I Rot, I Rot

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lyrics: 

swear that im a hothead, i used to be normal and i miss it
wanna drop dead, every day begins with reminiscing
but when i drop they love it. see the ring, look, pussy, kiss it

they love me more than i fuck with myself, its insane
i know theyre mortified, i wanna blow out my brain
treat me like coraline, take out my eyes and ill stay
im feeling more alive
i swear to god that im a hot head, i used to be normal and i miss it
wanna drop dead, every day begins with reminiscing
when i drop they love it. see the ring, look, pussy, kiss it
but they dont read nothing, kinda wish that they would listen
no, i cant sleep at all
i dream of you when i wake
i let you keep it all
you planted it in my brain
i scrape my knees and fall for you and all of your games
so if you see me, call
but i wont answer

im a hothead, i used to be normal and i miss it
no, i cant keep standing when im bleeding in the kitchen
one more day is all i need
just to make me through the week
its the same, it all repeats
say a prayer before i leave

she told me to tell her, i cant find out where to start
say you love me up and down but you dont treat me like you are

said her favorite song of mine is probably galore
cause when the metals on my wrist it doesnt leave it sore
you said i was the only one, ive heard that one before
you dont gotta love me, i just wanted to be yours

thats the thing i hate
i cant break away
cause, damn it, im a hot head, i used to be normal and i miss it
wanna drop dead, every day begins with reminiscing
but when i drop, they love it
seee the ring, look, pussy, kiss it
but they dont read nothing, kinda wish that they would listen

when they see me on that stage i pray they understand the vision
ima paint my bedroom red so they cant see how ive been living
love the rosaries, i count the beads then i proceed with sinning
i know your home is just a house to me so, baby, whats the difference
ill communicate at the best of my ability 
i was way too late, now youre hiding what u feel of me
so ill play your games, pass the time, you’re slowly killing me
so i lay awake, face is red, my fists are clenching

___ i just wanted to be yours w/ bunii

Lover Girl

i need w/ VaxFr

i never wanted to block you

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Im drownin in my regrets 
Hate how I treated you
Im such a stupid neglect
I should've played by the rules

And things I left unsaid
I should've said it to you
And I'll just rot in my bed
Hoping that things go smooth

Start fuckin my wrist up
I wish I was like you
I wish I was normal 
They see more than I do

Do you see my pain girl?
Know you see it all
Think you missed my veins girl
When you cut me off

I just might go insanse
Cus all my songs sound the same
And everyone I loved everyone I trust
Always end up ina grave

And it was never lust when I said I loved you
Tell me do you feel the same?
Said you wanna read my mind
So go grab the .9 put a bullet thru my brain

Im goin insane
Girl put a bullet in my brain

Wish I was more to myself
Wish I was talented 
Wish I was more than enough
But im a fuckin mess

We all just turn into dust
No point in makin amends
I thought that love was a must
But I wont waste my breath


Do you see my pain girl?
Know you see it all
Think you missed my veins girl
When you cut me off

I just might go insanse
Cus all my songs sound the same
And everyone I loved everyone I trust
Always end up ina grave

And it was never lust when I said I loved you
Tell me do you feel the same?
Said you wanna read my mind
So go grab the .9 put a bullet thru my brain

Im goin insane
Girl put a bullet in my brain

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im scrollin on my phone, no wait i wanna be yours
as soon as possible ensured
who am i to talk? the panels crack when u walk on em
i know Im not a boss, but everytime im ;lost i need your help
come save me, ik its not ur job but come save me baby
I need your help and your lifestyle
All the bad things i've seen, think im gouging my eyes out

Im lighting me up one, Im lining me up one
its nothing new, i think im running in cycles
I hate that u like me, i hope its a white lie tho
and she got cuts on her wrists, but why am i not suprised tho?

If I could love like myself again
runnin circles and laps in my head
guess u didnt want it all, after all?
had to watch the rain fall off the wall
how do i know who you are(well i guess i dont)
makin assumptions babe(made this for u)
my life goes on after u leave me
left me hangin babe
callin you out for ur stupid jokes
but it dont mean nothin babe

my luv was in ya hands, i might never luv again
take a gander into ya eyes, u seem real accomplished
but ima let my mind set up, watch,
ima let my time go off
I dont even feel like pondering, just thinkin bout it make me ponder off
dozing off in my head
i dont get alot, its well said
i dont really feel like pretending for u
if i show my true colors ima peacock spreadin its wings fo--
i dont really luv u Madelyn, im jus singing for u


im scrollin on my phone, no wait i wanna be yours
as soon as possible ensured
who am i to talk? the panels crack when u walk on em
i know Im not a boss, but everytime im ;lost i need your help
come save me, ik its not ur job but come save me baby
I need your help and your lifestyle
All the bad things i've seen, think im gouging my eyes out

Im lighting me up one, Im lining me up one
its nothing new, i think im running in cycles
I hate that u like me, i hope its a white lie tho
and she got cuts on her wrists, but why am i not suprised tho?

If I could love like myself again
runnin circles and laps in my head
guess u didnt want it all, after all?
had to watch the rain fall off the wall
how do i know who you are(well i guess i dont)
makin assumptions babe(made this for u)
my life goes on after u leave me
left me hangin babe
callin you out for ur stupid jokes
but it dont mean nothin babe

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