CONFIDENCE: Tonight is a night that I was originally planning to get drunk with a close friend and to ask him about this relationship advice with this fellow female, but that is another journal in itself, anyways I stumble upon his ignorance and decide to try and get some sleep for tomorrow. This has been an ongoing accumulation lately that I can't seem to fall asleep, there is a medical analysis For this but I seriously doubt that this would fit my case. My insomnia is what I call this which is not as server as the condition itself but I have many of the symptoms the obvious one being I can't sleep. So when I can't sleep I begun to think and to think which is what I do every night and some nights I over think myself into this state which I am in right now. I just begin to think of the worst things and just think of my life in general and where it is going. I obviously need to talk to a precessional about this but the thing is my physiatrist at the moment is a replacement due to my probation. I have never had problems falling asleep before I was on probation and this is a scary feeling for me because I don't like the fact I can't sleep I love to sleep and now that I can't do an activity that I love it is exhausting literally. So I recently got accepted to IUP which I am secretly kind of proud of but the thing is I don't believe that I am quite ready to pursues life on my own just yet and to move out and to go to college. I honesty am mature enough to admit that I am contradicting myself because I don't think I am mature enough to do things alone. The past few years have been really rough and I have been in and out of rehab to placement to mental hospital and it just gives me back terrible haunting memories but the people that I met in there I will always remember them for some reason. People just interest me there are everything to everyone and it completes people but for some reason I find myself alone on multiple occasions. I just feel comfortable alone I always have and this could be seen as a skill that very few acquire but I don't know what I see it as and I don't see it as a weakness if anything it is a strength. People have always influenced my life greatly  and always made me do things or act a certain way and I never really made deacons and choices for myself. This was how it was until I went to Outside-In and met a kid that would change my mindset and outlook on life as I know it, Sven.
Sven:    This was the name of a fellow Juvenal in my placement facility that I was at from the months of July to October in the summer of 2013. He was a very unique person and not like everyone else there so obviously he intrigued me when I started to talk to him. He just had this outlook on life to just be as different as,you can be and that everyone can point out each others similarities but it it's the differences that. Ames us who we are. This was a very powerful moving thing that he told me in such a dark place in my life it gave me light. While I was there I was very focused in my self image and was trying to make myself look better for when I return home, and I did not quite take into effect of what actually Sven was telling me all the time it would just fly over my head. So the kids in the placement always took a liking to me due to my personality and my kindness but they tended to not like Sven as much and this made me confused and made me think if is should avoid him due to these other kids reactions to his behaviors. I quickly learned that Sven was the person that would get me through Outside-In that he would lead me to my home and these other kids were just a distraction to me. Now I did not take Sven for a heroin addict at all this shocked me beyond belief but he was very accepting and comfortable about his addiction and that he really wanted to make a change. Now before entering there we had both found our we spent some time in Ridge View which was a rehab facility that we both attended and continued to use until we found put way at Outside-In. This was automatically a common interest that we both went there around the same time and new the same people from there which made me happy to connect with him about that because that place was a very dark place in my life. Sven was just such a unique individual and did not care what anyone thought of him and I envy him for that because no matter how much I tell myself or how much I try to ignore it I always seem to take peoples opinions into affect. I haut can't help it I mean it is human nature to do that but Sven really just did not seem to care for anyone's opinion but his own. I definitely took a tool after seeing him do the things he did and take theses evil comments so well and just brush them off his shoulders. I admire that greatly from him I wish I could do,the same but unfortunately I can't and this makes me kind of angry. I always take people's opinion into affect and it sometimes can get to me for weeks at a time. Sven did however teach me that whatever they may be saying to you or doing to you that makes them want to say it, then that shows  a sign of frustration and it is a weakness for them. So he would tend to do,those things that would make people mad even more and more just because he knew it would bother them. This is very cool to me and it is actually what I have started to do in my own life.

  My guitar is not a thing. It is an extension of myself. It is who I am.  
  Master of the universe but not of myself, I am the only rebel against my absolute power.  
  I gave myself until I turned 25 to make it. And if it didn’t happen, I thought I’d just try to find a nice husband.  
  I don’t see myself as a philosopher. That’s awfully boring.  
  My goal is to entertain myself and others. 
  I’m kind of a more sunshiny person myself.  
  Myself acquainted with misfortune, I learn to help the unfortunate. 
  When you first get money, you buy all these things so no one thinks you’re mean, and you spread it around. You get a chauffeur and you find yourself thrown around the back of this car and you think, I was happier when I had my own little car! I could drive myself!  
  To consider persons and events and situations only in the light of their effect upon myself is to live on the doorstep of hell. 
  I usually find several ways to express myself: different moods, different days, different voices, different things, ‘I’m lighthearted today, I’m gonna do this.’  
  It’s not only children who grow. Parents do too. As much as we watch to see what our children do with their lives, they are watching us to see what we do with ours. I can’t tell my children to reach for the sun. All I can do is reach for it, myself.  
  My mother always wanted me to be glamorous. When I thought about that, it really fired me up, and once I lost all those pounds, I started to feel really good about myself.  
  Being an actor means being an instrument for someone else. I want to give myself completely. 
  When I first see the dailies, I look only at myself, but then you start to see the scene. 
  I can be very critical on myself and on other people; I can be very demanding. 
  They may call me a sinner, but I am at peace with myself. 
  I do not try to dance better than anyone else. I only try to dance better than myself. 
  I always tell people that religious institutions and political institutions should be separate. So while I’m telling people this, I myself continue with them combined. Hypocrisy!  
  I consider myself as a free spokesman for the people.  
  I describe myself as a simple Buddhist monk. No more, no less.  
  One thing I want to make clear, as far as my own rebirth is concerned, the final authority is myself and no one else, and obviously not China’s Communists. 
  I’m a woman, a mother, a daughter, a sister. I’m a real person operating in the world. For me to discuss the most private thing feels wrong. It feels like I’m betraying myself and my children.  
  Besides being responsible for myself, I’m now responsible for someone else. And I have to set the right examples. I have to really be someone that I would want my child to look up to.  
  I’ve always been an unselfish guy, and that’s the only way I know how to play on the court and I try to play to the maximum of my ability – not only for myself but for my teammates.  
  There’s one advantage in having been around as long as I have. Everybody in the Senate knows me, and – I’m going to say something presumptuous, to repeat myself – I think most respect me.  
  I have always regarded myself, in the first place, as an African patriot.  
  I should tie myself to no particular system of society other than of socialism.  
  I am confident that nobody… will accuse me of selfishness if I ask to spend time, while I am still in good health, with my family, my friends and also with myself. 
  I tore myself away from the safe comfort of certainties through my love for truth – and truth rewarded me.  
  I see myself capable of arrogance and brutality… That’s a fierce thing, to discover within yourself that which you despise the most in others.  
  So, one way or another, I found myself in a few movies. I take it seriously when I’m on the set, but I don’t take myself seriously as an actor.
  I don’t think I’m really in a situation to complain, because I consider myself to be privileged to be doing what I do.  
  I forged myself out of a vacuum. I crawl along the highway on hacked off stumps year after year. Some wonder how and why. I never do. 
  The pop world is cool, but I never really thought of myself as part of it or wanting to be a part of it because I’m on a label that’s not really like that. They’re not trying to dress me up, they’re not trying to do things like that. I feel like I’m sort of separate from that, actually. 
  On the first album I was saying, that’s just one part of me. And then I was thinking, well, am I going to hide the rest of me now just because I’m afraid of something? No. I’m just going to be myself.  
  I don’t think I ever thought of myself as Superman. But there were people who thought of me that way, and maybe I believed them a little.  
  And I laugh at myself when I screw things up, which happens all the time. 
  Maybe I’m ego-tripping, but I don’t find myself a particularly horrible person, so I don’t think I need to hold back anything I think or feel.  
  I take the work seriously, just not myself in it. 
  To this day, my haircut is the number two clippers, which I apply to myself every month.  
  Every summer, around late July and into August, I find myself in Europe, performing at any festival that will have me.  
  If it was something that I really committed myself to, I don’t think there’s anything that could stop me becoming President of the United States.  
  Stubborn isn’t a word I would use to describe myself; pigheaded is more appropriate.  
  Justice to my readers compels me to admit that I write because I have nothing to do; justice to myself induces me to add that I will cease to write the moment I have nothing to say. 
  I don’t call myself a Buddhist. I’m a free spirit. I believe I’m here on earth to admire and enjoy it; that’s my religion. 
  I started out as a poet. I’ve always been a poet since I was 7 or 8. And so I feel myself to be fundamentally a poet who got into writing novels.  
  In my work and in myself I reflect black people, women and men, as I reflect others. One day even the most self-protective ones will look into the mirror I provide and not be afraid.  
  I pledge you, I pledge myself, to a new deal for the American people.  
  The world is the mirror of myself dying.  
  If I spread myself too thin, I’m not a good actor, I’m not a good mother, and I’m just really high-strung – and everybody hates me.  
  I’m really proud of myself because I’ve pared my beauty regimen down to a cream blush and berry-tinted lip balm, which has saved me so much time. 
  So much about living life, to me, is about humility and gratitude. And I’ve tried very hard to have those qualities and be that person and I’m just so disappointed in myself that I allowed it to slip. 
  I pride myself on being kind.
  I always assume I look better than I actually do. I’ll feel pretty good about myself when I leave the house, then I’ll see a picture and think, ‘Crap, I had no idea that’s what I was looking like.’ 
  I used to weigh myself every day at a certain time of day. Then I would write down the number and measure my body fat. It wasn’t a healthy way to live. 
  I have impeached myself by resigning.  
  I brought myself down. I impeached myself by resigning. 
  I really believe in the philosophy that you create your own universe. I’m just trying to create a good one for myself.  
  I don’t know how to defend myself: surprised innocence cannot imagine being under suspicion. 
  I see myself as sexy. If you are comfortable with it, it can be very classy and appealing. 
  God’s mercy and grace give me hope – for myself, and for our world. 
  Lead me not into temptation; I can find the way myself.  
  I sometimes give myself admirable advice, but I am incapable of taking it.  
  Marriages don’t last. When I meet a guy, the first question I ask myself is: is this the man I want my children to spend their weekends with? 
  I was raised to sense what someone wanted me to be and be that kind of person. It took me a long time not to judge myself through someone else’s eyes. 
  If I had to associate myself with one song, it would probably be Let Love Rule. It’s so simple and to the point. It speaks for itself.  
  If I have been of service, if I have glimpsed more of the nature and essence of ultimate good, if I am inspired to reach wider horizons of thought and action, if I am at peace with myself, it has been a successful day. 
  I must lose myself in action, lest I wither in despair. 
  I made up my mind long ago that life was too short to do anything for myself that I could pay others to do for me. 
  Acting is not about being someone different. It’s finding the similarity in what is apparently different, then finding myself in there.  
  Love is a binding force, by which another is joined to me and cherished by myself. 
  I took a break from acting for four years to get a degree in mathematics at UCLA, and during that time I had the rare opportunity to actually do research as an undergraduate. And myself and two other people co-authored a new theorem: Percolation and Gibbs States Multiplicity for Ferromagnetic Ashkin-Teller Models on Two Dimensions, or Z2. 
  When I originally entered UCLA, I had planned to go for a film major, but I kept finding myself taking math classes for fun, ’cause I missed them from high school!  
  My main concern with the condition of mathematics in high school is that there’s a lot of fear involved! Math is not, generally speaking, presented in a fun way. The concepts, as I see them, are fun, and that’s the way I’d like to convey them myself. 
  Do I consider myself sexy? It all depends on the way I’m feeling. When I’m happy inside, that’s when I feel most sexy. 
  A lot of the problems I had with fame I was bringing on myself. A lot of self-loathing, a lot of woe-is-me. Now I’m learning to see the positive side of things, instead of, like, ‘I can’t go to Kmart. I can’t take my kids to the haunted house.’  
  I don’t even know how to speak up for myself, because I don’t really have a father who would give me the confidence or advice.  
  When I’m not longer rapping, I want to open up an ice cream parlor and call myself Scoop Dogg. 
  I cannot cure myself of that most woeful of youth’s follies – thinking that those who care about us will care for the things that mean much to us. 
  Not being able to govern events, I govern myself. 
  If a man urge me to tell wherefore I loved him, I feel it cannot be expressed but by answering: Because it was he, because it was myself. 
  If I told you about all the stories I don’t tell, I would be violating the very boundaries I set for myself. 
  I write to keep from going mad from the contradictions I find among mankind – and to work some of those contradictions out for myself.  
  If ordinary people complain that I speak too much of myself, I complain that they do not even think of themselves.  
  I just need to know that I did the very best I could and that I was true to myself. 
  I’m finding myself really angry over spending and the deficit. I’m finding myself really angry over what’s happening in the Middle East, the decision to stay in Afghanistan indefinitely. I’m angry about cap and trade. And I’ve been on record for a long time on the failed war on drugs.  

Releases out now on:
<a href= "http://www.adaptedrecords.org/">Adapted Records</a> (Australia)
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"One of our favorite Freebies to come out of Adapted Records, Mandrake's "Prism" delves deeply into all aspects of the dance music spectrum, ranging from crisp and sparkling melodicism to funk-infused, laser-guided synth work. A bouncy bassline and incredibly punchy percussion demonstrate a professional approach to production that is often lacking in the more experimental genres, and a lush, incredibly textural ambience speaks volumes as to the versatility and variety of sounds included in Mandrake's incomparable technical arsenal."

GlitchHop.NET on Prism

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 "What can you say other than that for his age (or any age), Mandrake sure know’s what’s up. In a beginning that sounds like it would be right at home in the director’s cut of Blade Runner, he paints the picture of a dystopian futuristic society in which chaos reigns supreme and weak beats have long since been eliminated. He keeps the tension so thick you could cut it with the knife before finally letting us have the glitch destruction we’ve been waiting for. Dark, eerie, and creepy, this is one track you don’t want to mess with."

GlitchHop.NET on Kaiju

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A little background of The S.A.U. 
The "Iron Helmet" is an article which gives the bearer the super strength of will, it was forged in the "Shogun" Assassin Universe(S.A.U.) by a mystical master craftsman for "Shogun Abbadon"(Ruler of the S.A.U.) using the ore from The Dragon Phoenix star(an incredible super star which holds the light of wisdom).  The helmet never made it to the Shogun for it was stolen by the ronin samurai who once were under his control and power, these samurai are known as "The Shogun Assassins".  "The Shogun Assassins" consist of Math aka Wiz(a very witty and meticulous swordsman whose calculations are always dead on), Science aka Benny Blanco(Technological guru who applies his knowledge base of quantum mechanics), Real Reason aka the Iron Helmet(a wise master of the martial arts who at times is a knuckle head he battles his inner demons daily), and Right&Exact aka Axe Butane(The blade of justice he has the hands of god at his disposal). These ronin samurai formed an allegiance to destroy the "Shogun Abbadon" who is a warmonger, soul harvester, power hungry deviant whose sole purpose of existance is to keep all in the dark and asleep so he can attain the whole multiverse.  

The Iron Helmet(The Iron Hell-Met)
The Iron Helmet aka Real Reason bka SLiM P. is a martial artist/civil rights activist/advocate of right self knowledge from the city of Boston, MA.  1 day while in deep meditation he received a sign of a great change in the world, the universe for that matter, that would come down as a comet impacting the planet Earth.  In his vision there was destruction and chaos followed by a time of enlightenment to rebuild and reform the world as we know it.  Unknowing that this was to be his duty, he witnessed the crash and discovers the helmet.  Upon picking up the helmet he is filled with the knowledge from whence it came and reason of all things in existence.  Reluctant of such power, although compelled by it majesty, he places it upon his head and is  transformed to "The Iron Helmet", a samurai on a mission of Justice for all. ( Hahaa I know its sounds kind of super heroish b.u.t. nevertheless it gets more interesting).  Now possesing the power to will things into being he goes on a quest to destroy all things he deems wicked, Big Corporations, Illuminati and all wicked secret societies, False prophets and Religious leaders who prey on the ignorance of the weak, Homelessness, Hungry people etc... He tasks the duty of destroying all the bullshit in the world and making a change 1 sword slash at a time. Along his journey he recruits soldiers to aide in the quest, also receives help from the Shogun Assassins who take leave from the S.A.U. to come to Earth.  So the premis is that the "Shogun" is the wicked and evil throughout the world and Iron Helmet is the avenger who works to topple the ways of the wicked.  

---------Random Alert--------------
Peace is a lie, there is only passion.
But There is always Balance.
My favorite animals are Wolves.
My favorite Color is Blue.
When your down, remember there is always pizza.
Friends and Family are the most important people in my life.
I will always help my friends and family in need..no matter what, I would even sacrifise myself.
Sorry I am just a random person creating playlists about my Favorite music.
I know I got an weird style of music xD Dont judge xD
Without Music, friends and family I cant live..
HEIL DAS RAVENEX!!!!!

-----------Ravenex Code----------------
Destruction is the truth, No one will survive.
Screams of fury, then silence.
No peace will be bound.
Aggression is Strenght, Emotions are weak.
When we set foot on the ground, the Earth shall tremble.
Ravenex will rise, Everything will bow.
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members:
dayvid: guitars, bells, voice overs, attitude& sarcasm
jeannie: bass, vocals, writing, even more attitude& sarcasm
frank: violin, voice overs
tony: beats & beating ass

also: mark sescon, kurt morenl, and brea chaney have helped us tremendously along the way, and still continue to do so. i owe my love and complete gratitude to all the people listed above. thank you so much for your tireless contributions, and i love you all.

influences:
people, surroundings, thoughts, nature, diseases, secrets, philosophy, feelings, sounds, space, words, experiences, poisons, love/hate, well-being, monsters, more poisons, juicy danglers, self-destruction, and more monsters.

what we sound like:
"an ordered recurrent alternation of strong and weak elements in the flow of sound and silence"

record label:
wrd fctry rcrds

This is the official Soundcloud page for $taxx aka Renegade Staxx #StayWitIt #StonerShit #PassionateMC D{M}V #USMC veteran

$taxx (Brendon Saunders) is a mix styled, versitile artist with a rep for an abnormal vocabulary. Picking up the mic at 16, he doesnt have the same aspirations as u would hear from a typical rappers or hip hop artists. He does it simply for the "fun" of it. Not taking away from an uncanny knack for the sport and untampered willingness to succeed, $taxx is always ready to push his own lyrical limits and collab with high caliber artists. With rap legend EMINEM as his greatest influence, its no wonder his lyrics are a bit wild and deep rooted at the same time.

Born DC native, but raised in Upper Marlboro, MD $taxx started writing rhymes as a way to make the vast amount of time he spent on punishment into a pleasurable activity. Under the self given name "B.Money" brendon found that writing lyrics came all too easy to him, but developing a sound of his own was a bit more challenging. In his high school days, "B.Money" found his fitting with the MCs of the school. One particular group tightly stitched was the EMP Boyz, which focused highly on lyrical delivery. This is where he was able 2 focus and eventually honed his own skills as an MC.

In 2008 Brendon joined the Marine Corps. After the group was dismantled after highschool, he fell back on making music and focused on a career with the military, but never stopped writing. In November 2009 Brendon ran into a couple other MCs that reminded him of his school crew and they eventually became close. Everyone had something to offer being from different places in the world but its was always him and Kez(Boot Camp Friend) as the main attraction or center of attention. They eventually formed $WAGGENT and "B.Money" was rebirthed into $taxx (name given because of how much money was earned and seemingly always increasing) Finding a nitch between lyrical delivery, club appeal, and versitility, he was able to make a name for himself overseas as one of the top MCs in that area. During shows $taxx would always stand out, matching stage presence and delivery with that of the crowd. Building quite the fanbase $WAGGENT was shaping up 2 become a very powerful team with FAMILY 1st as the motto. Thru the year tough times ensued and dealing with the Marine Corps,BS proved 2 be a hearty adversary which ended in the Family being severed into pieces by one member.. and the eventual destruction of the whole movement after every single member was discharged from the Corps. It Seemed like the end.

Being on his own for so long $taxx struggled to coop with having to come back to his parents residence until he was able to get his own place. The marine corps had left him with little money and a tarnished record which made it hard to find real employment. After two years of being out of the military, $taxx began to write again as a means of escape from depression. He eventually got in touch with old school MCs as well as members of the dismantaled family he built overseas. After getting back in touch with his cousin(Aqiyl Beatz) the two started their own group, as solo artists at the same time. With his cousins ties to a well branded MC in Philidalphia, a new family seemed to be comming out of the union. Cutting off weak links and non serious MCs they were left to themselves as the front runners for the DC quadrent of #STAYWITIT ENT

#$WAGGFAM #STAYWITIT #TEAM$TAXX #DC #DMVMUSIK


Black Reign-Parker Brovas Made up of 2 members of the Baltimore based New Test family (Krym and Mic Jac) and new edition (DaVinci Barz).  Black Reign promises a hard hitting lyrical assault on the eardrums of it's listeners. With a full spectrum of concepts and just for the F#@! of it mc slaughter songs, Black Reign is guaranteed to excite fans of the laid back chill vibe with songs such as "South Beach" as well as the more hardcore fans of the destruction of weak mc's alike. Definitely a well rounded group that never got the recognition they deserved. The Big Bang Theory (1999-2000), By Storm (2001), and The Reign Continues (2002-2003), were three of the best unsigned works of their time! If it's music you're looking for, Black Reign-Parker Brovas is definitely where you will find it. The Reign is Coming (to be released later this year) is set to take the hip hop world "By Storm" as these "Three Kings" take their music to a "Whole 'Nother Level" with a focus on lyrics that is just uncommon in the industry and is another shot in the arm for the sick and dying art of rap.

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