How bad do you want it?

Stay hard.

Do the hard work especially when you don’t feel like it.

Love yall

Thank you God for your strength , guidance, wisdom and love. 

Everything I do is for the love of God and my future wife, sons and daughter. 

I pray for Gods strength because I have felt so weak so many times .

I pray for love because of the hate I have felt for myself and my failures . 

I pray for guidance because I feel so lost at time . 

I pray for wisdom because of my foolishness and short sighted decisions I made before I found God and Christ .

Thank you Jesus’s for dying for our sins .  

I work too show God how much he means to me and to show him how badly I want to hold the women who cares about me ,the way I care for her.

Although I’v gone through many different trials and tribulations throughout out my lifetime. I hope to come out a stronger , better man for my future children and my wife . 

You might see this , you might not but everything I have done for the last couples years have all been in the name of love . 

I have struggled with wanting to exit this life at times but God , Jesus and that vision of being able to hold her, the one I see in my dreams, she is so sweet , loving , caring , a great mother and a better wife and the meditation of her keep me going. Attacking every difficulty no matter the pain it causes me with discipline and not straining away from the path because they mean more to me than anything that would stray me away from them.

When I close my eyes I see my sons running into my arms and holding my daughter while having my beautiful wife to the left me . I see the house, the car I own and motorcycles I will someday teach my kids to work on. 

Everything I do is to make that vision come true no amount of pain, no thoughts , no acts of lust could take me away from them.

I have made so many sacrifices to make this vision come true and I will work endlessly day and night seven days a week 365 days a year to make sure I can take care of you . 

I do not drink , I do not smoke, I don’t party, club, no lustful acts , I refuse to make short side decisions because of how much I want that long term goal to happen. ￼

Maybe one day she’ll see the car I drive, the house I own , the body that I have, the spirit  I carry to bring those around up , the kindness , understanding for others, the strength to never falter for those I love and she might think it was given to me, but I worked endlessly to put myself in a position so that maybe just maybe she might look at my with a small amount of adoration that I see in my dreams, meditation and visions

Until that vision comes true, I will continue to study , read ,meditate, train,eat the food I need to eat,surround myself with those who are like-minded with morale compasses and continue to work and to put myself in a position maybe someday where I can preach what God has done for me and show the wisdom Jesus left for us. 

I have overcame a lot, but I’ve still need more things to overcome so my friends I want you to stay strong minded,  to have Gods guidance, to have love in your heart to those who hate you and to have the wisdom to do the things you know you need to do and to make decisions based accordingly off that long-term goal anything that strains away from that , do not do it .

There’s much noise in this world , tune it out. Find the good inputs so you may have good outputs ,read the books of great men,read the Bible ,meditate, eat clean food,surround yourself with good people and understand that what you’re going through millions of others have gone through . 
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I hope to see some of you in the kingdom of heaven ,God please forgive my sins . 

I love you God I love you Jesus and I love you to that woman that I have seen in my dreams , to the children I have yet to birth to the daughter I have yet to hold. I love you more than anything and no amount of pain,discomfort, thoughts ,will stop me from getting closer to that vision of you.

My will remain and has been strong because of you so thank you.

Thank you 2 all those who make audios on here!

How bad do you want it?

dusk