The Upload

produced by raspo
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I took down my guard
And gave you my heart
Just to end up depressed
You tore me to pieces
And now that I’m bleeding
You still won’t confess? 
The way that you read me 
You played me so heavy
It’s like we were chess
The place that you hurt me
From being so thirsty
As deep as it gets, I mean

I just get lost in my head, I just wanted us but our lives were a mess in a bunch
So why did you tell me that I was the person you loved, if it wasn’t true 
Been writing these letters, addressed em to you
They’re written in blood but the color is blue like your face, when I’m saying this shit to your face, I’d assume 
I’m so done with you now, don’t call me or text me, it’s just too upsetting 
I don’t wanna hide in my room, in my bed, with my head under covers
I’d end up regretting it all wrong, which I don’t wanna do 
This is my soul on the page, opening up and its all on display
Hoping that someone will finally know me, and just wanna stay
And just wanna stay
I just wanna say 

I took down my guard
And gave you my heart
Just to end up depressed
You tore me to pieces
And now that I’m bleeding
You still won’t confess? 
The way that you read me 
You played me so heavy
It’s like we were chess
The place that you hurt me
From being so thirsty
As deep as it gets 

I was just thinking of you, and us
I just have no where to go, or trust 
I just keep getting no love, and fuck
Knife in my back so I always run
From issues and problems
Can never just solve em, to tell you the truth in this madness
Pushing my mind off of the edge of my canvas
Feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders like atlas
I dial my plug, fill up on gas shit, cause he always gas me
when nobody else does, been stationed here stuck on my own, in my house
I want a home, but you ain’t about it and I now I keep doubting if I’ll be enough for somebody
You’ve broken my heart, and that shit was as tough like karate
Feeling ours chops, all through my body, the picture gets spotty
I only remember the good, and forget all the bad
But that’s where I’m wrong, cause both what we had 
I only remember the good, and forget all the bad
But that’s where I’m wrong, cause both what we had 
But that’s where I’m wrong, cause both what we had 

I took down my guard
And gave you my heart
Just to end up depressed
You tore me to pieces
And now that I’m bleeding
You still won’t confess? 
The way that you read me 
You played me so heavy
It’s like we were chess
The place that you hurt me
From being so thirsty
As deep as it gets, look

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Lyrics :
I’ve seen dead people in front of my eyes
Searching for a high that couldn’t provide
A lifetime of a lifetime
Now who am I?
To tell you what to do and not do
Well I’m just a guy
I’m only 19, but I’ve seen things that no one should see
Body laid out pale
Dead from an OD
Willing to die for something that’s gone be temporary
Searching for a high that’s gonna be unnecessary
Soon as it’s over
And you forget what happened
10 minutes of being sober and then you right back at it
You say you not an addict
They say I should stick to rappin
But I've seen too many people die
And I finally had it
I’m tired of seeing people I love
Getting caught up on drugs
Not knowing when to say enough is enough
I’m tired of all the pain
I’m tired of all the sorrow
I’m tired of not knowing if I’ll see people tomorrow
Or they’ll
Be gone because they want to live reckless
Thinking that the drugs are gonna make them be stressless
But when the high is over
Life becomes real again
The feelings that they had before they gonna start to feel again
So they popping on them pills again
In an attempt to never feel again
They thinking that it’s healing them
But in reality it’s killing them

I don’t want to throw my life away
I don’t want to see you die today
I don’t want to throw it all away (yeah)
I don’t want to throw my life away
I don’t want to see you die today
Don't want you to throw it all away (yeah)

Why we gotta separate so soon?
Because you thought the drugs would heal your internal wounds
Living life on the edge like your body would be immune
To all of the consequences till you ended up dead in your room
Now it’s crazy
Cuz we won’t ever talk again
I just wish I would’ve told you stop popping them
And to stop shooting up heroin deep inside your veins
But at that point I already knew that nothing would change
You were addicted
And there was nothing I could do
I can’t imagine all the pain that you were going through
You said you thought that no one loved you, I just wish you knew
How much that God honestly cared for you
You see the problem is that people think that Gods is evil
We blame God for the problems that we create as people
We've got a choice between life and death and we choose the needle
In the end
The consequences prove to be lethal

I don’t want to throw my life away
I don’t want to see you die today
Don’t want you to throw it all away (yeah)
I don’t want to throw my life away
I don’t want to see you die today
Don’t want you to throw it all away (yeah)

I’m sorry that you went out like that
You were drowning and the drugs were your life raft
You didn’t know they were pulling you down
And now I’m praying for your family, you’re no longer around
You're no longer around
You're no longer around
You're no longer around
And now I’m praying for your family, you’re no longer around

Drug Abuse

This isn’t on SoundCloud so I decided to upload it :)

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