As funny and desolate it'd be to leave this blank I feel like I should write despite having nothing more to share really. I am really reaching some sort of end.. Knowing 3-4 hours of each day are now dedicated to addressing a problem should be more exciting. I can't stop saying sluuuuut. Just like that. :/ I wish I was more of a fat shlluuuut.  :/ :/ I am so repressed in so many ways. What is exciting is the thought of a future where I can be free in many ways. Listen to music slowly and emotionally, to eat gratifyingly. To make music, to play, read, sing.. Maybe the desire itself proves this isn't the end.
Also made it a point to listen to less electronic this month. ChallengeSucceeded?

May 13th EDM relapse

May 22 As I head to the end of the tunnel. 
I love being a teen and I love my friends and I can unapologetically love EDM and I love movement and I love the sun and I love to breathe and I love a good smoke in moderation and I feel like I am reaching a strange conclusion but only finite like an end of a chapter as another window opens I don't climb out to kill myself but to fly like the angels that once scooped me up when I was low. I reflect upon my interests in my teenage years and see how I've morphed and I feel nostalgic, satisfied, full of wonder instead of unease at the incongruencies. I feel as if I have exhausted dissecting how-have-I-changed and am taking a more passive approach of curiosity at how-will-i-change. Passive not lacking in investment but a necessary cut in cerebral labor. For the better. Not Kamikaze not nihilism not senseless consumerism, pleasure, ecstasy, satisfaction, slowly experiencing, existing, savoring, living. Because complacency can be contentment. Small is big and I grow every day. I can't wait to keep being me.

MaaAY ‘23

"𝙻𝚎𝚝'𝚜 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝙻𝚊𝚒𝚗." 𝚝𝚢𝚙𝚊 𝚙𝚕𝚊𝚢𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚝

why are you crying lain?

inspired from c3ntip3de on tiktok. they made a lain edit and I wanted to make a full version of it 

never.. lain audio full.mp3

Serial Experiments Lain - #04 Mist of a Different Dimension

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Sea Swallow Me

stolen off of https://youtu.be/HrHrPmrXTgQ if they want me to take this down i will
Ok, lets see, I guess that im confused again, am i here or am i there? Is that right? 
But where is the real me after all is said and done? 
Oh.
There is no real me, I guess that's it.


sped up serial experiments lain shadows by pastel ghost speed up

"Where is the real me after all is said and done?" Serial experiments lain x shadows pastel ghost

remix of icarus iv by @xaev 
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icarus iv ft. cmten (xaev remix)

my arms again!!

visualizer - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=evKSwyMAYy8

my arms again

a summer bop for you babies
feat. Isabella Lovestory
prod. by Paul Maxwell
xoxo

Sunnyside (feat. Isabella Lovestory) [prod. Paul Maxwell]

BO Y

Sircles

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I post audios that do not belong to me, I make sure to add the artists names in the title.
posting frequently now

Serial Experiments Lain - #04 Mist of a Different Dimension

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