gums w/ soleil

went to ur house last week
u were in ur dress girl how sweet
didnt seem mad at me 
so whyd u make me gooo

rosy cheeks and brown hair 
nobody prettier out there 
i know ur unhappy 
with how i am but thats me 

i know that i 
call at bad times 
but i cannot 
get over u

cannot get over u

Lyrics:

I want you to think That i can actually change
I dont want you to think of me
As that junkie who always stays the same And cut after cut and smoke after smoke I feel my lungs go black and than my throat starts to choke
I want you to see me the way that i see you I see you made in marble and chizzled from straight out of stone
I know i promised id change but i couldnt do it again
I still pick up that fucking dirty ass was pen I swear didnt mean to relapse it just happens
But i want you to know that i will always love you my friend

Shit idk

i think ill be okay(demo)

jades - word vomit

Lyrics

Listen to this song hecause i made it for you

I want you to know everything that i think

And want you to know what i thought

Everything im gonna say is gonna be a lie

And i want you to realize 

That i wont say truth

So first lie lets gets started

I need you in my life

And i want you to be right by my side 

for whatever i do 

I love i love you i love you i love you

I need you i need you i meed you i need you

I need i want you i want you i want you

I want you in my life

Now lets get on woth the next set of lies

I guess its time

I wishbthat you wanted me

I wish that you needed me 

I wish that you thought of me all of the tome 

Yeah i do 

You can cut yourself for me

You can bruise yourself for me

You can cry your heart out and i wouldnt give a fuck

Cause you mean 

Nothing nothing nothing nothing 

nothing nothing nothing 

Nothing to me

Yeah you mean nothing 

Yeah you mean nothing 

Im gonna say one last thing

And you know 

That its gonna be another lie 

I love i love you i love you i love you

I need you i need i need you i need you

I want you i want you i want you

In my life 

I need you more

Another lie to keep you happy

Thinking bout the past

Lyrics:

Do you like an empty stomach
Right before you cry?
Do you like when i say that your pretty 
Even though its a lie
Do you want me to still love you 
Even though your past prime 
Do you ever think about not breathing
Maybe suicide
Cause i think about it all the time
Yeah i think about taking my own life
I havent felt myslef in such a long
Muthafucking time
I still wanna cut myself when im alone
I still wanna grab a rope and throw it over 
the ceiling fan
And see what happens when i hang
I think about it every fucking day
And i dont know how to cope with these feelings
So i sit in my room and i sing these silly fucking songs
Do you like an empty stomach
Right before you cry?
Do you like when i say you are pretty 
Even though its a lie
Do you want me to still love you 
Even though your past prime 
Though your past your prime
Do you ever think about not breathing
Do you ever think about not breathing
Maybe suicide
Yeah i wanna fucking die

Do you ever think about not breathing

Lyrics:

I cut myself again
Did you notice?
I slit it vertically 
Just for attention
I don’t care if you wanna stop me
Because you know that I won’t listen
Yeah I won’t listen
I won’t listen to you
Or to any fucking one who tells me
How to live my life
And I’ll say 
fuck you and I’ll cut it again
I’ll cut it again 
And I don’t give a fuck if I end it
I think that it’s time for me to go
This time hopefully it’s quick not slow

i told you not to leave me alone

Am I wasting my time?

（长林，2003年6月29日）

It’s shit that’s the point
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