this  is so damn smooth with a nice full sound.

all these lyrics
keep on playing in my brain 
everywhere i go 
every song i used to love 
i cant sing along
cause now
i just keep asding 
the right words
like they should have been
like i wrote
so maybe i just scribble 
this note here 
this song 
explaining
why i carry
all these fucked up feelings
with no resolution

that 
im been staying 
 pretty fuckin mind numb 
 all day long
my friends 
im late
a  wreck 
a mess i been 
loss revenue
left the family in the rain 
no insurance i paid
then i wrecked 
the rest 
my life
into a bridge 
what a tragedy
she was 
i guess i was 
hot pursuit
to find myself 
 a mess 
i turned into
a poor excuse 
for a human being 
so now every day 
my life seems 
like you think 
some kind of game
for u and friends

to play 
u roll the dice 
another part of my life
disappears 
bankrupt 
day of Monopoly
no lets play skip bo
this week 
skip on me
im tired i been  skipping
on everything
for 2 long 
give my all
or not a damn thing 
cause im 
tired of barley getting by
suicidal
cause you dont want therapy
you just want to make me 
fuckin crazy 
insane 
im already fucked off 
im fighting
nightly 
 2 be sober
2 breath 
so ya 
im
alive but
im not okay
ya I'll probably never the same 

i  cant get no air 
no i cant think 
when the oxygen cost 
cost so much money  to breathe 
im trying to get by 
fighting another day
to be sober
so place your. judgement
on another 
no love just alot of suffer
cause we know that yiu tougher
alot better than me

or maybe
your  just alot dumber
than you 
used to be



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Flight Of Freedom

A heavier track with a dark vibe. Check out the Music Video on youtube!

To The Unknown

Duet - Single

Duet

Round n Circles | made on the Rapchat app (prod. by double multi)

An instrumental slow to fast upbeat journey of a song.

To those that have suffered in any way. Composed with the continuation of the heartbeat in the rhythm of the strum to the quieter picking end notes of calm.

Reflective souls

Dont Turn Back

ProvideForEvry1!

Created for Djenerates DJ Search 2023

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Maria's Theme

DCnoLackin and Jay-Gee team up for their new Single “ Love/Pain “

Love/Pain

“Love/Pain” DCnoLackin x Jay-Gee

As  I wrote  These Words and songs  From My broken heart . Im not just  sending my Lyrics and another singalong songs, these songs are emotional Private moments in my life. I hope and I FEAR to share with the world. My kids family friends non friends. I just need to get my words out,  I hope some of my lyrics help any other lost addicted soul like me Although, Ive used to many drugs throughout my life I do not encourage any person destroying themselves to a substance. I do detail and  go into the highs, lows, and in-betweens, of drug addiction. I believe it would be nieve of any person in the united states to say drug addiction in some form has not  touched each one of our lives some way. Weather people want to admit it or not drugs are here to stay. With those words being said I think my lyrics reach out to the ADDICTEdD FACTION . The young old big small white black purple . In America we have grown so accustom to placing all these people in a group, a faction if you will. Kinda like the movie divergent, the Addicted Faction. You know The prison Repeats, losers that lose there kids, probation, bond release house arrest kinda people I guess you could say. I think I speak for those that have fallen in the addicted faction. Although we struggle with addictions and jails, authority, It doesn’t mean that were all one person or all bad. In my life I have struggled with addictions child custody, it doesn’t mean that , I cant change, . It doesn’t mean that I don’t have a heart Im a horrible person but sometimes the world really doesn’t care about the person more about the label. I only realize this after losing my children and then to be told by family. That an image would be a reason I would never see my children again. Because I didn’t look a certain way, because im a burn out loser, struggled with drugs, I guess embarrassing, I guess Were so used to downing a person for an addiction. We Forget that these are all people too the drug addicts. Feel and hurt as well. Lose everything and everyone. Addiciton is  A disease none the less. In America we accept that diabetes is a disease from overeating or sugar abuse most of the time. Yet we don’t make the sugar illegal, we recongnize that a group in society is more prone to return abuse and we lock them up in prision. But with sugar we have diabetes and we diagnose a disease. Drug addiction we lock up the suffers and tell them it’s a choice. That we choose to be like this to hurt ourselfves and our family. Well im a drug addict. And Im here to tell you that is bullshit. Even sober my brain is never gonna be the same again, not as a sober person. Its like before the drugs the wall is pink , during the drugs it’s the brightest pink you’ve ever seen, and now after drugs the wall might not even pink as far you fucking know. That in a nutshell is drug addiction for me, I don’t know if my brain will ever go back to the way it used to be , maybe not . but I believe in my heart And I can feel this in my songs in my debut album song selection. I believe that Im not alone in feeling I live in the addicted faction. Secluded from the world around me.I know another inflicted damaged misfit could value from my words. I have Lost everything the last four years My kids to a best friends suicide , to my Dad Final Breathe, on to have LoSt MySelf , So MY music has been my journey back to planet earth with the sober Citizens . Im an Alien. So please take your time. Take a chance on a MisFit Addicted Soul .  I encourage you guys to read, critique, my thoughts and lyrics. I would love any words response or to write for Strange music. Any Comments Messages are encouraged ENJOY.  I never really thought about being a music stAR I Just know God and everything in my body wrote these songs. I Know the world is Supposed to hear them. Its weird cause Im Lost in life Yet I know The world need to hear my lyrics. The Ghost In Me, Is The Ghost That makes you feel My PAIN, Hope you like them, 

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