Stemodity

Instrumental produced by @secretstash

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[lyrics]

You say to keep my head up all it does is drag me down tho
I'll meet you in the middle; keep my feelings on the downlow
You're a fool if you think theres a cure for a broken mind
ICant decide if its more humane for me to live or die
Laugh or cry, sink or swim. thats what ive been dealin with
Tried to run, tried to hide. But the feeling still persists
To wrap around my mind so fuckin tight until my brain bleeds
I'm tried of waking up to be depressed about the same things
If God is real he has my soul up in a vice grip
If this was in his plan then hes a sick fuck for devising it
Still you act surprised I do the drugs I'm hypnotized with
Anything but this is better so I stay high as shit
Never been the type but lately I've been thinking violent 
Everybody dies and thats alright 'cause I ain't dyin to live
Lost in my reflection but it's not because I'm likin' it
Suicide is bliss but I'm a pussy just for trying it

Do you know why I'm up all night? nah
Do you know why I still get high? nah
Do you know how many tears i've cried? nah 
Do you know why I just wanna die? nah
Do you know why I don't come by? nah
Do you know why I still get high? nah 
Do you know why I write what I write? nah 
Do you know why I just wanna die?

Do you really wanna know why I stress so much?
Just like a hypochondriac man I can feel it my guts
I'm trapped inside my mind and honestly I'm seeing scary things
if you could put it underneath a microscope youd see just what i mean
Feelin like a fiend for the dopamine,
Dreaming for a better scheme of thinking
Because when the bottles gone dry and the bags half empty
It feels like I could die and it feels just like I'm ready to
Feels like I'm cursed by blessing in disguise 
I guess that things could be worse but they could be better if I tried
I can sit and be depressed or I can get up and try to fix it
But even when it's done and over with it feels like something's missing 
From my heart, from my soul. What it is, I don't know
Feel a presence so cold tryina tell me where to go
I been trying so hard not to fuckin let go
But when you got no hope you might believe that you'll find clarity in rope
 
Now you know why I'm up all night yuh
Now you know why I still get high yuh
Now you know how many tears i've cried yuh 
Now you know why I just wanna die yuh
Now you know why I don't come by yuh
Now you know why I still get high yuh
Now you know why I write what I write yuh
Now you know why
 I just wanna die

BRAIN BLEED [PROD. SECRET STASH]

Instrumental by @hanto_beatz

[lyrics]

Dont really know what way im gonna go 
all i know is i dont know what it is ya think ya know
but it wont even matter to ya when ya go ghost
and arrive to a new place I've always known as home
Lately I been smirkin, cause you be actin tough as
If somebody care, but aint a single person lookin 
atcha like ya somethin special just another pebble like the rest of us
life is stressful but dont take it out, on the rest of us
man we gotta deal with our own shit on our own time
write our own rhymes work our own 9 to 5
Live inside our own body that we couldnt change if we wanna
get so stressed we turn to marijuana just to cope
with the fear of being hopeless with no friends
and 4 kids who never wanna focus
or see us or be us Lord free us of these chains
he said no stress no pain no gain tho
can we take mo pain tho 
I guess so.. words spoken from the chosen ones
with the loaded guns aimin at the temples of the broken ones
who ever did they people whack, this ones their track
play it back to the carcasses who shoulda grabbed the gat that day


yeah this world we livin in aint gettin better thats the way it is
no way to fix it clear your god damn head of all that hippie shit
you wish was true, why you actin like you got something to prove 
The Earth is doomed and theres not a damn thing that me or you can do about it
Save ya dream for someone with a different scheme of thinkin
I been questioning everything that I believe in
If You wonder whats become of me, I snapped back to reality
Think that you're above me? Fuck you and your fallacies
but its whatever makes ya feel better though
whatever floats your boat but in reality we sinkin slow
you aint gotta face it tho and ignorance is bliss so
live the way you wanna live ignore the bigger picture sista
fuck the goverment and the judicial system
Im fuckin fed up with the shackles they fit us in im 
gettin sick and tired of seein people servin time just for weed smoke
We the people need a new hero

REST OF US [PROD. HANTO]

Instrumental produced by @secretstash

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[lyrics]

I'm havin visions of a better me Cuttin off bad energy
I wanna be the best that I can be so that means that Im comin clean
Did a lotta shitty things that I aint proud of 
My depression and regret is growing big and speakin louder 
than my words could ever do, this is way long overdue
if these rhymes apply to you then that means this goes out to you 
Im sorry for the things I said, sorry for the way things went
sorry for the tears you shed, im desperate to make amends
I understand if you aint havin my apology
I wasnt treatin you with good quality honestly
Some nights I wish that I was never born
Because I feel so damn ashamed about the way I left you torn up
Safe to say that I was livin life in sin
Im wishin that I never stole from the bottle of your vicodin when you were dyin sick
man i make myself sick
Id be lyin if I told you I aint cryin on the inside as im writin this
And to the lord up above, I been tryna keep my faith but sometimes faith aint enough
cause life is so rough when you look into the mirror in disgust with whatchu see
Wishin for a better me, smoke some weed then go to sleep
and thats the process you repeat but now i see much more clearly
I been moving onwards keep the bullshit from near me
cruising on ahead I aint checkin out the Rear V
Never goin back because the new me is the real me

Takes a long time to mend a heart so broken
I been holdin on by a single thread it feels like I got nothin left 
to do but get this shit up off my chest, dont know whatll happen next
Hoping that I pass but I guess time will be the test of that
Put my soul into these raps but this shit didnt happen automatic
I been at it for a minute but this is still the begining 
but for years i been, killin shit, attacking all the panic I been livin with 
day to day, i been steady trying to chase all of my shame away
Now im standin face to face with all the fuckin pain I made
So manys days before I done became the man I am today
I just wanna thank the lord for every single breath I take 
I'm prayin that the angels watchin over me 
And im prayin that the devil cant get a hold of me 
Hopefully I stay upon the right path 
Runnin down the right track
Cuttin out my bad habits
Dreams of livin lavish uh
So lets just the past behind us
sometimes love is what blinds us
we dont understand the powers that binds us 
thats alright, truth can cut you like a knife
ego died but im alive and healin
tired of being deprived of feelin happy
I cant stand this fuckin feeling in my chest
When I think of my regrets
All this stress I cant suppress
Has me feeling left for dead
inside my head Im in distress
I feel possessed 
I cant express the state of my mindset
Im depressed

broken. (prod. secret stash)

@stemodity @yamissin @steezeuk

[Verse 1 - Stemodity]
face down in the dirt so long its all i taste 
took a look around this place and all i see is snakes
they wanna stab you in the back and smile to ya face
I cant escape from the wicked things I contemplate
they in my way
aye
comin straight outta ya speakers to thrill ya
bled all my blessings got nothin to spill left
numb to the pain that I made I cant feel it
tryina relax but forgot how to chill it
lately dont know just which that im goin
lately been so god damn sick of the norm
bottle it up then release in a song
nothin wrong with me

[Hook - Stemodity]
say I dont fuck with those that claim they somethin that they not
rot away within your grave for all i care you dont mean squat
claimin you aint fuck with law but shit goes down you call the cops
claimin you aint snitchin but cave in when they sweeten the pot, ugh
x2

[Verse 2 - Yami's Sin]
Claiming I aint nothing 
but i'm reaching for the top
always fucking with me
will you never ever fucking stop
I GOT CROP
IN MY TOP DRAW
USED TO FLY
LIKE CONDOR
CLIMBING
TO THE TOP FLOOR
WANNA HEAR MY ENCORE?

I've been thinking all night
ALL THE SHIT THAT I FIGHT
COVERED IN THE SNAKE BITES
FIND ME UNDER MOONLIGHT

BITCH I'M FEELING SHIT
i could never tell you
I WOULD NEVER FIT
they said life compells you!

TAKING ALL MY SHIT
till i find a breakthrough

I DON'T WANT THIS

[Hook - Stemodity]

SNAKEBITES (FEAT. YAMI'S SIN) [PROD. STEEZE]

Produced by my homie @jadmaister, go show him some love <3
Hook sample: Bones - Young Scorpion @teamsesh

[lyrics]

I been doin this too long okay
I'm livin a hell just diggin my grave 
no work no pay
yeah life is pain
im face to face with the hate I make
lemme break it down
livin with a frown
Makin wicked sound
Fuck this town
And the ones who doubt
I'll be out this piece
My shit bang loud 
fuck being discreet
I'm lonely 
Can't fuck with the phonies
Say you miss the old me
You just must not know me
And you'll never know
How the motherfuck I flow so cold
With no dopesmoke to choke on
words unspoken come to haunt ya
livin just the way I want ta now
I'm never gonna change but I switch my style up
Stay up in ya lane cause you really aint about this
Talkin way too much I watch your bullshit pile up
But it don't mean none to me  
Actin like your special but no ones lookin
You dont know a thing about the work I put in
sayin thatcha better butcha cannot put a candle to it 
I dont give a fuck tho end of discussion

(bridge)
Oh no here we go again it feels like imma die
I been in this place before it takes me for a wild ride
til my head feels dead and I cannot feel my spine 
And I shed red tears what am I doin with my life 
x2

Wastin away 
Got pain in my brain
Sick of livin this way
Slowly decayin
contemplatin brain stains on the pavement
leakin red
 I'm tired of hanging by a thread 
It feels like I'm on my deathbed
When I get high life makes more sense 
I'm tryna get by without the meds
Like a maniac
Always up, insomniac
Better get back
Heard ya track
That shit big whack
Ya better to get to work on ya pen to pad
I'm Sorry bout that
I was talkin to myself again
I go off the fuckin rails every now and then
Stay lifted 
Not addicted
Pain inflicted
Made me gifted

(bridge)

YOUNG SCORP [PROD. BRΔID_BOY]

Produced by Stemodity

[lyrics]
I been strugglin 
Just to ease my pain
I got nothin left
Think I need a drink
Say I need self esteem
I don't know what it means
But I just wanna dream
Please just leave me be 
Okay say I aint tryina be somebody swallowed by their ego
Don't nobody give a damn about the way we feel
I just gotta get away
From this place
That made me hate
Every motherfucking thing
I think its drivin me insane okay 

No I cant live without it
Save me babe im drownin
In this puddle of blood
Maybe its a fountain
Yeah and I dont do a thing 
but I aint havin any fun
Please just dig me out my grave
Cause this corpse could use some sun 

No i don't wanna go
no no no

Caught dead in my tears
Feelin like I'm good for nothin
Tired of runnin from my fears so long
My brain is goin numb
Don't ask me what have I become
I need some smoke inside my lungs
Yeah I'm livin like a goner 
I Wont be here for much longer
 
No I don't wanna go
no no no

Infatuated with your fake face
You're the only one I see in this place
I want to getcha getcha away from your friends
And we can pretend tonight's the night the world will end
Yeah ain't it heavensent?
I'll tell you what's ahead
Be your weatherman
Make sure your ego don't go to your head again
And remind ya who are
I'm so dead inside but you're makin me feel like I'm a star yeah

No I don't wanna go
no no no

Produced by Stemodity
@zbow3 @zbow3 @zbow3

[lyrics]
(Stemodity)
exsisting dont really mean shit to me truthfully
Still I can think a few reasons why I might stay
 If I left today I'd alleviate myself from pain that I face
But I think I'mma stay
The fuckin gun make ya blood run
I'mma stomp all my problems in the mud til they done
I won't run
Fuck is up punk what you on
what you want 
Washin down the acid tab with the smoke from the blunt
I 'm a fuck up  I won't front
stand back might attack and leave you fuckin stunned
sick shit won't quit always hit 
Never stop til the day my motherfuckin body drop

The world that we livin in is gettin sicker by the minute
And I really want to witness it
I think that I'm gonna stay for awhile
To watch it all crumble in style

(ZBØW3)
Mother and Father i do really hate
To say that you won’t have a son when you awake
I’m sorry I can’t make something of this evil fucking game but fuck it may as well stay and play 
Stay and play 
Like fuck it man may as well stay and fucking play 
Whatcha say 
Fuck ya anyway
Where the fuck ya stay
Pullin up w ya bae
Ya she just showed me the way 
& im like FUCCCKCCKK
Everything in my way AYE
Screaming and thrashing 
And ripping and gashing 
You don’t want NONE! AYE
Choking and slamming
And Smoking and laughing 
Come getchya SOME! AYE
We the ones who started 
Who started this fucking shit
So how the fuck could we ever
Could we ever fucking QUIT! 
But either way fuck the fucking fame
Fuck ya and ya fucking name 
Unless STEMODITY on ya plays 
Stay away outta domain 
We ain’t the same you’s a lame
And frankly I don’t even know what else to say AYE

SICKER BY THE MINUTE W/ ZBØW3

Who say you aint you?
They don't know a thing
You do what you chose
Get it in your brain
Got nothing to prove
When it is your game
Let em watch every damn move that you make
Careful who you let around yourself
You can't do a thing to change anybody else
You can't clean the pain that somebody felt
You can't comprehend the bend of will
You pick apart the damn way that I talk 
Way that I walk
Pain that I spark to elevate away from mistakes that I made
You don't define me 
Never will find me
around them peep
tryina outcast me
tryina outright be 
nothing more than a thief
I'm done
Fuck is goin on?
I could on and on
I keep it anon
you plebbits on reddit just been jerkin off on each other
without any rubber; you're dumb
Burnt like it's summer
The 90's and upper
If there is a come up I'm on it
aw shit, done comin up from the bong rips
got what i want, i want all it
im in way too damn deep again
I need to sleep again, uh..

I Gotta get away from here
Anywhere, just take me there
I don't think I can see clear
So please don't leave me waiting here
Gotta get away from here
Anywhere, just take me there...

lil stevie a deviant heathen
he dont need a reason to leave you not breathin
He seepin deep into ya dreams like paralysis demons
That wake you up screaming when you're off the deep-end
Let all of that sink in, I know what you thinking
i'm on one, don't give a fuck about what you say
awful ones are the ones that we prey on, i'm gone 

inside im dead
fuck you expect from me really 
im fed up with the place that I been
You dont wanna fathom the damage
the madness that keeps you contained in your head
cannot suppress the dread
finesse the mess you in
refuse to give in
livin in sin
isnt when funny when blood drippin runny
and start from your head to your neck, your dead
lead; is it the subject?
know am i above it or not?
diggin my plot in which I rot
you gonna rot too, all do,
body be worm food
Fuck do ya when human, huh?  
everybody nuisance, walk right through ya-uh
everybody nuisance-uh, everybody walk right through ya, huh?

Bicycleday Merch

NUiSANCE

Bitch I been a slave to my damn mind state
Locked up in the cage I named "my brain," ain't that a fried egg?
No escape, Slowly I disintegrate, I'm living great, got no complaints
Straight outta the gate I hate to say you punks are fucked like you been huffin paint
Huffin duster, type of cunts do anything in order just to cuff a couple bucks 
To climb up out the rut you dug your damn self
Can't take back the hand you dealt
Hit or fold, life is cold, break the mold or sink down deeper in your hole, little mole

Stuck in a place I don't wanna stay, what are my options here
Luck runnin out like a drought til I found a way outta my consciousness 
Fear what I'm putting myself through once again
Fear that one day I'll expose my fangs 
Another day another stain upon my brain it's all the same thing

No, no, I need no help
The worst is what they wish on me, I wish on them as well
my demon's catching up with me, behind is where I fell
 I feel like I'm hiding under my cracked and beaten shell

What the fuck you want with it
Own business, mind it
Blowin chronic til I'm nauseous
I'm oddly precautious
This presence of paranoia colossal
I lost all my hope but discovered my flow because of it
Don't mean nothin tho hold the phone til you get the message
And learn the lesson and earn the blessing before you let go

I can't really even seem to deal with what I'm faced with
Grind the green and pack it roll it dome it to the face bitch
Frontin like you know me we ain't had no conversation
This I'm getting sick of, for bullshit I got no patience

FRiED EGG

Illustrations by hxnvme_art on instagram, @puta_22 on soundcloud

Produced by Stemodity

//LYRICS\\
im fucked up livin in a fucked up world 

COULD GIVE A FUCK IF IM DRUNK
I DONT FEEL
U LOOK DUMB WHEN YOU TALK
U AINT REAL
IF THEY BACKED YOU IN THAT CORNER
U WOULD SQUEAL
WHATS THE DEAL THEN?
HOW YOU FEELIN?

U KNOW WHAT I WANT
U KNOW WHAT I DONE
I DON'T WANT A GUN
I DON'T WANNA RUN
U KNOW WHAT I WANT
U KNOW WHAT I DONE
U IS BUT A RUNT 
MAKE UR BODY NUMB

CANT GET AWAY FROM THE GAME IN MY BRAIN IM STUCK IN IT
WONT FINISH IT UP IM FUCKED UP, LUCK DOWN
DON'T YOU LOOK DOWN AT ME YOU AINT LIVING YOUR LIFE WITH A CROWN
ENVY DRIVES A MAN DEEP IN THE DIRT
SAY FUCK WHAT YOU HEARD
LIL BITCH IM LIVIN A CURSE
TIL THE DAY MY BODY IN A HEARSE 
TIL MY THE DAY MY SOUL DISPERSE

LIL STEVIE A DEVIANT HEATHEN
DON'T KNOW JUST WHAT HE BELIEVE IN
DEMONS ENGRAVED IN HIS CEILING
HE DON'T KNOW JUST WHO THE FUCK HE SHOULD TALK TO 
OFF OF A CLIFF HE MIGHT WALK SOON
BRAIN INSIDE TELLIN HIM NOT TO
MIGHT DO

Music Video

SQUEAL

prod. @counterf20xx

{lyrics}
cant cope
law of threefold knockin at your door
Can't cheat, so long
she a cutthroat
Turn me to a ghost so that I'm happy again
Don't trust no babylon cause ain't no pig has been a friend to me

Eardrums piercing from the frequencies you're hearing
Ask yourself the reason to be scareda whatcha fearing
Why you so afraid of the same thing you hold so dearly
Tell yourself you drown in it so you can see more clearly

I create the delusions residing in my brain
havin trouble living with what i am thats why i self-medicate
thats why i done felt better lately
i'm the one that saved me
made me say i cant leave yet
gotta finish what i started before I have departed
what you're feeling is real, so better tread with caution
Out of Consciousness: The Only Time I Feel Right
Feeling drained like I spent all last night sniffin white uh

I aint right nuh
My life a plight yuh
We all die so,
fuck livin right, huh?

cant cope
law of threefold knockin at your door
Can't cheat, so long
she a cutthroat
Turn me to a ghost so that I'm happy again
Don't trust no babylon cause ain't no pig has been a friend to me

CUTTHROAT [PROD. COUNTERFEIT]

Produced by Stemodity

i dont wanna go no
i dont wanna leave my body
im afraid of what i don't know
feel like there somethin creepin on me

dunno what wrong my brain
scared that im goin insane
maybe i have always been
i just been speeding along the damn pace
guess i just don't got no damn patience
face it i am but a waste of space
you are not much different
obliterate the pain you face
with a bullet in your brain
to them you are only a stain
another sad case of disdain
you amountin to nothin aint bluffin
im puffin all up on this dank
thanks, hoe.
say you gotta problem bitchy how you gonna solve it 
itchy trigger fingers bleedin but you never gonna squeeze it
you a actor, bastard
just another motherfucker smiling for the camera
just another motherfucker beggin for attention
that'll never learn his lesson guess he super fuckin dense
and he be thinkin he be livin so legit


lil stevie the deviant heathen is back just to slay once again
and paint a pretty little picture with his damn brain matter
thats scattered all over the cainvas, you need some maintenance
aint payin attention to what i am sayin you hollowed out cranium 
ignoramus, get used to the place I been
Cause I am you.
Hate to pollute you with the honest truth
But this isn't digital
hate getting high cause what goes up must come down
Head is so rundown im havin fun now witcha mane
but i gotta get back to my own plane
-stevie

i dont wanna go back

No i dont wanna go back
to the place im livin in
sinkin quick 
people such piece of shits
claim to love, leave tho quick,
had enough, outta chips
guess thats just the way i been forced to live
lately i feel worth about a drip of piss
and im sick of it; wonder should i back out 
trust been blacked out, pussy bout to cash out
but i guess he just a victim of a broken home
if i cannot blame em ill leave em alone

DISDAIN

Produced by @cadence20002 on Instagram

sickened presence got the lesson second guessin what your told
irreversible restraints on what you think of what's above
I been subscribing to some damn shtick thats gettin old
I forgotten who's rotten corpse my brain belongs to 
Whats gone come to taunt you
Same thing you been going through

who puts you here?
you do.
say you care?
who knew.
isn't fair?
boo hoo.

pressure dont stop

Everywhere I walk leave a dark taste
Unpaid, tryna maintain
tryna cop bankroll 
fuck the cops, can't trust none these days
world in a whirlwind
wonder if we make it
im too high spark a blunt down to ashes 
im after the cash bitch pass me the gas please
burn this shit down like it dont mean shit to me
Bitch lemme outta this maze im livin in its sink or swim
im sinkin in it too damn long 
I dont feel fine or like I belong

i been goin on
i been goin hund
i been goin dumb
i been goin dumbwit
I been goin numb

stuck in a volatile mind  
we all die, but i don't wanna wait in line
can't seem to find motivation to climb up
out of this rut I been stuck down in
had enough im gettin really sick of this I want a way out now
I'm done with this game

I don't wanna play no more
Every day the same, my brain is tore up
can't get a break but I'm broken down
i'm a slave to the chains that hold me down
Restrains me from weaseling my way the fuck out
This mentality that leaves me riddled in doubt
  in my grave I rot like I'm made to not live
Can't chill when I'm stuck with the demons that I deal with

SICKENED [PROD. CADENCE]

Do you feel like just a stain from where you came from?
Do you fear you need some help cause you're unstable?
Will you feel that way the day they flip the tables?
Feel the spirit bringing reason to your table
I don't know just which damn way we're going again
Think my focus going hopeless, ain't playing pretend anymore
I'm just lost in a world so cold
Don't know just which way it's going no more

You make fuck-all out your time, just flush it down your mind
Guess you're one with whats inside
Nothing, huh?
You scared of the damage you brought upon yourself
So shelve all of your needs to seek help, we're dying anyway
Say not choosing to do it sooner was your biggest mistake
Sink or stay afloat so hold on til the damn ship break
I'm lost in another state, ain't nothing changed in this place

All I know's I wanna sleep now
plead to be 'least six feet deep where i can be sound
mirror mirror, give me something new to see now
I been lost at such a cost don't wanna breathe now
Bring me down

BULLSEYE, BULLSEYE, BULLSEYE,
bullseye bullseye oh my,
lost control he don't mind
sinking deeper than a goldmine nah
oh my oh my uh
You said-You said "yeah you owe I"
but that's cap bitch you don't know me none
all my realest homies online
can't control me damn mind
i might just give up on the climb
cause I'm slippin up the mission I been given for the time being
i don't give a fuck
but sum ain't addin up
Guess its just my lack of trust
Mind busted up, I'm done son

Bullseye Hoodie

BULLSEYE! [PROD. CADENCE]

Produced by Stemodity

[lyrics]

no right time
only time
i'll be fine
press rewind
i'll relapse
you'll detach
it's no secret
you're my defect

wanna run away
every one 'round here's all the same way
wanna end it all
guess no one can have it all

u wanna catch me slippin, never catch me when i fall
real ones on my line like "is it so damn hard to call"
just know that all my dogs know just what you been on
everyday to me feels like I'm at a funeral
i ain't sell my soul but i felt the devil call
every day is special when there's breath within your lungs
feel like 911, you need me when something is wrong
but when you see me coming you want none to do at all

I been dashin 'round in circles
searchin for the right time
I don't think it ever was there
don't think that you ever did care

it's no secret, you're my defect

I been pacing 'round my place
my brain goes strong til dawn
searchin for the right time that i'll never find

you're my defect, it's no secret

i don't try to be this way
it all comes out naturally
every sign tells me to brake
but i can't stop
but i want to go back to when things were on track
problem is that i lack the hope to go on

Stemodity

BDG