year feels like forever when everything feels the same

It’s always so dark (everything feels the same)
I messed it all up (it feels the same)
It’s always so dark I messed it all up I messed it all up (everything feels the same)
It’s always so dark (It’s always so dark)
I messed it all up (I messed it all up)
It’s always so dark I messed it all up I messed it all up

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Alphabet

bridge

i hate your poetry and you hate when i sing
some say we make a good team
at the end of the day you could do what you want to
i'll never question a thing
and i get so nervous legs start shaking
but im pretty sure you know
we don't have much time 
so make up your mind
and tell me where you want to go
before i take you home

maybe i was too optimistic if you want i'll take the blame
i just can't help but reminisce it cause i how these things change
i miss the way that you talk
the hop in your walk 
your eyes and that stupid grin
the way you said its okay i trusted you dang, oh why did i let you in
i should've known better wrote letters made things feel complete
instead i just let her, just let her slip away from me

i hate your poetry and you hate when i sing
some say we make a good team
at the end of the day you could do what you want to
i'll never question a thing
and i get so nervous legs start shaking
but im pretty sure you know
we don't have much time 
so make up your mind
and tell me where you want to go
before i take you home

now it's just me 
reminiscing eighteen
memories can't save me
but i keep looking back
now it's just me 
thinking bout what could be
memories can't save me
but i keep looking back
i keep looking back

cause i hate your poetry and you hate when i sing
some said we made a good team
at the end of the day i just did what i wanted
you'd never question a thing
and i got so lazy things got crazy 
but you probably wouldn't know 
well we had our time
you made up your mind
so i guess it's time to let you go
ok, i'll let you go

let you go

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ash & snow

there i am hanging on
nobody taught me to manage
so i clench my fist, bite my tongue,
scream out my fucking lungs
i try my best, being candid

my head is messy my bed is sweaty
it's been three weeks since i've seen daylight
doctors buried our love alive
wrestle these thots like every night
panic hits me im always stressin
without you here im a mess at best and
dont wanna end up another lesson
i do what i do to keep it steppin

there i am hanging on
nobody taught me to manage
so i grit my teeth, bite my tongue,
scream out my fucking lungs
i try my best, being candid

she was the prettiest thing that i've seen in a while
with a whole lotta mean and a whole lotta wild
helped me get up on my feet
yea she changed my life
never thought shed have to leave
man this shits not right
and i miss her on the daily
i think about her when i wish someone would save me
i dream about her when i wake it leaves me aching
i really hope the angels take care of my baby

there i am hanging on
nobody taught me to manage
so i grit my teeth, bite my tongue,
scream out my fucking lungs
i try my best, being candid

Candid (prod. acey)

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Album «Melancholia»

All tracks Produced by runawway (co-prod c1ndy k1d — «funeral 4 us» and «cure 4 her»)
Mixed/Mastered by 44neverluv

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I’m choking on my envy just put me down gently
Estranged and on the verge emotions starting to tempt me
This carcass made of spoils the spindles and coils
Inoculated antidotes were nothing but loyal

What’s it like with the grief and the realization
They tell me to wait but I’ve been real patient
The fact of the matter is I might not make it
My chance too slim and that’s why I don’t say shit
I don’t need placement if I’m on a list
Turn away the curation so-called journalist
Made the sessions don’t believe that I’ll be needing any therapist
In spite of their advice I’ve still been learning how to bear with it
Oh and for the record do prepare
All the omens I’ve been making treat em like a new despair
With the writing on the wall I laid a clue and where’d I mark it
The furnace outta service it’s too cold in this apartment
Still I’ve been deterred unproductive
Patterns alternated what’s familiar is disrupted
Passage of acts and that’s where we diverged
Took the capsule it swelled right before it submerged

I’m choking on my envy just put me down gently
Estranged and on the verge emotions starting to tempt me
This carcass made of spoils the spindles and coils
Inoculated antidotes were nothing but loyal

What’s it like with the loss and the chills how it aches
How we used to drive down to the edge of the lake
With the cascading current to carry the skepticism
Said the limited minutes you got you wanna spend it with em
Understandable had to go got to make it by the curfew
Wasn’t my intention to bring it up or to hurt you
I just wanna hear it cause you’ve been so apathetic
You say that you’re more susceptible and prone cause it’s genetic
Only child no one ever taught me how to share
Tell me how am I to learn when I got nobody there
Keep the bloodline intact put the burden onto me
But it’s the repetition grating working in monotony
Trapped been in a bubble in this extended period
You would ask what’s the cause well I say there’s a myriad
Wake up wanting to end it and I’m sleeping so terribly
You say that you got it easy well at least when compared to me

Trained to recognize distress and any signs of harm
Was given a head start before they sounded the alarm
And I will reap the consequences for the years to come
I turned a blind eye to the symptoms that were clear to some

I’m choking on my envy just put me down gently
Estranged and on the verge emotions starting to tempt me
This carcass made of spoils the spindles and coils
Inoculated antidotes were nothing but loyal

Antidotes

Sickick - Infected

ＴＨＥ　ＶＯＩＣＥＳ　ＩＮ　ＭＹ　ＨＥＡＤ　ＣＯＬＬＩＤＥ

//私は私の心を失った//

i recently purchased a new ukulele after i gave mine away back in november, so i thought it'd only make sense to whip up a fresh uke track for you guys. i hope you enjoy it. 

i love you <3

lyrics
--------
this song brings on the weather
tear drops upon my sweater
i cry in bed whenever
i see you guys together
fuck love it's all a lie
i can't sleep i rather die
than see that look in your eye
it sucks that i'm not your guy

i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like

i packed my bags last week
sunrise and i'm on my feet
let's skip town and chase our dreams
cause this place ain't what it seems
come home let's synchronize
my soft lips caress your thighs
you get me so fucking high
the voices in my head collide 

i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like
i think you're really cool like

keep your voice down
she don't care no
i can't breathe i've got no air 
no sympathy for my despair
i cut my wrists and grow my hair 
i'm outta my mind

i think you're really cool

A pill for the issues
But it doesn’t fix them
Slows me down, turns my frown
Doesn’t save my brainstem

Do not wanna breathe no more
I’ve seen it all, I took the tour
World not made for me, I’m sure
Recycle me, when you abhor

Happy inconceivable
But they think it’s believable
I’m riding in a vehicle
My body what I’m seeing through

Bars and bars, I'm in a cell
Walk around and no one tell
Smoke and smoke, I try and feel
This girls my Achilles heel

Fuck this and fuck you
Feelings I’m used to
Always find new hue
Tear my heart right through

I’m never enough
And I swear you’re giving up
Thought you had me handcuffed
But you really just bluffed

Can only count on yourself
To be there, when no one else
Gives a fuck about your health
And only want your wealth

A pill for the issues
But it doesn’t fix them
Slows me down, and turns my frown
Doesn’t save my brainstem

Do not wanna breathe no more
I’ve seen it all, I took the tour
World not made for me, I’m sure
Recycle me, when you abhor

Don’t ask me for a feature and don’t say I’m “blowing up”
All I hear through that is that I think I’m not enough
Harder than I’ve ever worked and going till it’s up
Til the day the dark consumes me, I’m a diamond in the rough

Don’t call me your friend if not
Shock to me measured in watt
Fake your love for me, allot
And don’t think I ever forgot

After everything I say
Please just stay the fuck away
Cannot take another day
While my brain cells all decay

Nothing handed out for free
Gotta act responsibly
Made a plan out to a tee
But they claim that it’s “destiny”

Sick of this like nicotine
Thought we would be evergreen
Burn away with kerosene
In afterlife, we’ll reconvene

A pill for the issues
But it doesn’t fix them
Slows me down, turns my frown
Doesn’t save my brainstem

Do not wanna breathe no more
I’ve seen it all, I took the tour
World not made for me, I’m sure
Recycle me, when you abhor

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Hear Me

@lovejsan - Love Hurts

When You Miss Me

ANOTHER DAY prod WOLFGANG PANDER.

fun while it lasted.


if i do if i dont, doesn’t matter cause ill fuck up
get knocked down try again, get so nervous that I up chuck
fingers long i might slice, i can’t trust myself with knives
need someone to hold my hand and someone else to supervise

You know I have no self control no need to fabricate the truth
then we can talk about the good times and all the evil things you do
Made a world full of your bullshit tried to fill my head with lies
so when I tell you that I’m leaving it should come as no surprise

no surprise, why’d i try? just to end up here again
fooled me once, fooled me twice, fooled around with all your friends
idk why im so lame
one more day i’ll go insane

if i do if i dont, doesn’t matter cause ill fuck up
Get knocked down and try again, but get so nervous that I up chuck 
fingers long i might slice, i can’t trust myself with knives
need someone to hold my hand and someone else to supervise

maybe i could learn to skate 
or play guitar to compensate
for all the little secrets that i keep
cause my dreams warned, be on the ball.
i took advantage of it all 
she was my girl, lights in my world, my everything.
then life said sike, why’d you try? 
just to end up here again?
fooled you once fooled you twice, please don’t tell me it ends
idk why im so lame
one more day i’ll go insane

nose bleeds heart aches

Exhausted