Apple cores unholy chores i have to raise my voice to speak
My thoughts got bad i dropped the bag with eggshells cracked i know i lack all that u need i cannot breathe my lungs r filled with smoke from trees so u tell me i need to leave
And i did
And now im wondrin how

How i even got this far
Got sympathy for all ur scars
Running circles bowing down
But im still fucking wondering how

Broken bones and heart shaped stones
They block my road the way to home
The hedges trimmed the blades just skimmed
Above my head i lay in bed
The ceiling stares into my soul
I didn't wanna have to go
U forced my hand
And we've found land
But now im scared
And still wondering how

How i even got this far
Got sympathy for all ur scars
I'm running circles bowing down
But im still fucking wondering how
And im still fucking wondering how
And im still fucking wondering how

How i even got this far
Got sympathy for all ur scars
I'm running circles bowing down
But im still fucking wondering how

The snow will stick upon the ground
The sky got dark from all the clouds
It's getting cold i say out loud
That im still fucking wonderin how

Wondering how

Woke up in a pool of sweat
Told me I haven't paid my debt
Mommy said I shouldn't fret
I'll probably go and pass this test
Realize what's before my eyes
Soundly take off my disguise
Funny how I didn't know
But it felt like I loved you so

The pictures hanging on my walls
Always reminded me of fall
The colors had specific sounds
Couldn't tell when I looked around

How am I the bigger one?
When I never took out my gun
And played along to all your games
But never really felt the same
I took your word and ran with it
But now it's time to call a quits
I'm tired and I'm bored of this
Like paint on walls, the way it sits

The sun sets on my day, I cry
The tears flowing from my eyes
My thoughts keep getting worse and worse
The Xanax I put in your purse
Might kill me, but I will not hurt
Meaningful, but just hearing words
Drift off to another place
Might be nice, but another day

How are you so hyperfocused?
Buzzing in my ears, the locusts
Eat my flesh and beg for more
Don't really know what's left in store
Someone's taking over now
So can you help me figure out?
Like, what I did? The cherry pits
All crushed around me, what is this?

And how am I the bigger one?
When I never took out my gun
And played along to all your games
But never really felt the same
I took your word and ran with it
But now it's time to call a quits
I'm tired and I'm bored of this
Like paint on walls, the way it sits

Paint

Expert In A Dying Field

the record

Not Strong Enough

St. Charles Square

CORPSE x Bring Me The Horizon

Burn me out like cuts
Fade out when Centralia does
Nostrils offa dust
Or like veins too many needles touch

If pain is beauty, im a pretty bitch
Got too quiet now they're whispering

If you blink then you might miss it
Every hour is a week
I dont need sympathetics
I just need some room to breathe
Do not fucking talk to me
My genetics got me tweaked
Running from myself
I cant blame em' when they leave

Time, slips
A, way
Burn, out
Dont, fade
Dance, on, my, grave

I will never be them
I will never be them
I will never be them
I will never be them
I will never be them

My mind is a mosh pit
Think i might've lost it
Starting to believe there's only one way i can stop this

If pain is beauty, im a guillotine
You bring the match, ill bring the kerosene

Let the gabapentin set in, suffocate me in my sleep
Adderall to wake up, omeprazole to eat
Do not fucking look at me, paranoia got me peeved
They say they want to help, but they always fucking leave 

Leave me by myself
Leave me DND
Leave me in the dark
Leave me with these things

Tell me that you love me, i know all your talk is cheap
Baby, im a code mistake, i was never meant to be

(CORPSE)

Time, slips
A, way
Burn, out
Dont, fade
Dance, on, my, grave (burn out)

I will never be them (I will never be them)
I will never be them (I will never be them)
I will never be them (I will never be them)
I will never be them (I will never be them)
I will never be them

I will never be them


I will always be a
Code mistake

CODE MISTAKE

GUTS

vampire

MADNESS - 7:9:24, 10.22 PM

Jack Stauber - https://www.youtube.com/user/JackStauber

Coffee - https://youtu.be/EEutCeS5B38

Coffee - Jack Stauber

cause
I can't do shit right, I can't learn my lesson
i can't do shit right, take anti-depressants
illness and welfare robbed my adolescence
my friends probably hate me, can't answer a message

filled with anxiety, always be hidin me
feeling inadequate's always what's driving me
not a role-model, that's not what i strive to be
Can't go outside, i'm afraid they be finding me

paranoid bout my privacy

and they always asking questions bout my face, can't relate
Fuckin caught my own reflection, broke a mirror the other day
Got alotta bad shit that I'm taking to my grave 
Got a fuckin date with death, on house arrest till trial date

so I grab the red wine on rainy days and then i pour it
cause i'll age another fuckin thousand days before I know it
yeah I'll spend em all inside, waste my time while i'm scrollin 
but I love when it rains, cause i'm agoraphobic

i'm not okay
what's the point




prod. Heartful

MADNESS - 7:9:24, 10.22 PM

[Moth Rat]

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