hard to love myself (prod. thornskin.)

lyrics:

yeah we talk a lot
but we dont ever really speak
we fuck a lot
but we dont ever really see eachother no (woah)
bad bitch put her hands on my waist
bad bitch put her hands on my face 
bad bitch caught feelings put me in my place

baby im sick of this shit
kiss your nic more than my lips
like evil within
were bleeding i figured us dead
head filled up w dread
i fuck everything up it happens whatever but i cant get over it
no i cannot
no i cannot 
no i cannot

yeah we talk a lot
but we dont ever really speak
we fuck a lot
but we dont ever really see eachother no (woah)
bad bitch put her hands on my waist
bad bitch put her hands on my face 
bad bitch caught feelings put me in my place

i tried to talk to you
am its like like 5 oclock 
never slept so im exhausted 
weed smoke spittin like fire thats car exhaust
thru the leaves thru the trees thru the fire we faught
rolled sleeves dirty feet
we fight a lot (drugged up fucked up)
we fight a lot

yeah we talk a lot
but we dont ever really speak
we fuck a lot
but we dont ever really see eachother no (woah)
bad bitch put her hands on my waist
bad bitch put her hands on my face 
bad bitch caught feelings put me in my place

fiveoclock (tied for silver x flesh)

produced by ionas

lyrics:

(in case youve failed to realize. the things you hunt. theyre not beasts. theyre people.)

were sad
youre sad im sad
im sad 
were sad youre sad
youre sad
im sad were sad
were sad
youre sad im sad

were sad
youre sad im sad
were dead
your heads my head
you love me
your hands my hand
touch me
tell me you feel that? (x2)

pretty face
its so sad to see
seal my fate
its a tragedy
cant believe 
that this is happening
can you see me? can you hear me?
please come back to me

grinding my teeth, im terrified
finding the truth, im scared to lie
fighting my feelings, but i cannot feel a thing
feel like im, i am not scared to die
because the girl thinks im different
but baby im not different
so why have i been trippin
over some girl who dont miss me

were sad
youre sad im sad
were dead
your heads my head
you love me
your hands my hand
touch me
tell me you feel that?

were sad
youre sad im sad
im sad 
were sad youre sad
youre sad
im sad were sad
were sad
youre sad im sad (x2)

(one day you will see)

pink rose (ionas)

produced by why loner

fun fact thirty below was another name i was considering besides beanie

lyrics:

too busy to pick up your phone
no dont go
its cold its like thirty below
i see purple in my toes
brittle breakin up my bones
baby wait before u go
where u goin dont go

youre frozen cold
its may but i still need a coat
homie askin where the cash at
told him i dont really know
runnin round w my woes steady searching
for a flow fuck a hoe
its getting real chilly go check a temperature is thirty below

check the temperature is thirty below (woah)
i see purple in my toes (its cold)
im spittin this shit off the dome (dont)
where u goin please baby dont go (i know)
you dont love me i promise i do
tantalizing up my mind what you do
criticize me all i wanted was you 
i was a fuck up and hesitant wouldnt make a move aye

thats cold youre bold
im hungry i need a me a bowl
fuck its a struggle just getting some dough
cookie clicker on my phone
just to kill the time all time low last week
almost off myself cuz im broke
on a come up only going lower
but i got yo bitch playin limbo

my heads so unknxwn
my reflection wont show
tick tock yall are on the clock
there aint no one else but my bro
thats there for me
yall better stop now tread carefully 
stop talkin suicide yall scared for me
yall watched me die so carelessly
its not fair for me

youre frozen cold
its may but i still need a coat
homie askin where the cash at
told him i dont really know
runnin round w my woes steady searching
for a flow fuck a hoe
its getting real chilly go check a temperature is thirty below

i am insane i think im insane
blood on my louise v frames
searching for days 
where is my brain woah
she want me dont want her thats crazy
bitch hit my dms like ily hey 
i sent back a smiley face
some positive feedback
it might be the play
but all i can think of is hate
but all i can think of is hurt
but all i can think of is her
sauce on my skin it might burn
i might throw on some ice just to cool down the urn im turning to shovel my ashes away
matter fact yall should banish my ashes from earth
tryn purge the negativity out my mind but im slowly realizing it will never work

youre frozen cold
its may but i still need a coat
homie askin where the cash at
told him i dont really know
runnin round w my woes steady searching
for a flow fuck a hoe
its getting real chilly go check a temperature is thirty below 

youre frozen cold
too busy to pick up your phone
dont go
its cold its like thirty below
i see purple in my toes 
brittle breakin up my bones
baby wait before u go
where u goin dont go

thirty below (why loner)

you will never know my side
ill never let you know the way
i truly feel
the scars you gave
will never heal

you will never know my side
ill never let you know the way
i truly feel
the scars you gave
will never heal

whyd you got me feeling so numb?
i hate doing drugs
yeah they heal me and they kill me
at the same time

my dad told me that I gotta grow up
he didn't realize
that I wanted to be just like him

i said what I had to say
now I'm gonna walk the fuck away
you can put the blame on me for your mistakes
but you can never say that I didn't try

I'm falling
you're broken
this cycle won't end
now watch me through your phone
bb cause im walking away

I'm falling
you're broken
this cycle won't end
now watch me through your phone
bb cause im walking away

you're never gonna understand what I feel
you're never gonna be the one for me
I never understood the way that you act
and I've been waiting here since the day you left

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Grotesque (Prod. Aureola)

Produced by jeweler

Lyrics

I wanna paint all my white walls red
I know you love me, I don't care what you said
I'll always love you, I don't care what you did

You went away, I can't get you back
Fuck moving on, I miss what we had
Out of my mind but you're in my head

I got some evil inside my soul
Don't even ask, I won't let you know
I don't know why I can't let you go

I can't get out, I been stuck in a loop
I need some help, I don't know what to do
You don't see me but I'm noticing you

I wanna cry but my tears all gone
I'm alone, I ain't got no one
Don't say that you cared when I'm dead and long gone
I give in man, this shit ain't fun

I give in man, this shit ain't it
Know I don't need it but I want a sip
I seen it coming, I ain't even gone trip
I just wanna go back but I can't even flip

I wanna paint all my white walls red
I know you love me, I don't care what you said
I'll always love you, I don't care what you did

You went away, I can't get you back
Fuck moving on, I miss what we had
Out of my mind but you're in my head

I got some evil inside my soul
Don't even ask, I won't let you know
I don't know why I can't let you go

I can't get out, I been stuck in a loop
I need some help, I don't know what to do
You don't see me but I'm noticing you

white walls.

injecting morphine

Sorry for being late

Produced by Yami's Sin

Lyrics

Finally cried but I still ain't died, when you left me, girl you ain't tell me why
Fucked my life and I lost my chance, need to leave this world, I don't need more time
Please don't ask why my songs are so sad, I don't know myself, I can't tell you why
Girl I gave you my all and you told me lies, say I don't care at all but you know I'm lying

Tears filling up and they falling, I keep myself from calling you
I need to change but I'm stalling, everything that I did, it was all for you
I'm still in pain no consoleance, I went insane, can't control it
My heart was beautiful but now it's molded, all that I wanted from you was to hold it

Finally cried but I still ain't died, when you left me, girl you ain't tell me why
Fucked my life and I lost my chance, need to leave this world, I don't need more time
Please don't ask why my songs are so sad, I don't know myself, I can't tell you why
Girl I gave you my all and you told me lies, say I don't care at all but you know I'm lying

I love you more than you ever could know, I'm alone, I got nowhere to go
It's my fault, I'm not blaming you, no, I don't know why I can't let you go
I don't know why I do this to myself over and over again, need help
I'll be okay when I kill my...I'll be okay when I kill myself

Already told you in cold, all of this music a note
I'll leave it all before I go and I don't think I'm gonna make no more
I give up, I can't take no more, I don't wanna feel this hate no more
Ken, detmer, garrett, qayin, unknxwn., I don't even know my face no more

Finally cried but I still ain't died, when you left me, girl you ain't tell me why
Fucked my life and I lost my chance, need to leave this world, I don't need more time
Please don't ask why my songs are so sad, I don't know myself, I can't tell you why
Girl I gave you my all and you told me lies, say I don't care at all but you know I'm lying

i give up, i'm sorry.

ØNERIK X DRWKØ X NITTRØN

my heart used to be beautiful now theres mold inside.

Greenworld

THE CREW VVV
SadBoyDrwkø! the Artist
Nitrron the Producer
Ønerik the Editor
RealMax the Street Soldier
Niko the Driver

injecting morphine

SadBoyDrwkø!

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