Matt. 13:45-46, Eph. 5:25

    G                           Em
The kingdom of the heavens is a merchant
C                            D
Seeking finest pearls in the world
  G                                 Em
A single pearl He found of greatest value.
   C                D
He sold His all and bought it.

Em     D         G
Christ loved the church
C                     D
He paid the price for her.
   Em        D      G
He knows her all-surpassing worth
    C             D
And I too give my all
            G
To gain His pearl

2. A pearl is something transformed in death waters,
Not something created by God.
The church is nothing natural, but she’s processed
Through death and resurrection.

3. Once just a little rock or grain of sand, we
Wounded Christ who died on the cross.
Our sinner-loving Savior, He embraced us—
Secreted life around us.

4. Although we wound the Savior, never leave Him.
In His wound remain, make your home.
He’ll keep dispensing resurrection into us,
Transform us to His treasure.

To Gain His Pearl

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Every day there is much work to be done
We are entrusted with the work of the Lord!
We need to do business until He comes,
Bringing in more men and feeding them with His word
Yet each day before we start,
He brings this word up in our hearts:

	First we need to rest, just to lay down,
	This is what God wants, before the work abounds.
	First enjoy the Lord! Just drink Him in.
	Once we're filled with Him—let the work begin.

He ordained our days to start in this way,
We clearly see in the creation of man—
The first day of man was the seventh day,
To enjoy God's presence, ere he worked on the land.
In our time it is the same,
This divine principle remains...

So begin your day reclining on Him,
Enjoying Him as the pleasant pasture land,
Sing until He overflows from the brim,
Flowing out from you to reach whoever's at hand.
If you first behold His face,
Your labor will be done by grace!

First Enjoy The Lord!

as I'm writing this and scheduling this upload on 11-14-25 I'm having a mental breakdown full of anxiety and dread and I really want to delet all my stuff. I constantly want to delete everything and I have to resist the urge. I feel I will eventually break. I am going to therapy for the first time next month but I don't know if that can save me. It feels like I'm trying to fill a hole that keeps getting bigger. I really want to delete all my accounts but I know I will regret it but I don't know how much longer I can keep doing this. My anxiety and dread is killing me today since my dad got out jail for something very bad and I don't even know if he's innocent. My step-dad is also very anxiety inducing and I almost harmed him last week but held back. Him and my mom are fighting but he's a very good Manipulator and he's trying to manipulate me too. I need help but no one can save me but myself. I don't know what to do. My therapist appointment is next month but it's hard to keep waiting since I should have went to one when I was little. I'm so mentally drained and confused constantly. Oh my god I don't know what to do. I don't want attention or fans at all but I want to be heard but it kills me knowing people might hear my stuff. Fuck

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For I'm persuaded to believe

1
	My wandering days grew increasingly empty
As I searched for the way,
Just to fill this gap inside me—
Found my seeking vain.
Though all this dark earth would convince me life’s worthwhile,
Inside all my mirth
Was a cry for something real.
Don’t you lie to me, world!
  	For my heart tells me different
When I hear of contentment
Deep within a lack knew better
  Why not be honest, world.
2
	A flood of strong doubt as I heard the old story
Of a man they called Lord;
Yet my heart ne’er ceased to wonder,
Is He really Lord?
A search in His Word found my hardened heart softened,
And earth’s vanities faded.
In the brightness of His presence
Jesus came into me.
  	Now we’re always together
Growing into God’s fullness.
O Lord Jesus, how I love You!
  You brought life into me.

My Wandering Days

D capo 6 
Intro: D-Dsus2-G-Gm

D                     Em
For He is our God
G                         A                      D
And we are the people of His pasture 
D                     Em
For He is our God
G                         A                  D
And we are the flock of His hand
D                                 Em
Do not harden your heart 
G             A                    D
Today if you hear His voice
D                                 Em 
Do not harden your heart 
G                       A7
He is speaking to you today. 
(Ending)
G                        A7
He is speaking to you today.

Do not harden your heart (w/ Annie & Xuefei) (cover)

Composed by M.C.

Lyrics:
  D			                 G                           A                            F#m       Bm
1.   Lord, Your virtues of faith, peace, life, light, and most of all Your love
         G                        A
Have opened up our hearts;
D 			                      G                    A              F#m    Bm
     Lord, every moment we long for the growth within  always,
     G                          A         D-D7
So come and fill us all our days.

(Chorus)      
G                      A        D      -    A   -   Bm
   Lord, loving You is all that we desire,
G                 A                    D-D7
   It's all we live, breathe for;
G                        A           F#m           Bm
   Our constant joy is to be in Your embrace
        G                          A           D
And waiting for Your coming day.
 
2. Keep our hearts ever fresh, soft, pure, unreserved for only You,
Pervade in all our lives;
Lord, it's our yearning for You to make home within our hearts,
Do saturate us every part.
 
3. 'Tis Your mercy and grace as Your lovers we're preserved in Your
Recovery today;
Lord, keep us faithful to You to the end to run the race,
Until we see You face to face.

Covers

Loving You is All That We Desire

Emily Cortez's Album

Don't Allow Me to Choose (music and lyrics unknown)

Recorded over this spring term with 10 sisters as a gift to our FTTA graduating class of spring 2019.

Immersed in Thy love

w/ J+A, May, Pcho, Joey, Zach, Daniel, & Ugo

In spirit and Truthfulness | John 4:23-24

A man's steps are ordered by Jehovah;
How then can a man understand his own way?
How then can a man understand his own way?

The spirit of man is the lamp of Jehovah, 
Searching all the innermost parts of the inner being.

For who among men knows the things, 
Who knows the things of men, except the spirit of man,
The spirit of man which is within him?

A Man's Steps are Ordered by Jehovah (Prov. 20:24, 27; 1 Cor. 2:11a)

Eph. 5:2 And walk in love, even as Christ also loved us and gave Himself up for us, an offering and a sacrifice to God for a sweet-smelling savor.

A Man's Steps are Ordered by Jehovah (Prov. 20:24, 27; 1 Cor. 2:11a)

flowing myrrh