hard to love myself (prod. thornskin.)

produced by ionas

lyrics:

(in case youve failed to realize. the things you hunt. theyre not beasts. theyre people.)

were sad
youre sad im sad
im sad 
were sad youre sad
youre sad
im sad were sad
were sad
youre sad im sad

were sad
youre sad im sad
were dead
your heads my head
you love me
your hands my hand
touch me
tell me you feel that? (x2)

pretty face
its so sad to see
seal my fate
its a tragedy
cant believe 
that this is happening
can you see me? can you hear me?
please come back to me

grinding my teeth, im terrified
finding the truth, im scared to lie
fighting my feelings, but i cannot feel a thing
feel like im, i am not scared to die
because the girl thinks im different
but baby im not different
so why have i been trippin
over some girl who dont miss me

were sad
youre sad im sad
were dead
your heads my head
you love me
your hands my hand
touch me
tell me you feel that?

were sad
youre sad im sad
im sad 
were sad youre sad
youre sad
im sad were sad
were sad
youre sad im sad (x2)

(one day you will see)

pink rose (ionas)

you will never know my side
ill never let you know the way
i truly feel
the scars you gave
will never heal

you will never know my side
ill never let you know the way
i truly feel
the scars you gave
will never heal

whyd you got me feeling so numb?
i hate doing drugs
yeah they heal me and they kill me
at the same time

my dad told me that I gotta grow up
he didn't realize
that I wanted to be just like him

i said what I had to say
now I'm gonna walk the fuck away
you can put the blame on me for your mistakes
but you can never say that I didn't try

I'm falling
you're broken
this cycle won't end
now watch me through your phone
bb cause im walking away

I'm falling
you're broken
this cycle won't end
now watch me through your phone
bb cause im walking away

you're never gonna understand what I feel
you're never gonna be the one for me
I never understood the way that you act
and I've been waiting here since the day you left

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Grotesque (Prod. Aureola)

Produced by jeweler

Lyrics

I wanna paint all my white walls red
I know you love me, I don't care what you said
I'll always love you, I don't care what you did

You went away, I can't get you back
Fuck moving on, I miss what we had
Out of my mind but you're in my head

I got some evil inside my soul
Don't even ask, I won't let you know
I don't know why I can't let you go

I can't get out, I been stuck in a loop
I need some help, I don't know what to do
You don't see me but I'm noticing you

I wanna cry but my tears all gone
I'm alone, I ain't got no one
Don't say that you cared when I'm dead and long gone
I give in man, this shit ain't fun

I give in man, this shit ain't it
Know I don't need it but I want a sip
I seen it coming, I ain't even gone trip
I just wanna go back but I can't even flip

I wanna paint all my white walls red
I know you love me, I don't care what you said
I'll always love you, I don't care what you did

You went away, I can't get you back
Fuck moving on, I miss what we had
Out of my mind but you're in my head

I got some evil inside my soul
Don't even ask, I won't let you know
I don't know why I can't let you go

I can't get out, I been stuck in a loop
I need some help, I don't know what to do
You don't see me but I'm noticing you

white walls.

injecting morphine

Sorry for being late

Produced by Yami's Sin

Lyrics

Finally cried but I still ain't died, when you left me, girl you ain't tell me why
Fucked my life and I lost my chance, need to leave this world, I don't need more time
Please don't ask why my songs are so sad, I don't know myself, I can't tell you why
Girl I gave you my all and you told me lies, say I don't care at all but you know I'm lying

Tears filling up and they falling, I keep myself from calling you
I need to change but I'm stalling, everything that I did, it was all for you
I'm still in pain no consoleance, I went insane, can't control it
My heart was beautiful but now it's molded, all that I wanted from you was to hold it

Finally cried but I still ain't died, when you left me, girl you ain't tell me why
Fucked my life and I lost my chance, need to leave this world, I don't need more time
Please don't ask why my songs are so sad, I don't know myself, I can't tell you why
Girl I gave you my all and you told me lies, say I don't care at all but you know I'm lying

I love you more than you ever could know, I'm alone, I got nowhere to go
It's my fault, I'm not blaming you, no, I don't know why I can't let you go
I don't know why I do this to myself over and over again, need help
I'll be okay when I kill my...I'll be okay when I kill myself

Already told you in cold, all of this music a note
I'll leave it all before I go and I don't think I'm gonna make no more
I give up, I can't take no more, I don't wanna feel this hate no more
Ken, detmer, garrett, qayin, unknxwn., I don't even know my face no more

Finally cried but I still ain't died, when you left me, girl you ain't tell me why
Fucked my life and I lost my chance, need to leave this world, I don't need more time
Please don't ask why my songs are so sad, I don't know myself, I can't tell you why
Girl I gave you my all and you told me lies, say I don't care at all but you know I'm lying

i give up, i'm sorry.

ØNERIK X DRWKØ X NITTRØN

Lyrics

I been walking this earth for 25 years and I still feel lost
I'm fucking pitiful, I still don't know how to open up, sit here and talk to my thoughts
I kind of thought by now I would figure it out and I still ain't figured it
I know something that you don't know, I know something that I can not tell you about

All I can say is watch what I say, protect all of your ear and eye gates
Heard what I said, you can do what you will, it ain't my fault if you don't escape
And just know the farther you go, the farther it is to get back to your home
It still hurts inside my chest even if I don't let you know

I say inside of my chest cause I don't have a heart, that girl took it apart
Won't ever be put together again, won't be better again, to be hurt is my part
Space I'm wasting, I can't take this, fuck this life, I wake up and I hate it
Say I don't care but you know that I'm faking, know it's been years but your love I'm still chasing

If your love was a liquor, wouldn't chase it, your love is bitter, I still wanna taste it
Keeping these thoughts in the basement so I don't have to go down there and face it
If I face it I'd have to go end it and I just wanna keep on pretending
Cause that's all I have and that's all I will if you never come back

I been walking this earth for 25 years and I still feel lost
I'm fucking pitiful, I still don't know how to open up, sit here and talk to my thoughts
I kind of thought by now I would figure it out and I still ain't figured it
I know something that you don't know, I know something that I can not tell you about

All I can say is watch what I say, protect all of your ear and eye gates
Heard what I said, you can do what you will, it ain't my fault if you don't escape
And just know the farther you go, the farther it is to get back to your home
It still hurts inside my chest even if I don't let you know

Even if I don't let you know
Even if I don't let you go
Even if I don't let you see
Everything that you did to me
Even if I don't let you know
Even if I don't let you go

XXV. adorer.

my heart used to be beautiful now theres mold inside.

Greenworld

THE CREW VVV
SadBoyDrwkø! the Artist
Nitrron the Producer
Ønerik the Editor
RealMax the Street Soldier
Niko the Driver