Delves into my childhood psyche, and repeats some of the things my abusive and neglectful mother had said (or implied over many words) that stuck with me and gave me distorted self-image and a lot of trauma to deal with. 
I'm healed for the most part these days, but I was removed from home at 11 as a result of her abuse.
When we later reconnected, my mother denied the abuse and claimed I had actually just abandoned her.
I felt in order to have a mother that accepted me, I would have to gaslight myself with her version of events and deny the truth of our shared past.
This song is about her warped and sick perspective as I see it and sounds as sinister and confusing as it felt to be near her.

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Grotesque and brain-dead.
You're savage. You touch yourself.
You aren't fit for a feast.
Everyone knows it.
You're fat lipped, and wide nosed.
The reason your daddy's deceased.
Miserable excuse for conception,
ruining life when you began to breathe.
Monster. You look like a boy.
You insufferable burden, hope you come in peace.
Stay out of sight, I can't bear to look at you.
The bile in my chest burns my throat.
And is it too much to expect your tears vanish
in time, so you can watch me gloat?
The dog ran away because you are disgusting,
he probably wanted to die.
If you weren't such a freak, maybe he would have
waited to tell you good bye.

Poor little Johnny on milk boxes, 
maybe you shouldn't have left him alone.
Poor little baby.
She's crazy! Please save me!
Little baby ain't coming home.
Opened up my door gave you more than I ever had.
Let my hold your heart of glass.
Gimme, gimme! Smile baby, while I butter you up.
Now, tell me what you think of your past.
Point me to your arm, smack it up, now, feed me in.
You're doing it all on your own.
Surely you want it, cos everybody wants it,
so remind me how you came to leave home...?
Sit still, take it in.
Keep your eyes above my grin,
and nevermind what's up my sleeve.
Glitter flying in the air.
Keep em open! Over here!
Keep the sorry coming! Yes please!

Clown

Why do you look at me that way, time flies by
Watching statues of you cryin', I pay dearly
My God, we're done, that's it, so long 
Same time tomorrow, you'll be calling me friend again

This time tomorrow
oh-ooh, uh-oh
oh-woah-ooh, uh-oh
oh-woah-ooh, uh-oh 
oh boy...

How do you walk so damn easy every time
You keep shooting your feet, what a fine life
Of course you've thought of everything, time to shine
Bet that losing hand to win and cash in

This time tomorrow
oh-ooh, uh-oh
oh-woah-ooh, uh-oh
oh-woah-ooh, uh-oh 
oh boy...

(Hmmm)
La-da-di-dum
When everybody's happy we go
La-di-da-di-dum
Like nothing ever happened and then
La-di-da-di-da-di-da-di-da-di-dum
The world caves in

Your mother pulled the teeth out of your fight
(Ooh pulled the teeth right out)
So long ago, left you wonderin' why 
those walls you build don't ever seem to feel like home
(Wondering why your house don't ever ever ever ever feel like home)
When making love is making up
(Hmmm, more making up)
I feel more alone with every touch
(Alone, alone)
My breath will stay within your clutch
(My ever loving breath will be within your clutch)
At least, until

This time tomorrow
oh-ooh, uh-oh
oh-woah-ooh, uh-oh
oh-woah-ooh, uh-oh 
oh boy...

This Time Tomorrow (feat A. King)

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