these are songs i lost the original projects for, these are the only versions that exist of these songs until i remake them, i hope you enjoy <3

[demos]

well baby
i don’t think
that you really loved me
your actions
don’t match up
with any word you say
you kiss me
then ghost me
and throw me away
what’s the point if
you know that
you’ll fold in a day but

i don’t know who you are
just a phantom in my car

and now my heart is haunted
you know what you started
why did you give me this pain?

through ghost trails and mirrors
i kept all our pictures
you cut me right down to the vein

i know its easy to get out of bed
but it’s so hard to do
when you’re lost in your head
all the memories flowing
the false hope you’re holding
the sadness and loathing
you know they’re controlling you

so let’s talk this out
what you worried about?
why you shrouded by doubt?
yet every convo goes south

you deserved better
and i knew that
and i will
let you go
with hands so cold
i know that falling down
is what life is all about

you didn’t want anything
when i wanted everything
i know it’s a fantasy
i just wanted family
but
i can’t believe you would quit
all of the lies that you spit

i know what you did
don’t do it again
right on the edge
i can’t see my friends anymore
the joke is out the door

and left me feeling so incomplete

i know it’s easy to get out of bed
but it’s so hard to do
when you’re lost in your head
all the memories flowing
the false hope you’re holding
the sadness and loathing
you know they’re controlling you

incomplete [demo]

i love you
but only at your best
it’s getting harder to find myself and
i can’t tell but this just might be a test
and if it gets any worse
you should lay it to rest and

tell me if it gets too hard
cause i’ll be right there
avoiding blank stares
did you ever care
about the things we shared?

i’ll tell you a joke
and then say i’m sorry
i don’t wanna feel lost
and i don’t wanna be lonely
i just wanna be different
than the boys before me

you know
that i’m low
disposed of
and used up
it can’t be helped
you’re wasting time
don’t try to fix me
it’s not worth the climb

i’ll be fine
i’ll be fine again

and now you’re always stressed
getting depressed again
wish i could take it all
the pain you felt back then

i’ll love you always, dear
you’ve been away for years
but when you need someone
please know that i’ll be here
know that i’ll be here
know that i’ll be here
know that i’ll be here

i'll be here [demo]

my thoughts are like oceans
they drown me in waves
all these fucking pills don’t help
i still don’t feel a thing

i gave you everything you
just left me in the rain
i guess the feelings died off
i guess the seasons changed

i know it’s hard to breathe but
i’ll be your oxygen
and when your wounds need to heal
i’ll be your medicine
and i’ll stand right by your side
until the bitter end
you said oh boy please just stay away

i realize now that
i should just be honest with myself
just try to hear me out
i don’t want anyone else
you said you wanna be
around to see me submit
but you’ll never catch me giving in
so i guess this is it

i think it’s harder now
i think it’s harder now
i think it’s harder now to breathe
than it used to be 
i think it’s harder now
i think it’s harder now 

i know it’s hard to breathe but
i’ll be your oxygen
and when your wounds need to heal
i’ll be your medicine
and i’ll stand right by your side
until the bitter end
you said oh boy please just stay away

medicine [demo]

i just wanna be enough for someone else out there
staying up all night while i’m playing with her hair
i’d be lying if i said that i was never even scared
gave you every piece of me and now i’m everywhere

would you tell me girl
could i be your everything?
no i could never be your anything
tonight i’ll give you everything

search for you if it’s urgent, baby
i can’t stop the hurt
i feel so distant lately
i can’t stand to see you 
in the arms of another star-crossed lover
you gave me life i could live on my own
but it’s fading away
fading away
fading to grey

i just wanna be enough for someone else out there
you’ll think you’re something special while you’re playing with her hair
i’d be lying if i said that i was never even scared
gave you every piece of me and now i’m everywhere

[demos]

decem9er!