The feeling that she had never really lived in this world caught her by surprise. It was a fact. She had never lived. Even as a child, as far back as she could remember, she had done nothing but endure.

She had never lived

Flight of the Crows

HEAVEN 2 HELL A Hazbin Hotel Inspired Song by Black Gryph0n Baasik Feat Elsie Lovelock

Rhinestone Eyes

Stargazing

covered one of my favorite bands, definitely listen to the original if you haven't already


When you told me you were leaving, 
well I couldn't feel my mouth, 
because all I'll ever be is someone else. 
As I watched you walk away, 
I felt something in me change. 
My heart froze over, all emotion dripped away 

So I drove home, 
at a hundred miles an hour, 
just to see what it feels like to fly. 
I crashed my car, 
into someone else's backyard, 
just to see what it feels like to die. 

When you told me that you missed me, 
well i couldn't close my eyes, 
because I realized what it felt like to die. 
'cause all you'll ever be 
is a nightmare and a wet dream, 
a reason to smile from six feet under ground. 

So I drove home, 
at a hundred miles an hour, 
just to see what it feels like to fly. 
I crashed my car, 
into someone else's backyard, 
just to see what it feels like to die. 

So bathe me in pale flesh, 
promise that I'll never be good again. 

I hope you miss me when I'm gone, 
because I can't hold on for too long. 
and I'm so scared of dying alone, 
that I'll kill myself right here, right now. 

and i'll die.

Blonde Hair, Black Lungs - Sorority Noise (cover)

My Smile Is Extinct

Hot Mulligan - How Do You Know It’s Not Armadillo Shells-

The Mountain Goats - No Children

I Don't Trust U Anymore By Left At London

Let's Go to Pluto

Camp Adventure

Well it would be a lovely start
to plant some pebbles in the garden
Hope to grow a planet large
that floats around in our backyard

And yes, your family still could visit
We haven't left the solar system
If they request consent to land
we'll accept if we are wearing pants

But most days let's just float on top
and orbit all our favorite spots
If we get dizzy, let's fall off
A couple cozy astronauts

Well it would be a lovely start
to plant some pebbles in the garden
If it won't rain it doesn't matter
we'll water them with tears of laughter

At first there might not be much to it
no forest, roads or rivers through it
A rocky globe to start us off
and on it grow the world we want

The neighbors will all think we're strange
as we wave at them from outer space
But I had to know just how it felt
to grow something bigger than…

What I have built alone
A home I thought I'd never leave
but you and I can shape a world
the lakes and towns and everything
We'll put a planet in the sky
grown from pebbles, you and I

And if little aliens do invade
attempts at peace will still be made
I'll contact them with gifts but if
they reject those I will insist
on meeting their attacks with might
A big galactic pillow fight
and just before they win we're told
they're allergic to the whimsical
So I'll blast this song and don't you know
the sweetness makes their heads explode
and look they're filled with popcorn so
let's grab a snack, sit back, and watch the show…

I'm not a chemist, no, I am no geologist
but you and I can shape a world
The lakes and towns and all of it
and bit by bit and stone by stone
the pebbles take the shape of somethin' else
That’s growing bigger than myself

Pebbles

Hands up if life is getting stressful
And shout if you are saddened by the news
I need some tips to cope,
some data or some anecdotes,
'cause right now nothing's workin' for my blues

Sometimes I deal by playing music
and sometimes I relax by reading books
Sometimes I go downtown,
climb a tree and don't come down
and throw a bunch of pinecones at people

A crowd has formed around my tree,
just out of reach, and the police have
blocked the street on every side
But no one can climb it and
I think its 'cause they know I have
a pinecone here for everyone who tries

I yell: I'm gonna live to be a hundred
I'm gonna see them cure disease
Then I'm gonna watch them
go to war over the royalties so
if you need me, I'll be in the tree

If you need me, I'll be in the tree
There's several cameras pointed up into my tree
it seems the world's concerned with what I might do next…
Throwing pinecones at photographers
from up here in this conifer
like Tarzan getting scouted by the Mets

Yeah, I'm gonna live to be a thousand
Got robot arms and run on robot feet
Got robot legs and robot head
and my robot ass don't know it yet but
I'd be better off back in the tree

So if you need me, I'll be in the tree…

'Cause no one's asking what would drive me up this pine
Is it protest? Am I being paid to preach or advertise?
No, this non-deciduous decision was all mine
You can show a horse the ropes
but no, you cannot make him climb

And this tree's a makeshift metaphor and I prefer to think
I'm just a stressed out Christmas ornament
who needs some space to breathe
And if the camera crews and crowded streets
and dozens of police
are my endless pressures manifested down below my tree
Then this giant stack of pinecones…
They are the lame and immature ways I deal with them
But also how satisfying it is to do so...
To dome one... when they're not looking... yeah

I'm gonna live to be a million
Longer than the flowers, birds and bees
but if I start to come undone,
make like a tree and hug someone
Everybody needs a place to breathe
just recognize when it is time to leave

I'm probably gonna live forever
but should I die (and that may be preferred)
take me out and bury me
and plant a tree right over me
so I may help someone escape the world

Yeah, I may help someone escape the world

Pinecones

Hide and Seek, By Bug Hunter. This is the 4th song on their 3rd album, Bigger Than Myself


Again and again
Start over from scratch
Build up from the ground
The new kid in class

I tell them my name
Again and again
I try to be kind
and hope for a friend

And hope for a friend

It's like a game of hide and seek, they count to ten and look for me
but it's been half an hour, I'm still crouched behind the couch and think
That maybe they've forgotten me, gave up, gone to watch T.V.
but I’ll be hiding quietly in case they circle back for me

The childhood I had
An outsider in my head
Again and again

Again and again
We pack up and move
I skip like a stone
New school to new school

Unable to float
and holding my breath
Afraid to approach
Will you be my friend?

Will you be my friend?

It's like a game of hide and seek, 
they count to ten and look for me
but it's been several hours
I'm still crouched behind the couch and think
That I'm the piece they'd rather lose, 
the seed you plant that never blooms
A new kid much too nervous to stand up, 
step out or leave his room

The childhood I had, an outsider in my head
Again and again

Class we have a new student
He's a little withdrawn
He just moved here from Texas or Nashville or Mars
He'll be gone before long
So he's not worth the trouble
He's a novelty when
all the cliques are connected
The ephemeral friend

It's like a game of hide and seek
They count to ten and look for me
but it's been twenty years and I'm
still crouched behind the couch and think

That I'd be different had I known
that birthday cakes and milestones
wouldn't mark my progress growing up
like years of eating lunch alone

The childhood I had, an outsider in my head
I ask myself: without it, would I be the Bug I am?
Again and Again

It's like a game of hide and seek
but it's my turn to search and, see, 
I still know all the hiding spots
to check to find the lost and thank

The childhood I had, an outsider in my head
but never again

Hide And Seek

The digital release of 'Len't - the single includes  the radio edit of 'Lent' and 2 b-sides; the Danton Supple produced 'Foolishly Wrong' and the band's self-produced early favourite 'Stalker's Tango'

All 3 songs can be purchased on iTunes here: https://itunes.apple.com/gb/album/lent-single/id586010772 

Stalker's Tango

Friend's Apartment, A new track by Bowling Shoes!

Jeremiah Bermel
Ben Walker
Sam Nazaretian

Drums by: Sean Thomas
Tracked by Bowling Shoes, the Band!

Mixed by Ben Lumsdaine

https://benlumsdaine.com/

Mastered by Joe Laporta at Sterling Sound

https://sterling-sound.com/engineer/joe-laporta/

Bowling Shoes 2020

She had never lived

Jin