these are songs i lost the original projects for, these are the only versions that exist of these songs until i remake them, i hope you enjoy <3

[demos]

It has been raining a lot recently, and i have been listening to a lot of jazz, mostly leaving it as background noise for when i am relaxing. To say that I've always had an appreciation for jazz is an understatement, I've always wanted to make a song like this, so when it all came together i was excited. Even so, i must admit that my knowledge of the genre isn't as thorough as i'd like it to be.

This song was made as a challenge to myself using all stock fl plugins, which came a bit easily since i already use a lot of fl's stock material in most of my works. It was created on July 2 and mastered 30 minutes ago.  I hope you enjoy it as much as i did making it. Thank you for your support.

Sleeplessness

this song is over a year old so sorry if the mix is a bit weird but so glad i could finally share this <3
https://soundcloud.com/devine-gorman-1
https://soundcloud.com/mccymusic


Love to me is scary
Because to me it varies
Can't choose who to marry
When you all are temporary
You on top like cherry
Head in my shoulder buried
Yet it's temporary
Love to me is scary

I do not know how to feel
When my head's just been going thru reels
Clips that just play through my mind
I promised you I would try (Yeah I promised)

I could never say goodbye
I'd rather start a brand new life
I wish that we could compromise
But now we only criticize
Sometimes I just wish I could be on my own
But what keeps me creating is not being alone

And I know by now past peers think of me as failure
Only know me thru my past bad behavior
Wish I could take back the love that I gave her
At least it made me look at times I should savor

I wish I could take back the love that I gave him
My heart's been abandoned my soul has been vacant for years
Shaking out here got to stay patient out here
But I know sometimes it's hard
I try to see the bigger picture but you just kept painting lies
Tried to take a better road your traffic stopped me on the side
Cautiously watching my heart skipping
And if you love me like you say you did
Then why'd you take your arms off me?

Tried to take a better road your traffic stopped me on the side
Cautiously watching my heart skipping
And if you love me like you say you did
Then why'd you take your arms off me?

Me, now I can finally see
Now I can finally leave
Now I can finally breathe, breathe
I knew you was lying to me
Sleep with admire to me
Don't try to deny it i'm tired of fighting
But why is you crying when i'm the one trying with you
With you, with you
Would you like it if I did the things that you did to me?
I'm through, i'm through, i'm through
Why the hell you coming back?
Boy it ain't no sense in that at all

Love to me is scary
Because to me it varies
Can't choose who to marry
When you all are temporary
You on top like cherry
Head in my shoulder buried
Yet it's temporary
Love to me is scary

Lovesick w/ Devine Jazz’Enay & Sha'Lena McCoy (Kira)

prod me

this shit dont shit dont matter cus we'v been thru this
this shit dont shit dont matter cus we'v been thru this

cus i know i hate you you hate me
roaches on wall
ash tray on side
i smoke that shit when you are gone
and i am left with all the mess that we made

it falls apart when i see you making out with your boyfriend across the rooms
(does he know? does he know? does he know?)

does he know i know you longer than that bitch
and i can treat you better
(i can be, i can be, i can be,)

well i can be whatever you want
a man or a woman it doesnt matter as long im with u
(whatever you want a man or a woman it doesnt matter)

bomb for a head, ill bite off your tounge n confess on my love, and ramble on how much i love you
(ill bite off your tounge n confess on my love, and ramble on how much i love you )

i love you but that shit is past tense
now im broken now that shit is present
money getter but i do get no love
money getter but living thru life's tough

i love you but that shit is past tense
now im broken now that shit is present
money getter but i do get no love
money getter but living thru life's tough

past tense

Back ~..
Prod. by: @bigmamaxis @touchthwsky @ayomercy
Beat link: https://youtu.be/a18BDPXwlDE?si=lQuMz9EjEhfuYwJl

" this is my bloody gruesome valentine babe ~ "

+++++
Lyrics

there's nothing i could do to ever clear these thoughts i've got for so long
you've been playing with my past
there's a spell that you cast right at my soul
how did you get my address? not impressed girl
leave me alone
looking at the mirror i can see your reflection staring 
all these time
i ain't blind to this
she looks so pretty but her love is sick
got a grip on me like Velcro slip
been here pretending like i'm under her ways
red on my lips i recognize the blood taste
when i drank in the potion she got a smile on her face
losing my senses, i'm fading away
you've cast your spell, now i can't escape

i felt your love hurt
you said it's fine but i can see the lies lurk
but you pretend like it was never your fault
it's clear up on your face your love is genuine but lost
and you truly believe that i'm the one 
that you can control
it was one time, but now you really gotta let go
now i'm pretending
i do love you, just to get home
listen, love, to me
cuz i know it's not love
you're just hurting me
crazy you don't believe
it's clear that you're lost in your ecstasy
staring in the eyes, so anxiously
so voraciously consume me
never separated, now i'm in too deep
she's taken all my free will now i can't even blink

you became obsessed to the taste of my blood
that's what you need
red on the floor, now i'm lost to the world
just watch me bleed
chelsea grin, got cuts to the shin, hugs while i writhe
then you carve a rune on my neck
should've known you were a witch! ++

- Kobain
+++++++++++++++++

thebigquestionishowdidyoulearnwitchcraft? + prod. by bigmamaxis + ayomercy x touchthwsky

[MM EXCLUSIVE] Hibradn - Cosmo And Wanda (Prod. rookstr)

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Written: Hibradn

Lyrics by: Hibradn

Cover: Hibradn

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[MM EXCLUSIVE] Hibradn - Cosmo And Wanda (Prod. rookstr)

Prod. By Benji stk

I remember that day like it was yesterday 
You was in that dress with the sunset 
Got everything planned from the last weeks
Heart was beating out of my chest 

After all that building up 
God I want that feeling to last 
Looks like I’ve out ran my luck
How did it all switch up so fast 

Lately 
Life’s been feeling hazy 
Gut startin to hate me 
I don’t know what to think no more

Shaking 
Mood is what I’m faking
Shit is what I’m taking 
Leave a message at the tone 

No show
No go 
But the show must go on

No show
No go 
Gotta carry on 

Petals fall from the flower on my chest 
As I sat in back of the car of my friends
You probably know all of the rest
At the time thought it was right for the night to just end 

As I walked throughout the crowd
I lost sense of what was and was now 
Now I can get off my pedestal 
Almost knew wut it was like to have it all

After all that building up 
God I want that feeling to last 
Looks like I’ve out ran my luck
How did it all switch up so fast 

Lately 
Life’s been feeling hazy 
Gut startin to hate me 
I don’t know what to think no more

Shaking 
Mood is what I’m faking
Shit is what I’m taking 
Leave a message at the tone 
 
No show
No go  
But the show must go on

No show
No go 
Gotta carry on

No Show

Formula (NULLPVTH REMIX)

well baby
i don’t think
that you really loved me
your actions
don’t match up
with any word you say
you kiss me
then ghost me
and throw me away
what’s the point if
you know that
you’ll fold in a day but

i don’t know who you are
just a phantom in my car

and now my heart is haunted
you know what you started
why did you give me this pain?

through ghost trails and mirrors
i kept all our pictures
you cut me right down to the vein

i know its easy to get out of bed
but it’s so hard to do
when you’re lost in your head
all the memories flowing
the false hope you’re holding
the sadness and loathing
you know they’re controlling you

so let’s talk this out
what you worried about?
why you shrouded by doubt?
yet every convo goes south

you deserved better
and i knew that
and i will
let you go
with hands so cold
i know that falling down
is what life is all about

you didn’t want anything
when i wanted everything
i know it’s a fantasy
i just wanted family
but
i can’t believe you would quit
all of the lies that you spit

i know what you did
don’t do it again
right on the edge
i can’t see my friends anymore
the joke is out the door

and left me feeling so incomplete

i know it’s easy to get out of bed
but it’s so hard to do
when you’re lost in your head
all the memories flowing
the false hope you’re holding
the sadness and loathing
you know they’re controlling you

incomplete [demo]

i love you
but only at your best
it’s getting harder to find myself and
i can’t tell but this just might be a test
and if it gets any worse
you should lay it to rest and

tell me if it gets too hard
cause i’ll be right there
avoiding blank stares
did you ever care
about the things we shared?

i’ll tell you a joke
and then say i’m sorry
i don’t wanna feel lost
and i don’t wanna be lonely
i just wanna be different
than the boys before me

you know
that i’m low
disposed of
and used up
it can’t be helped
you’re wasting time
don’t try to fix me
it’s not worth the climb

i’ll be fine
i’ll be fine again

and now you’re always stressed
getting depressed again
wish i could take it all
the pain you felt back then

i’ll love you always, dear
you’ve been away for years
but when you need someone
please know that i’ll be here
know that i’ll be here
know that i’ll be here
know that i’ll be here

i'll be here [demo]

my thoughts are like oceans
they drown me in waves
all these fucking pills don’t help
i still don’t feel a thing

i gave you everything you
just left me in the rain
i guess the feelings died off
i guess the seasons changed

i know it’s hard to breathe but
i’ll be your oxygen
and when your wounds need to heal
i’ll be your medicine
and i’ll stand right by your side
until the bitter end
you said oh boy please just stay away

i realize now that
i should just be honest with myself
just try to hear me out
i don’t want anyone else
you said you wanna be
around to see me submit
but you’ll never catch me giving in
so i guess this is it

i think it’s harder now
i think it’s harder now
i think it’s harder now to breathe
than it used to be 
i think it’s harder now
i think it’s harder now 

i know it’s hard to breathe but
i’ll be your oxygen
and when your wounds need to heal
i’ll be your medicine
and i’ll stand right by your side
until the bitter end
you said oh boy please just stay away

medicine [demo]

i just wanna be enough for someone else out there
staying up all night while i’m playing with her hair
i’d be lying if i said that i was never even scared
gave you every piece of me and now i’m everywhere

would you tell me girl
could i be your everything?
no i could never be your anything
tonight i’ll give you everything

search for you if it’s urgent, baby
i can’t stop the hurt
i feel so distant lately
i can’t stand to see you 
in the arms of another star-crossed lover
you gave me life i could live on my own
but it’s fading away
fading away
fading to grey

i just wanna be enough for someone else out there
you’ll think you’re something special while you’re playing with her hair
i’d be lying if i said that i was never even scared
gave you every piece of me and now i’m everywhere

medicine [demo]

decem9er!

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