my head
is all over the place
its not getting better

i cant
seem to make a change
ill be like this forever

23
whole years i
feel retarded all the time

any longer im confined
im gonna lose my god damn mind

staring at the words again 
i cant make sense of anything 
all i see is static in my brain 
need a way to end the pain
id give the whole world to be
a normal boy eventually
instead im rotting to the core
i cant take it anymore

breakdowns
from anxiety 
i hate being alone

wasting all 
my energy 
staring at my phone

cant focus
for 2 minutes
even if i try

yet another day goes by 
and im still here but i wanna die

staring at the words again 
i cant make sense of anything 
all i see is static in my brain 
need a way to end the pain
id give the whole world to be
a normal boy eventually
instead im rotting to the core
i cant take it anymore

out to lunch

Play Through The Pain (Negative XP Cover)

All fucked up now
I’m lying on the ground 
Gone without a sound 
I’ll take my life no doubt 
Hate myself now 
I’m lying on the ground 
No point in trying now 
I’ll end my life life no doubt 

It’s been like this forever 
I want to fucking die
It’s never gotten better 
Don’t have the balls to try
Shoot me with a shotgun 
Drain my fucking life 
I don’t even care anymore 
Fuck my fucking life

No Doubt

demos n shit from twitter, my laptop, etc.

its never enough

junk

edgelord

i've been spending so much time
doing nothing in my room
tryna rhyme a better line
so i can win and you can lose

till someone came along and said
theres thousands just like you
you'll never be a star
you'll never even reach the mooN
you don't know what you're doing
you don't even have a clue
well thats the difference
i dont know, and you seem like you do
so fuck you

lalalalalallalala
oooooo

theres too much going on
i cant keep track of right and wrong
too many people said so long
i haven't processed that they're gone

i don't want anything to do
with anything involving you
i dont care about your new lover
cause you just text me the same thing(the same thing!)
from different numbers (different numbers!)

i dont care if i die drunk
 I dont care if i die young
 i dont care about your wants
i dont care cause i forgot
  i dont care the smallest bit
cause nobody gave the slightest shit
when i just needed someones hand to hold
well lets just say while i was waiting my heart got cold

lalalalal(harmonica+kazoo solo)alallaaooooolala

Afterparty

Elementary

i dont wanna see you at my door
I dont wanna see you anymore
i want to go somewhere far, far away

i dont wanna see your ugly face
or even roast your flesh on a fireplace
i just want to leave, leave this awful place

you think that your funny
because you don’t love me
well i’m one to know a blessing in disguise

i think that its lovely
that you say you love me
i’d rather die, then believe that lie
so go to hell, i’ll see you there goodbye

i dont wanna breathe, i dont wanna see
another love story embarass me
but its all for you,
i thought you knew
but im just rubber
on your leather shoe
you dont know what your doing
biting more then what you’re chewing
if you leave me then i blew it
thats right i already knew it
when you first walked in
i must have forgotten
that everyone is rotten
cause i got up and i got it quick
yeah

you think that you’re funny
you push and you shove me
but when i walk away you cry
i think its funny
you think you’re above me
and i really don’t get why

i dont wanna see you even try
you can’t hide, when your cars outside
just send another pizza to my house

when i had no where to go, and no where to run
you knock on the door, with a mask and a gun 
and say die or come with me and be my spouse

Reverse Cowboy

A Punk Song

im sorry i cant be the one to help
i cant trust you i cant even trust myself
and im just so afraid to speak my mind
i dont why im anxious all the time

the sun will always rise in the east
im grouped up with the weirdos and the freaks
i dont want die unfulfilled
there's a ghost from long ago on the windowsill

Porcelain

so full of sorrow
its a test of my faith
cant picture a tomorrow
cant handle the wait
dont look at me
i dont really like the attention
and i dont want or need
anymore teenage depression
in my life
and i wont lie
im dying inside
but boys dont cry

questioning God's plan
fill my heart with knives
its a teenage wasteland
what a time to be alive
intake propaganda
and dehumanize
yell out like a child
until help arrives

same shit different day
takes a toll on me
and i will always say
happiness will come eventually
but nothing
is guaranteed
for you
or for me

and boys dont cry
its a bad thing to do
boys dont cry
whats wrong with you

on a summer's day
with cicada hums
thinking about the man
i'll become
wondering about
life after death
and how i'll spend
my last breath

dont cry
boys dont cry
so i wont
i'll keep it all inside

Boys Don't Cry

cover art by @halfperfection on instagram

you're fed up with the world
looked up how to tie a noose
you're a child of the devil
and a victim of abuse
but that's okay because
i think that im a lot like you
i have my flaws and regrets
im imperfect too

when the knives start to rust
it will all return to dust

the streets are just echoes of fallen greatness
where the young and naive go to meet the faithless
passed out on trains that are going nowhere
baptized by fire in holy warfare

the flames of the underworld
are hotter than you think
the bodies of the damned 
perpetually stink
you're a product of your environment
so please dont blame yourself
but there's no point in blaming anybody else

you're obsessed with the moon
salvation wont be coming soon

strange ceremonies and blood rituals
evil black magic and dark crystals
pagans and witchcraft are your only hope
theres so many things you'll never know

songs of birds echo through my room at night
ballerinas made of glass await me in daylight
songs of birds echo through my room at night
ballerinas made of glass await me in daylight

i died long ago because i killed myself trying to rebel
and im sorry but im already so far gone i cant love anyone

Wicca Kids

Blowing My head off

I’m Sorry That I Blew My Brains Out Across The Room

i was raised by a place
ive been on since i was eight
or maybe 9, the internet,
sat online, on the world wide web

everything i've ever seen
ever learnt, its from a screen
and who i am today
was influenced by the way
i was raised on the World Wide Web
raised by the Internet

raised by the World Wide Web
don't have any real life friends
mind melted by the internet
World Wide Web

i was raised online
i was raised online
maybe that is why
i came out behind
all the other kids
all cause i had unrestricted
access to the internet

knowledge at my fingertips
and everything that any kid
really shouldn't be seeing when
he's browsing at the age of ten
terrorist beheadings
and anything with death in it
propaganda, fucking goatse
i came out so fucking lonely

raised by the World Wide Web
im anxious with every breath
cause i was raised by the world wide web
World Wide Web

Raised By The World Wide Web

can't even read a book
my head's too cooked 

not even if i tried
my brain's too fried

a slave to dopamine
a flesh machine

a short attention span
blame instagram

i'm just an addict
need my kicks, it's sick

can't even watch tv
must see my screen

i'm just dead inside
can't cry (i've tried)

i only laugh at memes
living the dream

prison
my laptop's a prison 
my cell phone's a prison
my pc's a prison
please let me out
 
rectangular prison 
liquid crystal prison
silicon prison
and i can't get out

my phone is a prison 
they're all fucking prisons
give me parole
and let me out
 
i don't get a lawyer
i don't get a trial
i get 20 to life
and i can't get out

what keeps me up at night 
my phone's blue light

i hold it my hand 
just to fall asleep

it makes me feel secure
stockholm syndrome

just waiting for the bell
the buzz, the beep

like a parasite
i live on bytes

i see red thing i click
to get my fix

"it makes you satisfied",
they said (they lied)

refresh the page again
might change, must check

prison
my laptop's a prison 
my cell phone's a prison
my pc's a prison
please let me out
 
rectangular prison 
liquid crystal prison
silicon prison
and i can't get out

my phone is a prison 
they're all fucking prisons
give me parole
and let me out
 
i don't get a lawyer
i don't get a trial
i got 20 to life...

just one shot at life
i guess i lose

i'm playing a game 
i did not choose

stuck here in my cell
a living hell

the devil is a dell
samsung
intel

rectangular prison

Rectangular Prison

christmas special song

Lyrics:

I spent a long time finding you things 
Things to give
Things to gift

I spent a long time wrapping
A long time packing
A long time bagging 

But you didn’t give me a chance
Not even letting me know in advance

Fuck this Christmas shit 
If I had the chance
To give you anything
You wouldn’t like my gift
I know you wouldn’t even open it
 Fuck this Christmas shit
I’d give your door a thousands knocks
Even if you just got me socks
In cute little red green box
Fuck this Christmas shit
(oooo)

I’ll buy you what you like
Your wants are mine I'm your guy
 I’ll buy you places to cry
I’ll buy you a really good life

I can't take it you use me
Up like im a toy
But im alive like its a story
I don't have any more
To give you little girl
i’ve already bought you the whole world
I let you do this
I let this happen

Fuck this Christmas shit
You could call me a grinch
Because you were a bitch
You caused conflict
All this hatred emits
Fuck this Christmas shit
Soon as time rolls around
You’ll have a big old Christmas frown
You made me look like unfunny clown
 Fuck you Christmas bitch

I spent a long time finding you things 
Things to give
Things to gift
(Fuck you christmas bitch)
I spent a long time wrapping
A long time packing
A long time bagging 
(Fuck you christmas bitch)

Christmas Shit

Feeling burnt out and feeling so bad
I try to do stuff but I give up so fast
I want to progress and I want success
But it's hard to do that when I'm always so stressed

There's nowhere I want to go
There's nothing I want to see
There's nothing I want to do except crash my car into a tree

I'm so bored and life's not fun now
I hate everything and I'm so burnt out
I'm so bored and my life sucks now
I just want to lay down and cry my eyes out

Feeling so numb and feeling so dead
I want to enjoy the things I like again
But I'm messed up and everything hurts
I'm starting to think things only get worse

There's nowhere I want to go
There's nothing I want to see
There's nothing I want to do except crash my car into a tree

I'm so bored and life's not fun now
I hate everything and I'm so burnt out
I'm so bored and my life sucks now
I just want to lay down and cry my eyes out now

Burnt Out

You're always telling me
That nothing's wrong
You're always telling me
That I should just get a job
But I know that won't help
'Cause nothing does
And after 18 years
Some things can't be undone

There's no point
There's no point
Losing feeling
Feeling no joy

Can't seem to find a purpose
Just living to survive
I'll never be anything
'Cause there's nothing that I like
I'm losing motivation
I'm starting not to care
I can't feel anything
Except anger and despair

There's no point
There's no point
Losing feeling
Feeling no joy

No Point

lyric:
its too early
early
early
its too early
early, early

i cant think right
taking out a loan
taking out my life
tied off your knot
taking out patrol
taking out my knife, alright

i cant think right
taking out a loan
taking out my life
tied off your knot
taking out patrol
taking out my knife alright

its a big dumb world
its a big dumb world
you can die if you prefer
you can die if you prefer
its a big dumb world
its a big dumb world
you can die if you prefer
you can die if you prefer

i cant think right
taking out a loan
taking out my life
tied off your knot
taking out patrol
taking out my knife

its a big dumb world
its a big dumb world
you can die if you prefer
you can die if you prefer
its a big dumb world
its a big dumb world
you can die if you prefer
you can die if you prefer

its a big dumb world
its a big dumb world
you can die if you prefer
you can die if you prefer
its a big dumb world
its a big dumb world
you can die if you prefer
you can die if you prefer

MSG

Euclid