Autumn mood

sick and tired

Sad Chill

SadCHill

favorite hampi

9TAILS

Smiling Peylev = )

All music and Lyrics were made up on the spot :) Musicians are:    
Vocals: Scintilla Outre' Teric
Guitar: Keven Dow, Dave Bugley, Scintilla Outre' Teric
Drums Phil, Scintilla Outre' Teric
Occasional keyboards: Darren Dow and various other musicians
Various other Musicians and occasional vocals: Abdul, Rosalie Juhl
Comments are welcome, however, there is no changing the songs melody, structure, or vocal content...What you hear is what you get! ENJOY!

Madhouse Muse

Cars

Sleep Through Summer

iusedtolikeyou

im feelin lost and ion know where else to go now
ion really have a place to call my home now
everybody hatin and i feel so cold now
why do everybody make me feel alone like
x2

ive got so much shit to say 
baby take me from this place
i just really cannot stay 
tears are falling down my face
i feel colder every day
know they want me out their way
ill be gone ill be okay 
i just need some fucking space
i walk by i feel them hate 
wanna die cause i relate
wanna cry i feel insane
i get high but cant escape
would they love me if i change
am i lost am i too late
soon im dead i cannot wait
please dont love me its a waste

wanna die so fucking bad
youre the best ive ever had
wanna die when i look back
cause u always made me sad
cant get over shit im done
i just make another song
nothing helps im fucking numb
ill be gone bitch pass the blunt
ive been hurting for so long
baby kill me in your thongs
ive been dying all along
let me go where i belong
get me drunk bitch get me high
give me pills and let me vibe
when its time just let me die
im so tired of this life

let me die

iTunes

let me die (prod. lilhappylilsad)

Lyrics:
Every day I just feel so much, god fuckin dammit i just bleed so much,
I know i plead too much but i need your touch, cause without it I wont be someone


Wake up I wish I was dead, you were there when noone cared,
now my lifes full of despair, shaking and scared, i wasnt prepared,
THESE DEMONS ARE ALL IN MY HEAD


NEVER EXPRESSED, IT'S ALWAYS CONSTRAINED,
THESE THOUGHTS ARE JUST HAUNTING MY BRAIN, I JUST CANT EXPLAIN
All of this pain, going through each and every single one of my veins


The past is done, I cant change that,
I think it's time for me to just face facts,
All red is gone, my heart aches black,
I might just go and blow my brains blank, 


 why cant It just end? 
STOP, STOP IT, JUST GO AWAY, PLEASE!


pain...pain...pain..pain....pain...pain..NOTHING WILL EVER BE THE SAME



I CANT ESCAPE, THIS IS MY FATE, 
WHY CANT THINGS JUST BE SO SIMPLY EXPLAINED,
WHY ARE YOU FADING, FLOATING EVADING, GOING ESCAPING,
YOU KNOW I CANT TAKE IT,
I JUST WANT TO LIVE IN PEACE, I JUST WANNA LIVE WITH EASE,
I JUST WANNA LIVE AND BREATHE, I JUST WANNA LOVE MY QUEEN.


Original beat, Aestral- Miran

Pain (prod. aestral)

I hate you, but I love you - by Lil Yung Pharaoh 
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
VERY RARE ONLY x XXXTENTACION x SKI MASK THE SLUMP GOD x WIFISFUNERAL x CRAIG XEN x LIL PUMP x SMOKEPURPP x DA$H x LUCAS JOYNER x LIL FLASH x TOKEN x ROB $TONE x PLAYBOI CARTI x PHORA x MOLLY BRAZY x CUBAN DA SAVAGE x ROCAINE x BOLDY JAMES x KAY P x LIL PEEP x LIL TRACY x GHOSTMANE x LUD FOE x 6 DOGS x ITSOKTOCRY

lil yung pharaoh // i hate you, but i love you

produced by: trill skeleton @trill-skeleton

cover art by: SirC https://twitter.com/TrapSirC

lyrics:

set me down
lay me down
on the ground
facing down

set me down
lay me down
on the ground
facing down

new year where the fuck is my head at
new friends but some were a set back
new wave hit home like a whiplash
5 rings like maybe i should get that

5 texts like maybe i should check that
im drunk like maybe i should text back
you called so maybe i should call back
im lost like show me where my friends at

im all like "show me where my friends at"
shes all like baby we should go now
you can leave girl i could get a ride down
grab a train yonge and bloor going southbound

gimme time while im finding where my phone at
whats the time 2 oclock and its pitch black
she say the time is time to go grab my backpack
new year where the fuck is my head at

come around
while im down
breaking down
on the floor

stick around
close the door
i been feeling
fucking bored

what the fuck
did i do
when you took
out my name

from ur phone
back in june
and said were thru
said were thru

new year where the fuck is my head at
new friends but some were a set back
new wave hit home like a whiplash
5 rings like maybe i should get that

5 texts like maybe i should check that
im drunk like maybe i should text back
you called so maybe i should call back
im lost like show me where my friends at

im all like "show me where my friends at"
shes all like baby we should go now
you can leave girl i could get a ride down
grab a train yonge and bloor going southbound

gimme time while im finding where my phone at
whats the time 2 oclock and its pitch black
she say the time is time to go grab my backpack
new year where the fuck is my head at

wtf im crying (prod. trill skeleton)

prod. @notmorgn featuring @i_x_t_a_i_l_s

listen on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gFHw9ImuMok

guccihighwaters:

side not ps im not sober
its not a part of my big plan to be older
she wanna she wanna know my secrets
bullet with your name on it let me be the reason
let my brain explode 
watch them fly let the memories unfold
you better bury me with gold 
cause if not imma rot all alone

rot all alone cus i stay locked in my home
i only see the fucking light when my friends are getting stoned

i don't smoke that shit my brain to fucked up
if i could i would i always seem to the worst luck
anxiety embedded in my bones
when i turned 10 man i always felt all alone

9 years later you know im still floating
above the rough ocean treading in emotions
sippin on the potion plan to turn my ghost in
i will fade away no one ever fuckin knows me

9TAILS:

side note ps i would go back
to the scenes i keep seeing in my flashbacks
on the nights when i dream it never makes sense
cross the line and hurry back like im defense

breathe swallow air then i dive in the deep end
calmer under water love when everything is silent
seeing faces even when im not dreaming
tell me are they real i really hope that you can see them

side not ps im not sober
its not a part of my big plan to be older
she wanna know my secrets
bullet with your name on it let me be the reason
let my brain explode 
watch them fly let the memories unfold
you better bury me with gold 
cause if not imma rot all alone

side note (feat. 9TAILS)

produced by @anobodyreally

art found at sad-space-kitten.tumblr.com

lyrics:

its 30 below
i see the blue in my toes
i feel the ice in my throat
and ive never been this cold
baby dont go
just when we start to see the light
clouds come block it out
the timing never fucking right
plaid green sweater
couple loose threads around the wrist
hole in the back
thats what i get when everythings thrift
ripped black jeans
and some bruises on my fists
my eye turned black
thats what i get when everythings shit

dont face the door
focus on staying warm
weve all been here before
but that doesnt make it easier

broken but wanting more
they had to silence u and
i couldnt take the pain of
having to know i cant help u

i cant help u
i cant save u baby
dont know how to

but dont worry maybe
we could find someone
that might know how to

flashing lights
streetlights when we in the benz
what was that
could u run that by again
going fast
not paying any attention
saw my page
now im always in their mentions

not my type
dont know why she wanna go out
i stay inside
and no u cant over to my house
got shit to do
u know im working all the time now
all these words
work their way into the songs now

woah
change my mind
all the time
i feel shit
now im fine
got so much of this free time
and i dont even count the nights

no
i wont text
i wont phone
think too much
when im on my own
i think its best
if you said u would go 
i think its best
if u leave me alone

im still walking home
think im freezing through my coat
where have u been
where should i go

dont face the door
focus on staying warm
weve all been here before
but that doesnt make it easier

broken but wanting more
they had to silence u and
i couldnt take the pain of
having to know i cant help u

warm (prod. ʎpoqou)

9TAILS  - Wtf Im Crying (prod. Trill Skeleton)

produced by @idealismus

this track is completely non-profit

lyrics:

the comedown
nothing good happens in the come down

u are now hearing bout the come down
slept in late put the song out late
always high as fuck when i walk round
took that nap cause i been too baked

u are now hearing bout the come down
ice cube tray in the bong ok
i just wanna pull up rolls royce now
but life just didnt work out that way

life just didnt work out that way

slept in late put the song out late
always high as fuck when i walk round
took that nap cause i been too baked
u are now hearing bout the come down
ice cube tray in the bong ok

homie wake up at four
10 alarms said 8
but i been up all night and soon enough ill be up all day
working hard no pay
i dont care it feels great
accomplishments im glad i made

living the dream and the dream way too lucid
all of my fans said they knew i would do it
im never stopping so dont get it twisted
im sorry but music is over the mrs

808 earthquake
am i always sad no way
sacrifices by drake
hell nah i feel great

u are now hearing bout the come down
slept in late put the song out late
always high as fuck when i walk round
took that nap cause i been too baked

u are now hearing bout the come down
ice cube tray in the bong ok
i just wanna pull up rolls royce now
but life just didnt work out that way

the comedown (prod. idealism)

Bmike - Die Alone ft JayteKz (Prod. By Kyle Gee & tunnABeatz)

Bmike - Die Alone ft JayteKz

SHYLER - Screaming Inside (prod. Greaf)

produced by classixs beats found at www.youtube.com/channel/UCkNqXC7nc4gtHQ8cKU48iow

lyrics:

i needa wean off
4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off
i needa wean off

hit me with a feature boy just know this is art
come at me with garbage and ill rip it apart
honestly i been about it prior to you
and i dont need a fucking friend i need a drink and a dart

i dont even smoke but i think i should start
take a couple years and give em back to the dark
eliviate the pain and fucking take out my heart
eliviate the pain and give me back to the dark

i needa wean off
4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off

they want a love song
but i havent felt love in a minute
its been so long
truthfully im not sure if i was ever in it
but now its all gone
the people and the visions we both thought of as vivid
thought of as lucid
fuck all the bullshit
strangle and beat up and fucking spit on the cupid
im so gone
scotch and a spliffy had got me saying some shit 
i never dreamt of
sertraline pills im not an artist im a motherfucking
pill box
right now fuck the flashing lights i think id rather see a 
red dot
headshot
maybe its time that i met god

4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off
i needa wean off

i cant finish project
or put it in motion
everythings sounds shitty
by the damn second verse
got some real friends
sending me some warm texts

but its a shame that my phone dont work

i got debt on debt
u like my shit oh bet
i might not make it for a while
cause im fucked in the head
find me sleepin in bed
i got a 12 hour rest
imma wake up for an hour then go do it again
i needa wean off

give a fuck if im dependent on the meds
as long as i get up and think enough to make a track
its weird to have a thousand people screaming what i said
im good at working under pressure when im sad i write the best
smoke alot of weed but im addicted like its crack
i been rippin blunts until i feel it in my back
when you adopt the music you adopt it till u dead
your brain'll change and you can fire thoughts like your a gat

i needa wean off
4am waking up and skipping zoloft
i needa wean off
all this isolation gimme hard ons
im not lonely
honestly ive come to love it here
i get my rocks off
but i cant take the emotion when the drugs wear off
i needa wean off

wean off (prod. classixs beats)

Guardin - Take Away The Pain

i got nothing left to keep me awake (prod. HKFiftyOne)

i just checked the stats sum1 real life played this 37 thousand times lol wtf

hampi - when im all alone

hampi - suicide letter

6obby - nobody

Lil Happy Lil Sad- Lil Numb

Producer <3 @prodiof

Lyrics:

Baby fuck me

In low lit lights, while the moonlight shines

Say your mine, cause i got this knife
  
And if your leaving, I dont have a lot of time before im bleeding

Why do you starve me

I need your touch please


Fill my emptiness

I can feel the pain persist

Drain away this loneliness

I might need to take a hit


Maybe it will numb the pain

Or all these thoughts inside my brain


She filled my heart with pain inside

Fucked with me and other guys

Conversations filled with lies about how she said shes only mine

And I cant find 

Another reason to go on in life

A single bit of fucking peace of mind

She only want me for the fucking knife

She never cared about the fucking time

She killed me knowing that I wouldnt be fine

She doesnt care at all

Got my heart oh so damn small

Feeling like I might just fall

I dont wanna die alone this way

She played my heart I played her games

No wonder I cant feel the same


Theres pain when she says my name

She could never be the girl I saved 

Love in vain, rip my fucking veins

I wasnt there just to entertain

Ill make it out of this fucking place

Ill sing it now that theyll hear my name

Just leave me alone while im in my grave

If there is another life would you betray me

These fucking feelings make me crazy

Living life its all so dazing

I used to think that you were amazing

I used to think that you were amazing 

Hurt me so insanely 

Heart broke midnight aching

I got broken legs from chasing

I got broken legs from chasing

She Killed Me (Prod. IOF)

9tails - Wtf I'm Сrying

9tails - Problems

9tails - I'll Try To Explain

Warm [Prod. ʎpoqou]

6obby - Nobody

I know she don't love me
Would never trust me

I know she don't love me
Would never trust me
Had hopeless feelings
Since I was 14
Just wanna fade out
This world is plain now
This scene is played out
It's all the same now

I hope I wash away
Bring the rain down
I'm smoking everyday
It help my brain out
Cause it's a fucking mess
Lately I'm close to death
I think I need to rest
Cause I don't feel my best
Feel pain inside my chest
It's hard to catch a breath
So I just need a sec
To keep my life intact
Sometimes I feel so lost
And I don't have a map
Don't know where I'm at
Looking for a sign
Wish I could go back
To the better times
To the better days
And the better nights
When I was just a kid
Never questioned life
What was wrong or right
Never really cared

Still don't really care
I can take you there
Welcome to my world
There's sadness in the air
Depression everywhere
Don't feel like waking up
God I fucking suck
Feel so fucking stuck
Walking through the mud
I know I'm not enough
I just wanted love
But now I have no trust
I just got the drugs
And now my feelings numb
Please don't hit me up
Im higher than the sun
I know we had our fun
But that shit's over now
Left me here to die
Looking like a clown
Left me here to die
Bleeding on the ground
But I made it out
Yeah I made it out

I know she don't love me
Would never trust me
Had hopeless feelings
Since I was 14
Just wanna fade out
This world is plain now
This scene is played out
It's all the same now

spotify

trust me (prod. blackmayo)

Produced by Dunna @dunnadidit
Music Video: https://youtu.be/gDPbSbCZGNQ
Stream on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0FiWiqyTcR7W9bp5ntxFq3?si=qppq1Lx1QLaCUuOAIJirFA

Lyrics:
I know you get lonely I get lonely too
I can't help it you are all that I knew
All that we'd been thru everything we'd do 
Now you don't even know me I don't know me too
You can't save me boo let me face my doom
Locked inside this room broke my heart in two

Anxiety attacks in the corvette
Broke down in the rain on your doorstep
Heartbreak put me thru a fucking vortex
Couldn't get you out my head or my cortex
I can't forget when you'd kiss me on the forehead
Late night send like four texts now I'm only your ex
And you're my muse wasting my youth whats the use
When the stars in the sky ain't gon' change they just fade away
When its dark outside I could see your face I could hear your name
So I parked my ride by your old drive way just to drive away again
It's hard each time cause I'd wish you'd stay to do it all again yeah

I know you get lonely I get lonely too
I can't help it you are all that I knew
All that we'd been thru everything we'd do 
Now you don't even know me I don't know me too
You can't save me boo let me face my doom
Locked inside this room broke my heart in two

Losing control don't know where my mind at
Running plays thru my brain like a line back
Maybe if you were still here I could find that
But we passed our peak we hit a climax
See me shining like a star in the sky now
Feeling far and I only wonder why now
While I'm high in my ride with my eyes low
Riding round system loud ducking five o
Where'd the time go baby where'd the time go
Switching time zones I might get my mind blown
Hope you're fine tho I hope you're fine
I been out here I been really getting mine
And the stars in the sky ain't gon' change they just fade away
When its dark outside I could see your face I could hear your name
So I parked my ride by your old drive way just to drive away again
It's hard each time cause I'd wish you'd stay to do it all again yeah

I know you get lonely I get lonely too
I can't help it you are all that I knew
All that we'd been thru everything we'd do 
Now you don't even know me I don't know me too
You can't save me boo let me face my doom
Locked inside this room broke my heart in two

9tails - I'll Try To Explain

Dranceth