paranoia embodied & the constant fear I'll be left alone 4eva <3
Lyrics:
I watch a movie and it changes how I feel about you.
I go to therapy and say the things you want/need/have to hear.
I cut my honesty up into pieces hoping/just so you can eat it.

Eat it.

I made a promise but I broke it when i started talking.
I had a baby but the doctor wouldn't let me see.
I watch the back seat of my car because I think someone's trying to kill me.

Kill me.

doctor

the Devils name is Daisy

is that delusion baby?

this song could be about jesus or anyone special in yor life that reminds you of him

i don't mind when you go home
just means that i get to hang out
with my best bro

we met a long long time ago
we stopped being friends for a minute
but i know him inside my soul

jesus & me
we're watching tv on my computer
jesus & me
we're turning coffee into wine
and turning wine into water

we're making friendship rosaries
i'm washing his hair
with my feet

a week ago we healed the blind
he had a hockey mask on
so i guess he could see just fine

jesus & me
we're watching tv on my computer
jesus & me
we're turning coffee into wine
and turning wine into water

jesus & me - demo

SHE DON'T LOVE ME (FEAT. WICCAPHASE)(PROD. BIG BREAKFAST)

døves & Wicca Phase Springs Eternal - Kill Me (prod. Nedarb Nagrom)

In all one's born days I've never felt a love like mine and hers...

IN ALL ONE'S BORN DAYS

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Stefanie was one of the first people that I have felt safe to be myself around. I still remember the first time we really talked, she was the first person on the cross country team to give me a chance, and from that moment on she was the big me and I was the small her. There are so many still moments that I remember with her....
it was a day I wish I could bottle up and drink when I miss her. The sky was so blue and we were on the way to practice. Listening to Lorde and looking out the window as my hand soared in the breeze, everything was still and good. I felt so happy and safe and her energy next to mine balanced my world. Her smile was infectious, her energy contagious, her attitude so chaotic and peaceful at the same time. I still remember the last time I saw her and said goodbye to her, and I am so grateful for that moment. She forgot her cat card upstairs and I brought it down to her and we held each other in our final embrace. She was more than a friend to me, she was a sister and always will be. 
when she died I shattered into a million pieces. everything hurt so badly until it didn't and the world went gray. I thought I would never come out of that grief. Its been five years and December seventh and the days following are still hard. I think about her all the time, but these days bring forward my feelings about her death. I ask her to be my dj on Spotify because music was our true connection. 
This song, like most, is inspired and driven why Stefanie Martin, the bright yellow spirit that follows me around and laughs when I fall out of bed and helps me remember to not take myself too seriously. I love her, I love her, I love her.

december 7th

wrote this before everything went to shit now it's all i've got. hope it makes you smile.

the Devils name is Daisy

SAGUARO SWAMP