I closed my eyes and had a vision of this place
In the ocean
A cold fog rolls in across the horizon 
Dark and cloudy
And now I see that I am standing on a ship
I am seasick
I hear the murky depths calling out to me now
I feel something

We're sailing on a ship
I know the memories are hazy
And I can't seem to find what I'm looking for
Now brother, man the stern
I'll never let the sea take me
Port side has a breach
Yeah, it's a little crazy

I can't find what I'm looking for
Why can't I find what I'm looking for
Yeah, I can't find what I'm looking for
I hope you find what you're looking for

A whirlpool starts to form and my head starts to spin
Are you dizzy?
The rain pouring down fills me with a sense of peace
Then I vanish
Be careful, don't let her songs lull you to sleep
You won't wake up
An icy current is sending us off course
Hold on to something

We're sailing on a ship
I know the memories are hazy
And I can't seem to find what I'm looking for
Now brother, man the stern
I'll never let the sea take me
Port side has a breach
Yeah, it's a little crazy

I can't find what I'm looking for
Why can't I find what I'm looking for
Yeah, I can't find what I'm looking for
I hope you find what you're looking for

I closed my eyes and had a dream in the ocean
Never had a notion of self reflecting but I notice
The look in your eyes tells me that you're cut open
I don't wanna be done with having you stay by my side

The gusts threaten to push us off of the edge now
Why'd you have to pretend that you were okay when you're drowning
I would have thought I'd have this kind of thing down now
Big brother's a let down, when will this be over I don't know

We're sailing on a ship
I know the memories are hazy
And I can't seem to find what I'm looking for
Now brother, man the stern
I'll never let the sea take me
Port side has a breach
Yeah, it's a little crazy

I can't find what I'm looking for
Why can't I find what I'm looking for
Yeah, I can't find what I'm looking for
I hope you find what you're looking for

Sin Nombre

Have you ever felt like you were an ant
And you really just wanna scream, but you know you can't
Or you'll catch a fist to the face, get told that it's your place
If hell's your destination, well, this must be a taste, oh yeah

All you wanted was just a tiny cut
And you lose that hesitation when they treat you like a mutt
Feel the rush of the lightning that's running through your veins
And then you learned that family's a special kind of pain, oh yeah

I'm a nightmare, bundled in a ball
Never thought life would be easy but I didn't know I'd fall
So far, torn apart, when will my life really start
You can't have my love baby, cause for that I'd need a heart, oh no

I'm a nightmare, full of pain and wrath
Don't you walk away now or you'll be late for the bloodbath
I've tried, but you lied, told me that I'm all you had
You say you know the devil, but you've never met my dad, oh no

Have you ever felt like you were a god
And you're listening to MCR with your headphones on
Then the kids on the playground beat you up and call you names
If trauma is just in your head, then hell is just a place, oh yeah

All I wanted was just a tiny cut
And I lost my hesitation when they kicked me like a mutt
Feel the rush of the lightning that had run through my veins
And then I learned that family's a special kind of pain, whoa

I'm a nightmare, looking at the scars
I wanna run away but I am scared to go too far
You tried, but I died, honey I don't have much left
I don't know how to love you but this is my best guess, whoa

I'm a nightmare, filled up with regret
I don't wanna be a burden and I hesitate to let
My guard down for you, I just don't know what to do
I'm addictive like nicotine, please don't let me near you, whoa

Have you ever felt like you were a bird
And you wanna fly far away, all because you heard
Footsteps down the hall, well let me tell you a tale
Of a nicotine nightmare, this dreadful fairytale

All he wanted was just a bit of love
And he's died more times than you can count, kinda scary but
Resurrected and cold, say his name sevenfold
And a broken man appears before you, or so it's told

I'm a nightmare, trying to stay strong
And I realized that I honestly don't need to belong
Anywhere, I don't care, no one said that life was fair
But put my music on and baby, I'll give you a scare, oh no

I'm a nightmare, never gonna stop
Cause I found someone who needs me, now please don't get me wrong
I lied, and I died, but don't take me for a fool
No need for you to fret dear, cause you're my nightmare too, whoa

Insomniac

I'm A Nightmare

Spooky Romeo - Instrumental

Call me spooky Romeo, I'm kinda emo
Don't want no Capulet, I know that she'd make me go loco
I'd rather charm some creepy girls and take em to my cavern
Blood orgy on the lecturn, don't get her angry she'll turn
You inside out yeah you won't get out once a goth chick has you
She my witchy wagyu, don't touch her or she'll stab you
She put all of my teeth inside a doll with some of my hair
She makes me a little scared, I'll appease her with amber

I crucio'd Mercucio he made fun of my makeup
And skinny jeans yeah he don't know that's how I get my power 
Dancing nude in the forest covered in goat's blood
The rain is pouring down now, there's going to be a flood
I've dabbled in black magick, conjured up some wicked spells
Got a graveyard in my backyard where the undead come to dwell
Got Kai Anderson vibes I think I'm going to start a cult
I'll gather followers and then hit you with my assault

My life's an open book, go ahead divine and look
The power that i stole from Beelzebub will leave you shook
I'm crawling through the dungeons underneath your town, a crook
Creeping and stalking from the bushes behind you don't look

Got that shy boy rizz for days, steal your girl and leave you dazed
I love all of the creepy chicks but whiskey makes me gay
You messed up by inviting me inside your threshold, based
Oh boy what a place, my minions love the lace
Time to pick up the pace may I introduce myself to ya
Dr. Acula, let me give it to you straight uh
Polycemia vera you've got a bad case but you are in luck
Two puncture holes in the neck, whoops looks like I drained ya
Something's burning me up inside, hang on what the hell is this
Got a cross up on your chest, come on you know I hate that shit
I dump your body, someone elses problem now I'm lit
Brothers with holy water trying to make me take a sip
I transform into bats to escape, I still have the munchies
That vampire kush is good this strain makes me feel like Ted Bundy
My dealer's pretty weird, and I'm pretty sure she wants to fuck me
Mrs. Frankenstein hand it here, don't want no smoke with your hubby

The storm clouds forming overhead give me a perfect view
Saw my fortune in the ligning strikes just had to pay tribute
Cannabis, tobacco, I'll even sing them a song
You think that I'm a bad guy, nah man you've got me all wrong
Anubis tried to weigh my heart it melted through the scale
He tried to whine to Zeus, but he was busy screwing a whale
Hades kicked me out of Erebus for hitting on Freya
Valhalla's my next stop, don't let Odin pour the ale

Spooky Romeo

Every time I'm left alone with my thoughts I crumble
Just when I thought I'd bound every demon, do no harm
Off in the distance there's a terrible rumble
A strike of lightning reveals the enemy and I fall apart

A dark silence surrounds me
Through long nights and you can't help me
And I shatter the memories
Cause I'm tired of remembering

Now a shadow will stalk me
I won't forget this haunting
Now run faster in futility
Never let go of this feeling

Thought I saw an angel in my temple last night
I solicited him for some grace that I know I don't deserve
But with my hand of shaping I'll get what I want
Frankincense fills the room and the smoke begins to swirl around

A dark silence surrounds me
Through long nights and you can't help me
And I shatter the memories
Cause I'm tired of remembering

Now a shadow will stalk me
I won't forget this haunting
Now run faster in futility
Never let go of this feeling

And when I sit alone I see shapes in the dark
It's been watching from the corner, and it grins
When I was a child it tried to be my friend
Cruelly dancing around the room

A dark silence surrounds me
Through long nights and you can't help me
And I shatter the memories
Cause I'm tired of remembering

Now a shadow will stalk me
I won't forget this haunting
Now run faster in futility
Never let go of this feeling

A dark silence surrounds me
Through long nights and you can't help me
And I shatter the memories
Cause I'm tired of remembering

Now a shadow will stalk me
I won't forget this haunting
Now run faster in futility
Never let go of this feeling

Dark Silence

I just wanna slit your wrists
As you give me a big ol' kiss
Fuck a guy and a girl at once
After drinking some Jack & getting pissed

Let me steal your oxygen
I’ll be your dementor again
Please allow me to take your soul
Where mine was there is just a hole

Just fuck me under the night sky
It’s dark & cold but I won’t lie
Hope you’re not looking for romance
Shut up and just take off your pants

These times are the moments we’re made of
Ugly crying and smudging our makeup
Don’t care what’s after or before
Right now all I am is your whore

Lock me in an attic, hide me in a cave
Squeeze your throat until you’re blue, this is how we play
Cover me in bruises call me a slut
Walk you on a leash, Yeah you’re my little mutt

Ask me a question I’ll drop some lore
It will fix me just to hit you more
You say “bitch” and I’ll say “what?”
"I just want to get cut"

Just cut me like you cut you
Hurt me like you hurt you
Fuck me like you fuck me
Ground me into dirt

Just hurt me like they hurt you
I’m all ugly and bruised
I know that i deserve it
We’re both fucking worthless

I just wanna make you cry
Right until you’re about to die
I’ll pretend I am my dad
But you want it so you’re not sad

Toxic, toxic, spit on me
You fucking bitch it’s a symphony
Leave me cold and in the dark
I wanna see some fucking marks

Hit me with a tire iron
Kick me like a football
Just set me on fucking fire
This will fix me, right?

Never say I love you, love you
Shove me, yank my hair
This is how you show it, show it
I’m so red I’m glowing

It’s 3 AM in Nightwood
Feel so fucking bad, good
Demons watching anyway
Lets give them a show

It’s 3 AM in Nightwood
Candles burning out, should
We say that we’re happy
Do we even know?

It’s 3am in Nightwood
Feel so fucking bad, good
Let the forest reabsorb me
When I’m in my grave

3am in Nightwood
Feel the call of the void
We can jump off of a bridge
The waters call us home

Nightwood Extraordinaire

A hypnotic yet upbeat song intended to calm and inspire.

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Dark Lullaby

SynthIntro

MysteriousIntro

IntenseIntro

This is what happens when you let the emo kid find a synthesizer - Chillstep, Trance, EDM

I’m Nicotine Nightmare. I don’t have many good things to say about myself, because I’m a nightmare. My best friend is a slime, and his name is Darkly. When I’m not disassociating, you’ll often find me in the studio creating synth-heavy dubstep with upbeat melodies and dissonant lyrics. I grew up in a small town with a tiny school and people with tiny hearts, and I often think that music saved me. I was born and raised into systemic abuse and am afflicted with several neurodivergences that put life on hard mode, and my goal is to bring a moment of peace to the souls that are like mine. I see music as a way to express my experiences to my fans, translating and transcribing my memories and dreams into soundwaves, and bringing a shred of peace to other people that have also lived through a nightmare.
 
Inspiration can be a rare thing, but I find it everywhere. From the musicians who taught me how to live, to people who no longer walk among us. I’m inspired by whispers in the wind, the ghosts that walk among us, the flame from a candle, the beauty of hopelessness, and the magic from the sky to the earth. In my music, you may hear a happy melody accompanied by tales of my bittersweet night terrors, or ravings inspired by scribbles on 4th century parchment that speaks of ancient blessings and curses. Life’s a nightmare, but you’ll get through it. I hope you find what you’re looking for.

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